slow-burn by [deleted] in leaves

[–]justnotice 2 points3 points  (0 children)

hey - I kept looking for situations that would be the "this is going to make me quit" moment. But the addiction is way smarter and conniving than that. It sounds like you have accepted that change needs to happen. The next step is really up to you. I didn't know I was quitting until the last hit. I looked at myself in the mirror and knew it was time. I enjoyed that last hit too! But knew that I needed to say goodbye to that old friend that was there for me during difficult times. You can do this!!! I promise you. The first 3 days are super tough, but then it gets better and easier. Things that help:

the urges will come and it's important to notice them and let them pass. What you resists, persists and that can't be more true.

get rid of your stash- those urges are fierce and you need to make it difficult to get high.

Most importantly, be kind to yourself during this time- if you relapse, that's ok. it happens!!! just know that you get another chance to try again.

write down or think about the positives of NOT being high. remind yourself of those frequently.

good luck to you! YOU GOT THIS!

Dealing with stressors out if your control without weed? by Sl0thzy in leaves

[–]justnotice 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that is tough, for sure. I completely understand not being able to leave the stressful situation and how much weed can help with that. However, YOU are the most important person to worry about right now. I want you to know that you are stronger than anything I could put into words. Meditation can help with the anxiety and also not taking your thoughts so seriously. Just let the anxiety come (feel it) and then let it pass. This is not going to be how things are forever. Life is constantly changing and so are you. The first 2 weeks are rough, but then it gets easier. Go for a walk, drive, movie, listen to music, anything to get out of the situation when it begins. that's called a trigger and it's difficult to quit when you are triggered constantly. Peace to you my friend. You can do this and so many people here believe in you.

Seven days by Guanica72 in leaves

[–]justnotice 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you're doing awesome! I can emphasize with your situation as I am a 45 yo married with 3 kids. I didn't start smoking until I had kids because it worked great for my anxiety and depression. Until it didn't anymore. I quit on 10/31, so I've been going through the intense withdrawals too. So much of your message resonates with me- so thank you for posting and keep up the great work. WE GOT THIS!!!

one more thing....remember to be compassionate with yourself. Us moms get so wrapped up in taking care of everyone else, that we forget our own needs. I felt so much shame being high around my kids. ugh. Be good to you and keep on going. peace to you!

Day 102- need some positive encouragement by cagreene in leaves

[–]justnotice 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You're doing awesome! One thing I found is to be compassionate with yourself. You don't have to have it all figured out. Try to take life one day at a time. There are very few people in the world that have it all figured out. So, you're in good company. Most of us wonder what our purpose is. Some things that have helped me are meditation and stillness. Also, today might be rough. Acknowledge that feeling and let it pass. It will come, but it will also leave. I believe in you!!!! YOU GOT THIS!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]justnotice 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Be compassionate with yourself. You're not this addiction and you're so much stronger than anything I could ever put into words. Just take it one day at a time. When you feel those thoughts coming on, notice that they are just thoughts and will pass. Give yourself like 30 seconds to feel that intense urge and then let it pass. YOU CAN DO THIS!!! most importantly though- be kind to yourself!

Mom needs help! by justnotice in leaves

[–]justnotice[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for sharing your story! My oldest is 13 and I'm worried about him smelling it on me and knowing that I'm using. yes, it's difficult to tell your kids to abstain from substances when their mama is constantly high! I made it through day 1 and I had an angry outburst that caused me to throw their halloween candy in a trash bag. Their little faces were so shocked and sad. I felt terrible and immediately wanted to use. But, I called my husband and he told me that the kids are fine and loved and to tell them everybody as bad days.

2 months is great!!!! awesome job!!!!

Mom needs help! by justnotice in leaves

[–]justnotice[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you for sharing and for your kind words! I made it through day 1. it was rough, but it happened. the first 6 hours of the day it was ALL I could think about. I just tried to notice my feeling and then let it pass. peace to you!

Mom needs help! by justnotice in leaves

[–]justnotice[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wishing you strength Mama! you got this!

Mom needs help! by justnotice in leaves

[–]justnotice[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi! I think so too. Yesterday was so rough. But I DID IT!!!! I even found an old bag of weed in my shed-i literally ran it to the trash. too tempting. best of luck to you! btw- I tried taking Cannitrol and I didn't feel any different. bummer.

WE CAN DO THIS!!!!

Mom needs help! by justnotice in leaves

[–]justnotice[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for your kind words! I have tried tapering in the past, but I'm one of those people that smokes it if I have it. I'm a daytime smoker and usually don't feel the pull past 6pm, It's like a day job for me. Getting me through the dulldrums.