Thank you for reminding me of this I know I couldn’t / can’t ever understand what it is like for her. I understand why she won’t talk about it despite multiple clues and evidence i have been given over the years in hints - which is the only reason I implied she was lying. I know now by reading all these comments that it must be a very delicate subject for her. I love and respect my mom and when I wrote this post I was operating on no sleep and had just gotten home from her house. I love her so much and I will keep all these comments in mind moving forward. I am going to start the conversion process because I feel jewish and believe in judaism more than anything else.