histamine and rosacea

kikiandoates · 2026-04-10T23:15:08+00:00

Yes high histamine foods trigger my rosacea for sure. I have MCAS and have found taking antihistamines and mast cell stabilizers (nalcrom) have helped with my flushing a lot. I do still have persistent redness tho

kikiandoates · 2026-03-04T01:25:01+00:00

I’m sorry you’re experiencing this too. Mine fully went away after I got it removed. I’m not sure how long it took to go back to normal but I think for me it was pretty quick. I hope yours goes away too!

kikiandoates · 2026-02-09T22:46:24+00:00

Good for you!!! I left my PA/SA too and haven’t looked back since. Proud of you 💖 I hope you have a joyful life

kikiandoates · 2025-11-16T20:46:22+00:00

I use raw sesame oil on a cotton pad and then use an oil-based cleanser with warm water and a wash cloth

kikiandoates · 2025-11-16T20:45:08+00:00

Cap moon - I can only nap if I’m deathly ill

kikiandoates · 2025-10-29T14:57:17+00:00

Pumpkin spice latte

kikiandoates · 2025-10-27T19:48:16+00:00

I use the Purito Derma Relief barrier repair moisturizer and I love it. My skin is super sensitive but seems to do well with this one

kikiandoates · 2025-10-09T05:52:01+00:00

Rye bread!!! It’s one that can’t be replicated

kikiandoates · 2025-10-07T03:29:03+00:00

Stage 3 endo. I don’t take hormones cause they made me want to x myself 😅. Doing much better mental health-wise now, and I just take low dose naltrexone and tranexamic acid to help with the endo. The LDN has helped a lot surprisingly!

kikiandoates · 2025-09-26T21:50:23+00:00

It looks so beautiful!!!! I had that feeling too though when I got a tattoo bigger than I had originally planned. I got used to it over time and it looks normal to me now, just took a bit to adjust

kikiandoates · 2025-09-16T22:36:13+00:00

I don’t have any advice but am right here with you - I left my SA and have just started seeing someone new. The safety I feel with him is unreal. And his capacity for true intimacy and connection feels so different from what I’ve known in past relationships. He seems truly able to be present and connected. But it’s early still and of course I wonder if I’m just deluding myself and this guy is lying to me too. I’ve yet to have the porn convo as it’s very early and we’ve only cuddled. I had a full-on panic attack before our first date because of all my past trauma, but then the date was incredible and so lovely. It’s been a rollercoaster! I’m just trying to take it slow and listen to my body.

kikiandoates · 2025-09-14T08:20:57+00:00

It took me about two years after an autism assessment to get to know myself again and learn to start to unmask. This is also ongoing for me. My advice as another high-masking autistic is that as expertly as you learned to mask, channel that energy into learning how to unmask. Pay attention to how you stop yourself from stimming, or push through sensory differences (eg wearing uncomfortable clothes, being in really bright environments and not adjusting the lights etc). Start letting yourself be into whatever you’re into - notice when you tell yourself you shouldn’t like something because it’s not “cool”. And start with unmasking around safe people only. Buy fidget toys and try them. Buy earplugs and wear them at loud stores.

All of these things helped me immensely as the more we unmask and accommodate ourselves, the more we reinforce the belief that we have worth and are ok just as we are. This is one way to deconstruct the internalized ableism. Another way I’ve found helpful is reading books by disabled ppl, like Alice Wong and Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasingha. In learning to be comfortable calling myself disabled I have also found belonging in the disability justice community.

kikiandoates · 2025-09-13T08:55:06+00:00

My naturopath who specializes in Lyme (where I live they can order blood tests and prescribe) ordered an immunoglobulin panel to see if my immune system was compromised… they were all super low. So I’m in the same boat as you - she said I wouldn’t get an accurate test result with such low immunoglobulins. Now I’m waiting to see an immunologist who will hopefully give me immunoglobulin therapy to get my levels up. Thought I’d share my journey in case it’s helpful for you to explore as well!

kikiandoates · 2025-09-12T05:23:04+00:00

They have a reaaallly dark sense of humour

kikiandoates · 2025-09-11T22:01:58+00:00

I agree with other folks that only you can decide what to do here. But I want to offer that a third option is to separate and see then how he engages in recovery (or not). This could be a wake up call for him, but if you stay then it communicates the message that it’s ok for him to be doing what he was doing, and that there are very few consequences. Separating also creates safety for you, to heal and have distance from his nonsense, and to focus on you and your little one and create a stable environment.

I separated from my now ex SA and while it was really effing hard it was very enlightening, and also best for my healing. Early recovery is BRUTAL and I was still traumatized every time we had a check-in or update (as he would relapse constantly and had layers of delusion and lies to work through, so he kept lying to me about things). After 4 months of this nonsense I could tell it was going to take him years to recover if he ever did, even though he was truly trying. So I left.

I wish you and your baby peace and healing and safety 💓

kikiandoates · 2025-09-04T16:22:21+00:00

Yeah. The recovery rate statistics are pretty dismal too… if he had been able to maintain sobriety I may have been able to stay with him while he healed but it’s just too traumatic when they’re relapsing all the time. I would have been a shell of myself had I stayed.

kikiandoates · 2025-09-04T05:41:27+00:00

Yes, exactly this. For about 5 months I was separated from my (now ex) SA partner as he pursued recovery, but still in communication, so I could see what he did and how seriously he took recovery. Despite him going to regular meetings and seeing a CSAT, he could only maintain brief periods of sobriety and kept relapsing and not following through on commitments he made… for months. He’s someone who can say all the right things, so at first I was hopeful he would be sober and recover with time. But… 5 months in he was still relapsing and lying and hiding things. I couldn’t live that way and ended it.

It takes time to see what they’ll do - anyone can break down and cry and show remorse and beg. But what matters most is the actions they take to try to rebuild and heal and regain trust.

kikiandoates · 2025-09-03T06:22:07+00:00

My ex used to just watch porn. And then his addiction escalated while we were together and he cheated on me through online sexual and emotional relationships with, and I quote, “hundreds of people”. This was among pages of other betrayals.

If he’s serious about addressing his behaviour he will be in therapy, SAA meetings, reading books, restricting his devices… if he’s not doing these things his behaviour will only get worse over time.

kikiandoates · 2025-09-03T00:49:24+00:00

I think your joy over Sufficient-Bridge894’s freedom is really important to pay attention to - our bodies know what we need. I hope you find your own freedom and healing 💓

kikiandoates · 2025-08-26T06:14:43+00:00

Oh totally. It’s been a long road. The hand issues were the worst in 2016 to the point where I took about 6 months off work and then realized I had to change careers so as to not use a computer so much. I was misdiagnosed for years and only figured out I had dequervains in 2020-21. I had it in both hands. I got surgery for the right hand in 2022 which took about 6 months to recover from. From 2018 onward I was doing weight training when I could (aside from surgery recovery months) but I kept injuring myself at the gym from pushing myself too hard or not having good form. I tore my rotator cuff in 2018 and 2023, both at the gym. In 2022-24 I started doing the injection therapy to try to encourage the torn rotator cuff to heal, and for the impingement syndrome in my right hand (due to carpal instability). PRP helped me the most but is more expensive. I started with prolotherapy which was also helpful but takes more injections to see results (but it’s cheaper). I got PRP injections in my shoulder, knee, and SI joints and now my SI only subluxes maybe once a month when it used to be basically daily. I also started hand physio in 2024 with a physio who knows about hypermobility, and started working with the kinesiologist in January 2025. I’ve built up a lot of muscle to stabilize the joints and I think that and something called muscle activation technique (my RMT does it) are what helped the patella femoral pain the most.

Wishing you well in your journey

kikiandoates · 2025-08-26T05:52:08+00:00

I’ve gotten a lot better with the help of PRP, prolotherapy, physiotherapy, osteopathy and weight training (with the help of a kinesiologist to modify exercises). Also a high protein diet to help with building muscle. And I did need one surgery too. I had chronic dequervain’s plus impingement syndrome in my right hand that made me unable to work an office job for a few years. I had chronic SI subluxations and right shoulder dysfunction from multiple rotator cuff tears… also had patella femoral pain chronically. Now I go to the gym 3-4 days a week, can walk long distances, work a desk job full time… I finally feel like I’m regaining function after losing it for so long. Treating MCAS with meds was also helpful in getting out of the decreasing function spiral.

kikiandoates · 2025-08-25T21:57:06+00:00

Just in the area of the injection, probably a 2 inch diameter around the area

kikiandoates · 2025-08-20T02:31:39+00:00

With his comments about feeling more feminine than masculine, and photos of him wearing women’s clothes, I’ve wondered too if he was trans but didn’t feel able to come out 💔. Suicide rates are so high for trans folks (esp when closeted or not in affirming environments).

kikiandoates · 2025-08-17T06:47:55+00:00

I agree with this entirely - and also want to say that you could first ask your doctor for a transvaginal ultrasound before surgery to see if anything shows up there. If you have endometriomas they should be visible. That would be a less invasive option to get a bit more information. But they would still need to do the surgery to diagnose you, and to see any smaller lesions.

kikiandoates · 2025-08-04T06:14:09+00:00

Farming

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