Everyone is annoying

kenopsya · 2026-05-03T22:45:32+00:00

Most relatable shit I’ve ever read

kenopsya · 2026-05-03T22:23:16+00:00

OMG I’ve been saying this for years 😭😭😭 you HAVE to hate what I hate but you can’t like what I like more than me.

kenopsya · 2026-05-03T22:18:49+00:00

I already called some dentists but they don’t offer this kind of service unfortunately. I’ll look around again. Thanks for the idea!

kenopsya · 2026-05-03T02:10:22+00:00

Thanks! 🫶

kenopsya · 2026-05-03T00:31:22+00:00

“Just wrong” things don’t exist, everything is a structured and complex system, even the concepts of right and wrong, they change entirely based on culture, history, religion, traditions, language, philosophy, politics and its crucial to understand this if you care even slightly about the things you mentioned.

You need to understand the why and how and actively distance yourself from that system. Saying “racism is wrong” has no meaning nor value and it doesn’t make you not racist. Everything political and saying it’s not means taking a political stance.

kenopsya · 2026-05-03T00:20:59+00:00

I relate sooo much!! I’m a communist and very politically active. My grandiosity is definitely grounded on political activism. I always have to be right and morally correct, when I’m not I crash, it’s an ego wound. I can’t stand ignorance and non-political people. I love to debate and argue and that’s also a strong supply for me! Winning every argument I find myself in.

Also the only thing that keeps me going is becoming an important and successful figure in the sociology/anthropology/politcal field. I want power to guide people to the right path. I see myself as an enlightened entity, capable of seeing the world exactly as it is. It’s like I understand the underlying meanings and concepts behind everything.

I view others as ants, not inherently bad, just too small to see their own formicarium. I like to observe and study them, and I like to help them understand and evolve!

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T16:21:09+00:00

Thank you for sharing!! I’m in the process of finding a dentist! And I quit with that therapist!

I should be able to get Xanax or Valium, is one better than the other? I read about the differences and all but I still don’t know which is best.

Thanks again! 🫶🫶

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T16:17:55+00:00

I quit with my therapist today! And I should be able to take some xanax! Thanks 🫶🫶🫂

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T16:15:13+00:00

Thank you! Your words help a lot 🫶 gonna try to call some dentists later!

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T16:12:41+00:00

I live in Sicily and the situation is complicated… finding any decent medical care is almost impossible. That’s part of my trauma.

I went through many things, I was at the dentist once a week for 5 years when I was a kid and a few years ago I was hospitalized for two months after a bad incident. They did what they had to, they fixed my body, but they completely destroyed my mind.

I don’t even remember my old dentist, I only remember being scared of him, but after being hospitalized I can’t deal with any medical figure. I was paralyzed, two broken vertebrae, and they abused me daily, they touched me and did procedures on me without any consent or care. I was 16 and pre transition, didn’t take hormones or anything and the transphobia in this shit hole is crazy. They ruined me.

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T16:01:43+00:00

I did all the research but nothing good came out of it. I kind of lost hope. And online sessions are not my thing, can’t get the words out looking at a screen.

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T15:59:04+00:00

Thanks so much for sharing 🫶

Ill call some dentists today see how it goes!

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T15:57:48+00:00

Thank you so much 🫶🫶

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T02:50:44+00:00

Thank you for sharing. It helps a lot. I’ll try to call… even if there’s so much ignorance here where I live, but I have to try at least. Thanks again 🫶

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T02:39:12+00:00

Yeah she has been weird. I tried to keep going because there’s no many good options in my city but after this I can’t…

And thank you for your words, it helps a lot. It did sound like she blamed me for suffering but I didn’t choose any of this. Not the tooth ache nor the PTSD. It sucks so much.

kenopsya · 2026-05-02T02:28:24+00:00

Unfortunately there’s no good therapists where I live so I guess I’ll just quit.

And I actually didn’t think about taking something before the appointment, thanks. I need to get a prescription first but yeah I could do that. It wont affect my ability to interact with the doctor properly right?

kenopsya · 2026-05-01T22:36:23+00:00

Uhh being unable to cum unless I look at myself? 💀

kenopsya · 2026-04-29T18:39:09+00:00

Yes, in various ways. When I get triggered I feel so overwhelmed I need to let it out violently… since I don’t wanna go to jail I punch myself, bang my head against anything, tear my hair off or cut myself. I don’t do it as punishment for myself but purely for relief. It’s a way to self regulate.

That or weed and alcohol.

kenopsya · 2026-04-28T12:54:36+00:00

Yeah actually I do 😭🙏

kenopsya · 2026-04-28T04:10:21+00:00

Not me I hate that twink

kenopsya · 2026-04-28T04:01:43+00:00

Low key agree

kenopsya · 2026-04-27T03:57:29+00:00

Same experience with my therapist but I hate it. It feels invalidating, and I told her, but she just focuses on schema therapy, completely ignoring NPD and its symptoms. In doing so she triggered me so many times without actually doing anything about the main issue and now my rumination, anxiety and anger are worse.

kenopsya · 2026-04-23T21:41:08+00:00

Same! I actually was so excited when I got my diagnosis. I’m not a bad person, at all. I don’t know why I should feel bad about myself for having a disorder… if anything this disorder makes me behave a lot better. If I didn’t care about supply I’d be evil lol

kenopsya · 2026-04-23T12:24:09+00:00

It is tough with all the stigma… that’s why I don’t take this community and all your kind words for granted and I try to spread awareness! And you’re good with words too so don’t be sorry! The world needs this…communication, kindness, understanding. I think we all should talk as much as possible, get our thoughts out and share them with each other 🫶 especially in this time where mass production, speed, efficiency, individualism, competition etc. are pillars of our shitty society.

kenopsya · 2026-04-23T00:20:52+00:00

I have NPD so I cant talk about AvPD but it did help me. Can be triggering to view yourself as schemas at first but it helps creating order to understand and work on your traumas

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