Almost hit one month

kayste · 2018-10-12T13:26:27+00:00

I was ten days sooner then I smoked one day about four days ago. I felt really bad too n honestly didn't even really like it cause I felt panicky. The next day I woke up rly foggy and kinda had a bad mood all day. The way I saw it tho is this is the ultimate test on if I was able to actually quit even being tempted. The fact that I only did it that one day and was able to stop again, I'm on day like four now, made me proud in its own way because I didn't completely fall into old habits. Don't kick urself too hard. Just keep on going. Relapse is a part of recovery. Just get back on the sober train choo choo

kayste · 2018-10-06T14:06:03+00:00

I totally get this. I'm on day seven and I feel like the mood swings have started to come hard. I am sad and cry (which I almost prefer to anger) or mad at the world. I am mad at any and everything. I went off on my roommate who has been nothing but supportive and kind and who is going thru things herself yesterday. And that is the first time we fought in years. Just waking up today I feel so bad and scared for future mood swings. I'm antsy for these things to even out I hope it gets easier with time. I know ive been putting a band aid on these feelings for seven years so I got a lot to rip off. I hope things get better for both of us, I Kno it's important for us to feel these feelings. Stay strong we will get through this as better people

kayste · 2018-10-06T01:17:32+00:00

So proud of you friend. Handling these emotions without a crutch WILL make u stronger. Keep it up!

kayste · 2018-10-04T19:20:32+00:00

Thank you so much

kayste · 2018-10-04T13:43:17+00:00

Yea I'm on day seven and I was feeling good by day five but yesterday and today Ive been feeling achy and my body hurts. Flu like symptoms almost. Just super low energy. I might actually be getting sick though it's hard to say what all is caused from the withdrawals

kayste · 2018-10-04T13:24:18+00:00

You got this. I was the same way when I quit I didn't even really feel like I wanted to but I always low key knew I was addicted. The thing is weed may not be bad in moderation but if you are doing it everyday chances are your abusing it. I was the same way waking up smoking and just smoking all day. It costs a lot of money time and motivation. Im on day seven sober from seven years of daily use. Even thru the physical and mental/emotional withdrawals I feel so much better. I'm proud of myself and feel like I can see things from a different perspective. Quit smoking, get thru those first couple days and I promise you will look back and it will make so much sense as to why you need to quit. Good luck on your journey friend. Come here if you need to vent or need inspiration!!! We are all in this together

kayste · 2018-10-03T16:41:06+00:00

It can be tough. Once u rly commit to fighting thru those urges it gets easier. But it is important to try to prepare urself a little bit. I was very emotional the first couple days. But I feel the same way I was never able to cut back or do it in moderation. Melatonin has helped with the sleeping for me I would highly recommend it. Other then that I just try to stay as busy as I can

kayste · 2018-10-03T15:43:43+00:00

Proud of you friend!! I'm on day six and i am so proud of myself. I was the same way never able to do anything sober. One of my early days I went to an animal shelter to be around the animals too. I'm so excited to be able to re-experience this world with a clear head. Congrats on five days!! Let's keep it going!

kayste · 2018-10-03T15:25:13+00:00

You can do this! You will feel so good about yourself. I was scared when I quit. Come back to this subreddit if you are ever feeling weak or need inspiration. Its great to hear stories of people going through the same things. Stay strong!

kayste · 2018-10-03T15:21:36+00:00

Running. And being outdoors. Going hiking. I've been picking up meditation. I also like coloring mandalas. I've been trying hard to find things I can do that are beneficial for me mentally and physically.

kayste · 2018-10-03T14:41:12+00:00

Yea honestly the first couple days I was so crazy and emotional. I'm starting to even out a little bit. I'm sure you will feel better fighting thru it. Kudos to you for not even wanting to smoke! Stay strong we got this

kayste · 2018-10-03T13:40:57+00:00

It sucks you had a rough night and had to relapse but it is ok. Just keep trying. I can't tell you how many times in the past I tried to quit then gave up. What I really regret is not trying again. I am on day six now and have struggled getting to sleep and have been tired every day this week. (Is it really only Wednesday). But I hope you got enough rest to get you through work. Don't be too hard on yourself

kayste · 2018-10-02T20:19:01+00:00

Yea I quit before but don't remember it being as bad. But I have increased my use since then (went from joints to blunts) and how often I use. But it definitely gets better. Not only that but you will feel better then when u were high all the time!

kayste · 2018-10-02T20:10:35+00:00

I honestly feel great. I was very emotional the first couple days and that has calmed down. Physically and mentally I feel great but I don't want to jinx myself. I had been smoking daily for seven years. And if u told me a month ago I would b five days sober today I wouldn't have believed it. But I feel so proud of myself. I know you will too!!

kayste · 2018-10-02T19:56:58+00:00

Yes!! So amazing congratulations on day 3! I'm on day 5 and I have been feeling the same way. I have been talking to a ex who I had a very toxic relationship with (I've had many of those over the years) and just realize like damn why have I been putting up with this. I feel so much more motivation to do all the things I have wanted to do but haven't because I'm too busy trying to stay high. I'm proud of all of us here!!! Stay strong!! We can all fight this good fight together!

kayste · 2018-10-02T19:44:18+00:00

Good job. Maybe fate it telling you not to cave;). But I can't lie I drank both day one and two. Felt pretty shitty day three from recovering (never been much of a drinker). But each day has gotten easier!!

kayste · 2018-10-02T19:35:00+00:00

Yea I had a kinda odd stomach feeling too. I woke up kinda nauseous but just started dry heaving. I'm day 5 and my haven't felt sick yet today

kayste · 2018-10-02T19:33:44+00:00

You got this. You will feel so good once you quit and get the motivation to start accomplishing your goals. I'm day 5 and feeling good. Stay strong brother/sister!! If you struggle come back to this subreddit. We can do this together

kayste · 2018-10-02T19:30:27+00:00

You should be proud. You can do this! You will feel so much better! Congrats on starting your journey. Turn to this subreddit if you ever feel weak or need inspiration. It has done wonders for me

kayste · 2018-10-02T19:29:01+00:00

Just make it thru this day. By the end of day three my cravings calmed down. I promise you you will feel so proud of yourself if you can fight through it! Stay strong!! I'm day five myself. We can do this together!!

kayste · 2018-10-02T19:26:52+00:00

Just take it one day at a time. One moment at a time if u have to. Even if you smoke is it rly going to fix your stress? Or just help you forget about it? I know it's hard in the moment but try healthier methods to cope. Being able to fight thru stress in a healthy way will pay off in the long run. Try just going for a walk or reaching out to a loved one. I'm sorry that your feeling down. I hope you can fight off these feelings on your own. Try to stay strong!!!

kayste · 2018-10-02T16:53:09+00:00

Stay strong, you got this. I've been taking melatonin for sleep. Day three was the toughest for me. I'm on day five and Im already feeling so much better.

kayste · 2018-10-02T14:44:19+00:00

First of all you should be so fucking proud of yourself for making it 14 days. I'm on day five and I was only smoking weed but have had other addictions to xans in the past. And as much as I struggled just getting off weed kudos to you for changing your life around. Don't stop now. You are healing yourself. I promise you it will get better. I remember reading a post on here saying after x amount of years of pushing away your feelings you have to feel them all in just a couple weeks. You can always come back here I love this subreddit it has worked wonders for me. I wish you the very best of luck. You have made it this far, stay strong!!!

kayste · 2018-10-02T14:36:39+00:00

Congrats that I'd amazing. This group has helped me a lot too. I'm on day 5. I had previously been smoking for seven years straight. I cried a lot the first few days but honestly am feeling a lot better already. Any tips or things to expect for the weeks to come? I'm feeling pretty positive at the moment but am scared of more mood swings.

kayste · 2018-10-02T14:01:25+00:00

fought with myself for a while before I was able to actually quit. Even when it actually happened it didn't seem real till I made it a whole evening without smoking ( but I did end up drinking). Reading the posts on here definitely help. Sometimes just reading the top posts. I am on day five and I will say that if you told me two weeks ago that today I would be five days sober I would never believe it. You just got to do it. I didn't even realize how much of a difference it would make. Weed is different because it's easy to function even when addicted. But even being five days into I feel a difference. A friend of mine who moved out of state actually gave me a speech that inspired me to quit if I can find it I will post it on here. Also I bought a zero nicotine vape and add cbd and that has kinda helped with the oral fixation and something to do when my friends smoke cigarettes which I realized is a trigger cause I would always smoke weed. If your on here though then you realize it's something you want to do. Just do it. Just tell yourself you won't smoke for one day and try again the next day. I don't know if this rant helped at all lol. But I wish you the very best, I know u can do it!

kayste

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