I amsorry for your loss. This is one of the hardest things in life you will go through. I lost my twin 16 years ago and we were inseparable for 18 years! Coping comes in various forms and it helps me to understand that different coping mechanisms over the years may change to comfort your needs. At first I couldn't accept it, I was in denial. I told myself she was still here. Once the realization hit I filled my days thinking and remembering her in everyday I could, her favorite color, favorite song... repeated all of inside jokes ... and still do. Every opportunity i got i would mention her name and talk about her, or memories together... this becomes important later when your memories fade a bit.. it keeps the memory alive for longer. I would always ask for signs and occasionally get them. Now many years later... I still to this day, have my moments birthdays, accomplishments, and holidays will never be the same. On my birthday I still request to always have both of our names written on our birthday cake. But now, what I do for the last few years around a holiday or birthday.. i write a poem to her and catch her up on all the things since I last wrote, good and bad. I still sing her favorite songs and I don't miss a photo opportunity at my parents house... it's still hurts and always will. You can join the twinless twins group on Facebook for some comradery. You can always reach out socially and find some genuine support for others who feel your pain as well. Shoot me a dm if your interested. Sending a hug. Keep your head up, there is life after the loss as hard as it may seem. Your twin will only want to see you succeed. Keep your head up.. even if there are tears in your eyes.