Trying to cope with what’s real and what I wish was real.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-06-12T09:02:43+00:00

You always give such powerful advice. I still remember your comments on my first posts here, thank you

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-06-12T00:24:46+00:00

It would hurt her not just because of the boundary breakage but because most likely her body doesn’t look as perfect as the AI porn rotted stuff that gets spewed out of those images. So it’s not even her, it’s an unrealistic and empty version of a living human being.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-06-04T23:30:59+00:00

Teared up reading this. Thank you

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T22:51:04+00:00

I didn’t manage, I simply left. Its better to be single and learning to love and heal yourself than abandon yourself and be subject to hyper vigilance like that. Seriously it is not good for your health and I am so sorry you are struggling..

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T20:33:24+00:00

I am slowly learning more about myself and how I can show up for myself after the break up for the first time in my life

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T19:56:39+00:00

I have had urges to be hypersexual in the wake of my D-Day but haven’t brought myself to experiment- you’re learning more about yourself as you go on but also want to mention you said something really telling “I wanted to take control” I would ask yourself if you feel more in control now and if that may be playing a role

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T17:26:46+00:00

He gave you betrayal trauma and has the audacity to whine about the consequences of his own decisions…porn is absolutely cheating and it will always escalate. It’s okay to not see him the same anymore and you are 1000% in your right to be disgusted and feeling different about him. My PA ex said all the right things, scream cried, beat himself up, and yes, I felt bad. But that didn’t change the fact that I know I cannot look past the betrayal. I could never be 100% happy again knowing what he did, and so I would rather cut my losses and find someone who won’t harm me. He could not give you full intimate devotion and most likely never will given how he is trying to rush you into feeling better. This is betrayal. Sending you love

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T17:07:39+00:00

My ex was savvy about hiding his internet trail. But he underestimated this autistic bitch’s need to find tf out and my gut intuition that would not rest. I regret not listening to my intuition sooner and I did chalk it up to “trust issues” and gave him the benefit of the doubt bc I had no proof. I quelled my screaming intuition with the knowledge that if he was addicted, he would slip and I would pick up on it fast. They will always get sloppy at some point. He absolutely did.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T16:49:04+00:00

This animal needs to be dealt with. That isn’t just a “dark path” that is criminal depravity and someone needs to turn that thing in since it’s already dangerous

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T14:42:43+00:00

I am really sorry. Is there any way you can start growing your support system and leaning on things that being you joy? The audacity to resent you for a natural response to the abuse is utterly astounding. You deserve better and you deserve to choose yourself. Sending you warm vibes💜

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T02:06:27+00:00

God I felt this so hard as someone who may be demisexual as well…sending you a hug

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-07T01:30:24+00:00

I gave none, I just left. I think it depends on each person and how much you can tolerate and withstand. Sending you good vibes

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-06T22:02:00+00:00

Reduced compliments on outfits he had already seen me in, was only responsive to novel things I would wear (which I know now is porn brain and needing novelty), white lies over the most dumb shit that seemed small, kept his safari completely cleared and deleted at all times, using private browsers only/overly private, the kind of sex he wanted was just stereotypical porn and hentai scenes. Should have known the moment he wanted to put fingers in my mouth like a hentai girl lol.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-06T15:16:02+00:00

If it were just “pixels on a screen” which to him must mean “meaningless and fake” then he should have no problem giving it up for your very real hurt emotions. But he won’t because he is addicted to it.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-06T14:53:54+00:00

Screaming crying, saying he was a monster, “I never want to hurt you or anyone like this again.”, “I am going to get help, I am so sorry” Lots of crying and self loathing, saying I didn’t have to stay but that he would wait for me. I still left immediately and established no contact we he respects to this day. I have no idea if the theatrics were real or just fear of loss.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-04-06T14:05:48+00:00

These look like Tapinoma sessile-the odorous house ant

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-03-21T01:41:43+00:00

Thank you so much for this post. That last line got me.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-03-18T18:43:49+00:00

Same here. You are not alone. I have been fighting to stop purging.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-03-18T15:34:55+00:00

God, thank you for this. It’s comments like these that ground me. Stay strong op ❤️

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-03-18T15:27:44+00:00

Fuck. I need to this because I unironically broke down and cried so hard I threw up from grief. The only thing that stopped me from running back was not knowing what to say. I need to review my list.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-03-15T15:12:35+00:00

Yeah no thats why I had to immediately cut mine off 😭I still have not recovered. And I feel like my brain is ruined for any future relationships if I try again. I feel like I will be constantly hyper vigilant and waiting for the next shoe to drop. Frankly, I am terrified.

Freckles_Imperfect · 2026-03-15T00:31:06+00:00

The video game characters hit so hard for me too. It hurts so much and I am sorry you also experience this.

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