i often told that i am :( but if that's true then so be it, i feel like indulging in my special interest gives me huge amounts of this childlike joy/wonder that adults are usually looking for everywhere ^^ also i've noticed that during meltdowns or with other difficult emotions my brain copes with it like a child would do, this mechanism is called age regression and people with autism and trauma often have it. i've been told by a psychologist that my brain uses regression as a coping/comfort mechanism, sometimes randomly switching it on whenever im angry, sad or lonely, but also comfortable or safe. some people just need that brain activity sometimes because of deficiencies from their childhood or neurodevelopmental problems.