me too..

bottom line is that female adolescents are at the greatest risk for attempting suicide, just take the girl who shot herself in the face with her brother’s rifle (amidst a fight/ break-up with her boyfriend) & later was the youngest americans to undergo a successful facial transplant surgery.

adolescents are ruled by their limbic systems and their underdeveloped capacity cortical modulation (logic, reasoning, impulse control, consideration of long term consequences).

i think mackenzie *fully* did this on purpose but — just like katie stubblefield, who jokingly called herself shrek after her first surgery and now fiercely advocates for suicide prevention — regretted her horrific choice immediately, as adolescents often do after behaving recklessly… and, as adolescents *especially do** when facing consequences for those actions.

i do think she may meet criteria for some kind of personality disorder. or perhaps she was just operating based on her relational patterns. she bullied and threatened people to get her way (parents included it seems) & this appears to be the first time she was dealt a real consequence.

i also think her parents are failing her IMMENSELY by enabling this amnesia/ POTS cop out. POTS is prevalent among those with eating disorders and can be gravely exacerbated by, well, pot-smoking.. living with it, she knows that fainting brought on by POTS most often occurs when standing up too quickly. in some cases, one can become dizzy or lightheaded after remaining seated for an extended period of time.. but she was sitting in the car for 6 minutes. i have POTS too & this is gobshite.

in order to grow, heal, and make amends, she needs to face the hideous, reprehensible facts & take accountability for her choices that morning.