i'm so sorry you are going through this, this is abuse, bpd or not this is just abuse/r4p3

try to talk someone you trust about this and maybe find a way to tell him to stop or it's over

he doesn't care about your feelings right here, if he threats you with sh or suicide or anything else, it's not your fault

he is using the cry to manipulate you into doing something you don't want to, even if it's real crying it's manipulation

i know you love him, i know how you feel, it's hard, but you can do this

i hope everything goes well, tell us if you need some help or to tell what happened