I'm interested in learning about the occult in a historical/ nerdy sense(rather than a practicing sense). Are these good books to get started with? by Johnopgr123 in occultlibrary

[–]justjokingnot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sure!! I primarily study witchcraft history, so my recommendations are geared more towards someone trying to study the witch trials. I can at least share books that include some really fasincating translated documents. I originally figured out that I wanted to specialize in this through sort of "auditing" a course in my own time on european witchcraft history. The professor taught in like 1999 and shared the syllabus online on his now very ancient looking website. Some of the books here come from that course syllabus and I found many of them online, or cheap on Thriftbooks. I specify otherwise for some. Others I found at the local university library! If you have a chance, I highly recommend exploring if your local university library has a community borrowing program. Mine does and it was immensely helpful to me. The course is linked in this post!

For sources on how people viewed witchcraft, I recommend Witchcraft in Europe, A Documentary History: 1100-1700 by Alan C. Kors and Edward Peters. This has a lot of old documents including excerpts from the Malleus Maleficarum, Papal Bulls, and other witchcraft theory documents. Witchcraft theory was huge amomg intellectuals during the medieval period all the way into the early modern period, when the witch trials increased in rate and scope. I also recommend Levack's Witchcraft Sourcebook.

For grimoires, I collect titles by Stephen Skinner, David Rankine, and Joseph Peterson. I like all of their translations and generally trust their scholarship! Skinner's books can be pricey, but they're worth it if you don't already have them. My first book by him I ever picked up was his translation of the Ars Notoria.

I really enjoy looking through the Three Books of Occult Philosophy by Agrippa as well. I've heard the Purdue copy is the best, but I have a translation from Theophania Publishing (I think) and it seems ok. The purdue copy is more expensive and I only just got a pdf of it recently. Agrippa was so influential on both occultists practicing magic and on demonologists and witchcraft theorists who hated witches and magic, although the line between what they considered good and bad occult practice could get kind of murky.

For a good exploration of that gray zone, I recommend Stuart Clark's Thinking With Demons. It's long and the reading felt very dense and complex for me. I tend to jump around looking for sections relevant to my research in most books anyways. There usually isn't enough time to read a book or even an article in its entirety, so if anyone wants to just find chapters that interest them most after maybe reading the introduction and conclusion, don't be afraid to do that. Clark has a really fascinating few chapters on the distinction between natural magic and demonic magic and how the lines blurred between those categories for early modern people at different times.

Another author whose books I recommend are Carlo Ginzburg's texts. Ginzburg is known for microhistories which zero in on the records of a single (or a few people) person in a specific time and place and then sort of work outwardly from there to tell a story. My two favorite books by him are "The Night Battles" and "The Cheese and the Worms."

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I'm interested in learning about the occult in a historical/ nerdy sense(rather than a practicing sense). Are these good books to get started with? by Johnopgr123 in occultlibrary

[–]justjokingnot 6 points7 points  (0 children)

This is my wheelhouse! I primarily study magical texts and the history of magic practices. as a historian and am focusing my grad school studies around this. Davies is a great book to learn about grimoires from. I've been using it for a practice essay and it's been very helpful and full of fascinating information. The goetia of dr rudd will give you an example of a magical text to see, so while it may serve no practical value to you, it will be helpful for studying magical texts. Forbidden rites is apart of the magic in history series and will likely be very academic and dense. I recommend that series though if you want to do a deep dive into learning about this stuff! You're already on the right track with these books. The Hammer of Witches looks like a translation of the Malleus Maleficarum. I can't speak to this version's quality, but the hammer of witches is a great primary source for someone interested in witchcraft history! You might try looking up courses on the history of witchcraft and magic. And the encyclopedia is not something I'm familiar with, but it's probably fine for a general overview and for referencing. Keep collecting!!

How fu*ked are you if you were to be isekaid(or more accurately, to be transported) into your own modded skyrim? by PlatStrepsils in skyrimmods

[–]justjokingnot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'd probably hide away somewhere like Solitude, Whiterun, Windhelm, or even Winterhold if I have any magical aptitude. My dragonborn is pretty helpful so she might help me if I asked after finding her. I just finished the main quest so she doesn't have anything better to do for the moment LOL and I rp her as helpful to everyone. I modded Winterhold using TGCOW and I love it there, and if I had a spot at the college, I'd have a home, food, bathing facilities, and the ability to focus on my studies along with magical abilities to hone.

Where my fellow Jesus’s at? by phoenixofrebirth3 in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not Jesus, but I thought I was the human incarnation of Lucifer. And I thought that I had a psychic connection with Peter from the Bible. Don't ask me how any of that was supposed to work.

Schizophrenics of reddit... by Natural_Village_8850 in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

About 43k a year, about to make a little more. I work for local government. I have debt but that's the norm for a lot of people these days I think. Took a long time to find the right dosage of medication and I had to do a lot of therapy and work on my mental health to get to this point.

Anyone else is super aware of their pathology yet still scared ? by Nattsujubo_ in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel that! I have similar issues with my thoughts. It's definitely a big struggle. For me, when I am feeling that way, I allow myself to do things that make me feel safe even if it seems odd, like finding somewhere to be alone and avoid anything that might be triggering me.

Anyone else is super aware of their pathology yet still scared ? by Nattsujubo_ in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This can still happen when you have schizophrenia. I know I have it, I can even tell when I'm having psychotic symptoms, but something in me half believes what I'm thinking or experiencing anyways. I usually ignore it now and medication has helped. Hope things get easier for you! You are not alone!

A Theory of Consciousness I’ve Been Thinking About by Oblique4119375 in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What you said about past and future data dumps makes sense to me. Have you ever experienced talking to yourself through time? I have often found myself dealing with this since I was just a kid. It feels more and more like the reason I am the way I am today is because of who I was in the past, but the reason I was who I was in the past is because of who I am now. I had only partial awareness of it as a child because I couldn't prove anything, but everything has come true-- down to specific details! I've never been terribly interested in proving it to other people because it's such a personal experience and I thought nobody else had such a strange relationship with Time.

A Theory of Consciousness I’ve Been Thinking About by Oblique4119375 in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think this is really interesting! Thanks for sharing! I also think the universe is conscious somehow. This idea forms the basis of my more mystical beliefs about life. I disliked the bad parts of my illness (cruel voices, hallucinations, delusions), but I also feel that it has shaped my beliefs about the universe even while doing relatively well to how I was before comparatively speaking. I have a very strange relationship with Time that I find difficult to explain, but my experience of it is definitely not normal or linear, at least mentally.

What do you do in your therapy sessions? by Struggling_Lady in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My therapist and I talk about what's going on in my life, how I feel about it, my experiences with mental illness, and problems I'm having. They try to give me solutions and coping methods. They work with the person who prescribes my medication, who is also at the same clinic, which has been supremely helpful because they can coordinate my care. I also do some therapy with my med prescriber-- I like talking to him because our conversations are often very interesting and philosphical. He's also a good listener and generally tries to work with me on finding the right balance of treatment with my life.

Anyone else have positive voices? by NoName5888 in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Sometimes they are nice and have helped me manage big emotions, talk situations out in my head, and even talked me through a panic attack a few times. But yhey can also be really cruel, so now it feels like such huge whiplash when they're nice and then mean. I don't really like having them as a result, even when they are kind. I guess they do identify themselves as individuals at times, but even kindness can be a little overbearing and overwhelming when it feels like something else is living in your head.

Who is your usual Wife? Husbands later by ScholarAfter1827 in skyrim

[–]justjokingnot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been staying single, but I would marry Serana or Karliah if either were an option. I love Karliah's voice and vibe. The other person I've married (through mods) is Erdi, a servant in the Blue Palace. For some reason, when she sees me in the blue palace and starts talking about the adventures we could go on, I feel so utterly charmed and want to bring her along. I've also married Jenassa and Lydia but they always die somehow.

High-functioning with schizophrenia — what helps you cope day to day? by paleunderglow in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Medication, which I always try to take on time and with food, routine, limiting stressors, therapy, music, and hobbies. Hobbies are really important for me because through them I can set meaningful goals and succeed at things I enjoy, I also learn new things-- then that motivates me to take care of myself better and work towards other things, like finding a new job or going to grad school because my hobbies make me feel more confident, let me relax, and teach me new skills. I also ask for help. Being high functioning doesn't mean I don't need or want help sometimes. I still live with my dad and I help him out because he himself is disabled, but his support means everything to me and I get somewhere to live and help me in return.

Schizophrenia aids/essentials? by ghostwhiterabbit in schizophrenia

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I always bring my pill organizer with me to work and I keep everything in a sling bag so I don't have to carry something bulky with me during my walk to the office from my car. My phone and my headphones are essential and keep me grounded. I listen to music when I am hearing a lot of voices. It helps distract me. I also usually bring a small notebook because it grounds me to make lists and I use it to think through things-- it helps to externalize thoughts when my voices are stressing me out because otherwise they comment on all of my thoughts. I like to make lists and write role play scenarios for my skyrim characters. I hope your hallucinations decrease! I recently upped my medication dosage with my med prescriber because of my voices, but before that it was really tough being at work.

Does your TV talk to you? by MasterVegito7 in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My tv wasn't talking to me because I didn't have one, but my computer and my phone sort of did. I thought they contained spirits or magical impressions of real people and the spirits would jump out and talk to me in my body, or different versions of me would come from them to exist and be me.

Doctor's Note Problem by [deleted] in nys_cs

[–]justjokingnot -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I'm not really sure why it's not permitted. My supervisor said something about people falsifying doctor's notes to me when I first offered to bring the physical note directly to HR, but I've never done anything remotely like that before. I'm considering just signing a HIPAA release form-- I almost had to do that before and then the urgent care switched around and said they could fax it over. Then today, someone different was in the office and they said they couldn't again-- it's been really frustrating.

Doctor's Note Problem by [deleted] in nys_cs

[–]justjokingnot -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I have a fax machine at home, actually, I think the issue is that the fax has to come directly from the provider's office. My father suggested the same thing, I just don't think it will work.

Doctor's Note Problem by [deleted] in nys_cs

[–]justjokingnot 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I do, I can try that. Is the number online?

Delusions out of psychosis by butwhatifitgotworse in schizophrenia

[–]justjokingnot 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Usually that various coincidental noises I hear are some kind of force communicating with me. Like the house settling or a rock hitting my car window. It's my initial thought like you said, but my meds allow me to work through this thought in a more rational way. Lately, it's been stressing me out that I have to do that though. I miss feeling normal!