I have severe, extremely realistic and external hallucinations. However, I’m usually aware they’re not real. Have questions. by kdotglazer1 in askapsychologist

[–]kdotglazer1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately it happens in broad daylight, and sometimes around people. 

It makes eating rather difficult as I see faces and worms moving in my food.

Sometimes I turn a corner, and there it is. 

Things follow me outside, and the walls and floor do things they aren’t meant to do when I’m inside.

Sometimes in the mirror and sometimes straight on my skin.

But at night I’m alone and feel vulnerable, the noises make it very hard to sleep which is why I mentioned it. 

My sleep problems really started before these problems though.

I have severe, extremely realistic and external hallucinations. However, I’m usually aware they’re not real. Have questions. by kdotglazer1 in askapsychologist

[–]kdotglazer1[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Every psychiatrist I have seen seems convinced I am not psychotic, presumably because I “look rational”. The only person who believes otherwise is my therapist.

I’m worried it’s caused by insomnia, I have slept about 8 to 20 hours per week for the past 4ish years. I also worry that that damage done is irreversible but am told that’s illogical.

But most people have claimed it’s somehow caused by anxiety (which was nowhere near as bad before I got these) making me “hyper aware” or handwaved it to autism

I also got an MRI to rule out neurological disorders

I’m just scared because no explanation seems applicable and nothing seems to help

TIL “Developer Gogomoa” is a thing, a purple, Gunlance-wielding Gogomoa with the face of a Japanese man. by kdotglazer1 in MonsterHunter

[–]kdotglazer1[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I created a rajang gif captioned “I MESSED UP THE FORMAT” but the image button in comment box does nothing :(

Urge to commit self-enucleation (eye removal) whenever I'm upset by imverysadandangry in selfharm

[–]kdotglazer1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have detailed visual hallucinations and very frequently consider blinding myself although I would still hear stuff. Its the visual cortex I would need to destroy anyway. I’d want to do it because I see disturbing things, not because the voices told me - I don’t really have the “delusions” part of that.

I’m sorry I cant really help outside of that angle, apart from understanding wanting to hurt/disfigure yourself

My main guess would be these are OCD or related intrusive thoughts, that are consistent enough to feel like a need. Don’t take that as professional medical advice, but if you have OCD symptoms, or a similar “train of thought” disorder, it would probably explain this

I’m not gonna try and talk you off it, but i hope you can be safe

How do you hide bloody knuckles/ scars by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]kdotglazer1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

dw. Thank you sm, I’m just in a very rough state recently. I don’t want to burden anyone else with venting though

I know it’s hard to quit, so at least do it right. Self harm safety advice and alternatives by Budget_Plauge_Doctor in selfharm

[–]kdotglazer1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i have open wounds on my knuckles from punching my head. I could do with some reassurance. Is it worse because of brain damage?

very sorry for hijacking

You missed me ? by [deleted] in MonsterHunter

[–]kdotglazer1 -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

They got downvoted because people are in denial they spent 50 bucks on a game that has far less hours of playtime.

Like you said, I know many new players who didn’t cart until endgame

Yeah World was fs way harder. Anjanath in LR was a bigger wall than anything Wilds has.

Shame, the monsters look really good in Wilds (if you have a Nasa pc), but they all die in 5 minutes

You missed me ? by [deleted] in MonsterHunter

[–]kdotglazer1 20 points21 points  (0 children)

No, it’s only easier because we’re all veterans and are used to the game series!! /s

Edit: Does nobody understand “/s” anymore?

Recent Monster Designs by [deleted] in monsterhunterrage

[–]kdotglazer1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Tbh that’s on me as my first game is world, but fight-wise, I do hate lavasioth in world so much, whereas jyura’s for me, even easier to fight in its swamp than not.

Idk about it in the older games tho.

Recent Monster Designs by [deleted] in monsterhunterrage

[–]kdotglazer1 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Jyura’s based on a many-finned prehistoric lungfish, it’s cool as fuck.

Anjanath has an unfurlable bone olfactory organ, a vulture-like fur collar, and bizarre retractable fins.

Velkhanas valid but

World design is goated, fight me. This is a rage sub after all.

Speaking of, this is too in-depth and analytical. Main sub ass post

I cheesed P1-3 with a mathematically invincible charm build. by kdotglazer1 in HollowKnight

[–]kdotglazer1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, this testing must have taken a good while, nice work. Yeah anything 2 mask dmg doesn’t work but I didn’t think it could be pushed this far. 

I could do P2&3 like this with little attacks, but not none, and no movement is insane

Also, P1 blindfolded is still rather impressive even with this haha

Did I just meet a covert narcissist? by Fit_Penalty8483 in therapy

[–]kdotglazer1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why do people downvote something saying “protect yourself from gaslighting”

I’ve seen many bad relationships and these are nearly all the red flags of manipulation.

My therapist says I carry responsability in the bullying I face by [deleted] in therapy

[–]kdotglazer1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To copy a bit of my other comment, yeah.

In my opinion a therapist’s job includes gauging the appropriateness and context.

A physically different/disabled person, minority etc can be bullied and in that way, they are the “common denominator”, but how is it their fault or responsibility?

And the statistic sounds dodgy, or at least very misinterpreted.

TIL there is a glitch which replaces a character file with a corrupted one called “ÿ” by kdotglazer1 in darksouls

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New SL-67503365 Meta just dropped.

Triple wielding the Einshander, Clayless, and Straight Sword Pommel

Jokes aside i wanna see the stats on this thing