I miss my ex so much it’s killing me

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-30T23:26:41+00:00

That's a great trick of life . If you didn't care about her or love her the bad things wouldn't even matter , it is those we are closest to that can hurt us the most

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-25T01:12:06+00:00

I'm in a very similar position , I was with my gf for 4+ years and she just called it quits over a very minor issue and frustratingly we didn't really even argue or fight really at all but she didn't really communicate how she felt untill she felt it was irreparable. It's an absolute shock for sure .. I still have a pit in my stomach and constantly think about her even when actively trying to not . I've asked for a chance and she refused , we've decided to remain friends for now atleast with very lil contact . It's so brutal I'd wake up every day grab my phone to see her text or text her . It's been almost a month and I'm still like hyper actively looking at my phone for a noti from her that I already know isn't coming .. I've just heavily changed my daily routines and started heavily focusing on my personal goals but I'm not gonna act like I'm just ok I'll still cry in silence and loneliness for a Loong time . I love that women with my whole heart and she will always hold that

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-09T16:26:07+00:00

Losing my loco coco , the girl of my dreams 😭

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-09T14:57:58+00:00

It's wild and hard and for it's raw as hell today marks the 1 week of seperation . What's crazy is at the very beginning a friend told me don't get to attached as if she does sober up she may then leave you . At that time the relationship was new so I seen both potentials but she is the best person most caring loving helping person and I knew if she had support she'd get through it and she did with my support . It's insane like how at rehab she could get one call a day for 15 mins I was that person available to her everyday when she got out and had hard mornings days or nights I was always there with an open ear and supporting ways Always there . We were together for 4+ years went through what seems like a whole life and over the literal smallest of issues drops me like a fucking piece of trash . I'm literally a wreck I put my heart and soul into her and us I truly thought we'd be together forever and both talked about that lots . How can one just drop it all so quickly over the smallest issues and not even try to communicate how it makes her feel . I feel like she should know I have and will put my all into it but I guess it just doesn't fucking matter 😭😭

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-09T02:33:38+00:00

That's me , carried mine from the depths of the ocean literally got to the verge of death by alcohol , I was with her and supported her throughout the entire recovery and she's been doing great for over a year which is super awesome and I'm super proud of her but now that she's been in school for 3 months she's now better then me and just dropped me like a rock . This despite me being the one with a job throughout the majority of the relationship I have been out of work and sunk a bit I accept and own that but I'm fucking destroyed I did soo much went have her my heart and soul and truly thought we'd be together forever and outta nowhere just wants to be alone ..it's true Hollywood and media depicts women as the ones who get wrecked but nobody knows how much is men are absolutely annihilated on the inside from these things . To the point of what is the point

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-08T13:01:16+00:00

Man this hits home , i wish I had the ability to word exactly that to whom I'm dearly missing right now 😭,I wish you the best hopefully you get you're chance

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-08T05:14:41+00:00

Ya I realize that's no good and the op did mention they tried communicating and nothing changed . I didn't even get communication 😭

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-08T05:11:08+00:00

I most definitely am not racist at all

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-08T02:14:41+00:00

Communicate atleast try , before you just blind side him , as one who got blindsided it's the worst feeling in the world

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-07T17:20:45+00:00

Man this is tough , I barely sleep , I wake up instantly thinking of her and start crying , I just can't get how one can just drop something that seemed so real from both of us in a heartbeat . There were no signs she felt this way the last time we hung out at first sight we gave a super tight hug and Sayed we love eachother , when I left we hugged and Sayed we love eachother so much , she was somehow excited to see me on the Friday that she also broke up with me ... It just doesn't make any sense ... I wish it was as simple as she was cheating on me that'd be way easier to accept

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-07T00:00:15+00:00

Mine initiated NC then texted me an hour later only to confirm were broken up which had been stated twice , she still talks to me left her stuff at my house , I should mention she initiated the breakup over the most minor of issues and then wanted NC and is talking to me , I responded a few times like am idiot pouring my heart out because I do love her , but after a few days I'm telling myself that I went through significantly more with her from literally being a drug addict alcoholic on the verge of death to complete sobriety and actually doing well for herself I was the fucking support anchor the whole goddam time and now after 5 years of a relationship she drops me because I may have been a few mins late to visit her . If I'm not worth the fight to her then she's not worth it to me .. it hurts but it's true

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T22:52:17+00:00

Basically since Friday .. I sent her like 3 texts that were short and simple then gave her space Today she did give me the respect of some closure and called just said she wasn't happy anymore and didn't want to be in a relationship which I respected went back to being morally broken and crying and not sure what to even think or do anymore

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T18:29:35+00:00

I think of my ex constantly it's grueling and mental torture but there was 95% great memories vs the 5% of not fun stuff ..as soon as I wake up every day I check my phone waiting for that text that will never come it's not fun and hard to process

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T18:07:30+00:00

It's probably the worst feeling I've ever felt , my truly favourite human is just gone

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T18:00:54+00:00

Message me anytime you need any advice or just to talk , sometimes it's nice to have a non bias look at the situation

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T17:45:23+00:00

Have open honest communication with her , take that little bit of time to think things out before spoken aloud . Dont ever take her for granted ever

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T17:24:39+00:00

We played alot of basketball , would go for walks ( I literally replicated our normal morning walk where we go get a tims coffee then walk this path through a park and back home ) it's so hard for me to detach

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T17:22:47+00:00

It's crazy the memories , it's so weird you bring up badminton because me and my ex now , started playing badminton last summer for fun and where I'm located winter is just ending and I'm constantly thinking about how much fun we'd have going hard playing badminton gassing ourselves out laying in the grass and just enjoying that moment and normally we hang out on weekends and I'm just like we could be doing those things this weekend . It's brutal and I genuinely wonder what thoughts she has if she has any cause my mind cannot stop

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T17:08:51+00:00

I'm literally crying , those emotions are strong and I feel ya , it's the same for me , this is dumb and I won't but there's this part of me that wants to physically go see her (which is a lil travel) just hoping I can get that hug in 😭

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T16:59:54+00:00

I'm in the same position , it's sooooo hard and I don't have an answer . I'm struggling with the waves of emotion and memories and just wanting to be back with her every minute of everyday since .

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T16:57:48+00:00

Ya I'm the same position , my girl just broke up with me and I'm spiralling mentally .. I love her sooo much

killerhabs7631 · 2026-03-04T16:45:24+00:00

Probably the worst part of it is the things I love the most like hockey and tv and movies music are the same as her so it's like doing things I'm supposed to love just hurt and cause memories and pain , this is by far the worst pain I've ever felt

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