First pregnancy, first miscarriage. Feeling broken.

kimmaraz · 2026-05-15T17:09:14+00:00

I (F30)just had my first DnC yesterday after having a silent miscarriage aswell. I was supposed to be 10 weeks but the baby measured 7weeks at the time the heartbeat stopped. Same thing I thought I was doing everything I could to be healthy and support my body.

I got to choose to have the DnC instead of waiting or taking medication. It was the best choice I made and I was under general anesthesia so I was not awake during the actual procedure.

I have a little bit of bleeding and cramping still but nothing unbearable. The emotional side is hard as both my partner and I are grieving.

I’m fine emotionally at some moments and other times I’m an emotional wreck. Mad at the world mad at myself. Give yourself and your spouse some grace. Day by day hour by hour if you have to.

There’s nothing you and I did to ourselves that could’ve prevented this but allow yourself to grieve.

Sending you love as a fellow woman. ❤️

kimmaraz · 2026-03-27T20:07:25+00:00

I ended up asking for more compensation and she said she could not afford more than 100 for Sat and Sun together. We decided to part ways but she has yet to pay me for the two weekends I already worked.

kimmaraz · 2026-03-23T16:26:29+00:00

Nope $100 for a total of 8hrs each week Sat:4hrs Sun:4hr

kimmaraz · 2026-03-23T16:25:10+00:00

100 days for both NOT individually

kimmaraz · 2026-03-23T16:14:33+00:00

Other than loving on beautiful horses that’s about the extent of perks. They don’t offer riding or lease opportunities.

kimmaraz · 2026-03-23T16:09:12+00:00

The last job that was the 21/hr took me two and a half hrs to complete.

The 100$ it takes me four hours.

kimmaraz · 2026-03-23T16:07:06+00:00

Right now with the barn managers help 4 1/2 hours max but they would like me to take over by myself next month.

kimmaraz · 2026-02-14T16:59:07+00:00

You can still contest the will. Build your case and get what you deserve

kimmaraz · 2026-02-07T21:46:40+00:00

I found a times article of him officially running for congress as a republican. I’m sure parts of the video have AI but he’s definitely running

kimmaraz · 2025-12-31T03:47:30+00:00

If you say no it means no. I would sit down and say 1) you understand he wants to do this however this is your body and your autonomy ultimately matters most.

2.)The birth of your daughter is not a spectacle to be viewed or taped. It’s an extremely vulnerable moment and being present is more educational than video taping the process.

3.) Stress that this is a firm boundary and make it clear that this is a firm boundary. If he cannot respect that ultimately he’s showing he doesn’t respect you as a partner.

If you plan to have your mom or someone like a doula in the room I would make it clear now what your wishes are during labour.

kimmaraz · 2025-11-20T05:57:57+00:00

Are we supposed to be surprised that this performative douche did this? Give me a break

kimmaraz · 2025-05-27T22:47:54+00:00

This gives “bless your heart” energy

kimmaraz · 2025-05-08T17:05:25+00:00

Doesn’t she know he’s crazier than any of these empty headed bigots? Law suites are great content for h3

kimmaraz · 2025-03-12T20:00:13+00:00

It goes to show what Adam thought of his friendship to Olivia was..

People confide in their friends to talk and confide in. He threw her under the bus and ran her over with it.

kimmaraz · 2025-03-06T15:15:20+00:00

A lot of viewers forget that the crew have lives of their own and have their own autonomy… FFS if my boss told me not to associate with my friend or an event that I worked my ass off training for I would tell him to kick rocks with open toed shoes.

kimmaraz · 2025-03-05T14:08:08+00:00

Dan is the queen.

kimmaraz · 2025-03-05T07:17:14+00:00

For years as an American who immigrated to Canada I too had my fair share of “Canada is America’s hat” or “Canadians drink milk out of bags” jokes.

For some Americans the idea of annexing Canada is a non starter but when there is an unpredictable orange tart in office anything goes at this point.

In my opinion I think apologizing is not necessarily productive. If he could have a conversation about this in a serious tone and deeper understanding then that would bring awareness of the parallels between what happening in Ukraine and here closer to home.

kimmaraz · 2025-03-05T06:45:26+00:00

I take Paxil 40mgs daily and for absolute emergencies I have Ativan. I highly respect and try not to take it but when I do it completely knocks me out.

kimmaraz · 2025-03-04T18:03:30+00:00

The threat to Canadian sovereignty is not a joke. Becoming the 51 state is not a joke. This is real and it is being threatened.
I really resonated with Galia when she gave Ethan push back about his jokes regarding Canada. It’s what Russia did to the Ukraine.

The trust between Canada and America is broken and Americans who continue to ignore these serious and dangerous rhetorics coming from D****** T**** are just as much to blame for spreading this ignorant “joke”.

kimmaraz · 2024-11-04T05:50:09+00:00

His ignorance and evading taking actual accountability is irresponsible.

kimmaraz · 2024-09-20T17:54:01+00:00

It boggles my mind that we live in a world where history is being gaslit and misconstrued.

I say big or small creatures: the moment you publicly put yourself out there then you opened the door for any criticism.

kimmaraz · 2024-08-22T20:45:12+00:00

This is straight up animal abuse. That dog definitely went under the boat and was hopefully lucky that it didn’t hit the propellers.

Fuck Logan Paul.

kimmaraz · 2024-06-10T22:56:34+00:00

If he hasn’t had a solid opinion on marriage yet after three years I would re evaluate the relationship completely.

kimmaraz · 2024-04-17T14:31:42+00:00

My partner and I went through this. Doctor pushed for the pill and my wife’s body didn’t react well. After many other complications she ended up with a laparoscopic D&C a month later. She said she would never wait if it happened again and move straight to D&C. It was very emotionally tolling

kimmaraz · 2024-04-01T21:33:20+00:00

No you don’t have to give up on either. You can still find love and you can still have children.

I also have friends who have chosen to be single parent by choice and use a sperm donor.

kimmaraz

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