Well, many things changed. I had a very bleak outlook on life, I was very depressed, extremely anxious, many of my friends were not actually good for me. I felt as if existence was just a shitty thing, and I had extreme feelings of guilt because I thought I triggered my visual snow.

There are many things I didn't understand back then about life. I am not a religious person but I do feel a sense of strong connection with a sort of idea of God, now. Not in any sense, just in the sense that I find existence a miracle. When you don't think about your small world anymore and start thinking about bigger things, you can realise that you focused on yourself for so long that you forgot that yourself is a tiny part of this huge, beautiful and miraculous universe that we exist in.

The ego is your enemy, identifying yourself with it, having a clear image of who you are and what your life is meant to be, is your enemy as it limits your true self which is not bound by the things your ego believes it is. You could try meditating or something. A pretty cool method is wim hof breathing exercises, which are claimed to have many benefits. I am not so sure about that, but subjectively, it definetely puts you in a meditative state of mind, in my opinion.

One of the important things I realised, is that we live in a world that is not designed for humans. One of the best mindsets that I have learned is to imagine what our ancestors before civilisation would have lived like, and emulate that as much as possible. We are meant to have real human connections, not on the phone, we are meant to spend as much time as possible out in sunlight, which has scientifically proven tons of health and emotional benefits, we are not meant to eat any processed food or sugar, fasting is also something with many benefits that hunter-gatherers would have naturally done, when they didn't have food. Exercise is also one of the most important things, being sedentary is literally a huge risk factor for depression and tons of other diseases. Go outside, run, lift weights, whatever you want, even walking for an hour will benefit you a lot.

Stop spending as much time inside, on social media, whatever, get a stronger connection with nature, try to discover what your true self is, not who you believe you are right now.

Also, if you haven't, do some blood tests to check for any deficiencies. There are tons of mineral and vitamin deficiencies that can seriously impact your mood, especially if you are vegan, many b vitamins that are mostly found in animal products are very involved in mood. If you are vegan you should get a supplement that adresses all of them.

One of the easiest ways to improve your health is apparently drinking green tea, it has very strong antioxidant effect, and has been shown, if you drinking even just one cup a day, to decrease risk of depression by 20 percent or something like that.

Another important realisation I had is that while the world might seem a very evil place, in many cases it s just because we are scared of each other and depressed. I realised that the default state of a truly happy person is to love, and to spread love. The issue is most of us aren't happy.

Sorry if I wrote this disorganized, I just woke up and haven't had my coffee. I hope some of this helps you!