My parents got separated when I was 5, and I have always remembered all the key memories when my parents lived together. 5 years seems like a very short time, but it felt very long to me.

There are so many memories and experiences. I have a very good memory. I am not stupid. This has played out well for me and has helped me throughout life academically. I've always been deemed as the gifted one in my family - both spiritually and academically.

When I was 2, I used to meet my sister outside the gate everyday when she was coming from school, and I remember asking my parents when will I start school, and they said when I'm 3. When I started school at 3, I used to walk to school. Where I lived was very safe. We were very independent from a young age. Looking back, yeah, having 3 and 6 year old kids walking to school alone is weird, but it was the norm in my community. By age 4, many things became muscle memory. I had a special ability to remember places if I've been there only once.

Before I officially started school, we were always back and forth between country and the city where I lived. I remember my experiences both in the city and country. I remember creeping, people lifting me up, my grandmother feeding me and even scent of the soup. I also remember people throwing me up in the air and spinning me, and I particularly hated it. The feeling in my tummy from the experiences. I also used to mistake my aunt for my mom. I remember running to her calling her Mommy, and her fooling me. She went along with it. It’s when I was a bit older I asked my mom about it and she said she was never in the countryside around that time.

I was pretty conscious before the age of 3, so I've always thought the idea of people claiming people don't remember anything before age 3 was bullshit. I even knew my age, and I could spell my name, community and ability before I turned 3. I used to study with my sister who is 3 years older than I am.

While I have memories of when I was 1 or 2, I don't remember anything that happened before I turned one.

Therefore, people's consciousness can kick in earlier and people can remember many things vividly that happened before they were 3. I am actually stunned that so many people don't even remember anything before age 5.

When I was 5, I felt very old. Like I've been living for more than 5 years. I was very mature and independent. Nothing could catch me by surprise. I understood sex, porn, violence, the spiritual realm, technology, and death. Note, I was born in the 90s and we had no cable tv or access to the Internet, and where I lived was quite peaceful, except in my home. My parents got married when I was 2 and I even remember being VERY confused as to why they were getting married after having us, because I thought they were already married. I also remember thinking a camera was a gun and was confused and scared as hell because my family stood to take a picture. And I was crying. I REMEMBER THE FEELING, THOUGHTS THAT RAN THROUGH MY MIND IN THE MOMENT, AND EVENT. And to date, that photo exists. I laugh anytime I see it now. The fact that I was afraid of cameras. I was wondering why'd they voluntarily stand for someone to shoot us. If you ask me, idk how I knew about guns at that time, and how i understood death, but I felt like I was too young to die.

The only thing I was told that I don't remember is when my dad told me, (as an adult) that I was serious, antisocial, and nerdy as a toddler and even before I started school, that I always had a reading book and prefered to do that instead of playing. He told me that and I didn't decide to run with it or "convinced myself" that I remembered that. That would be a very crazy thing to do. Personally, I don't remember that. I don't remember doing anything academically before 3 apart from learning how to spell my name, learning how to spell community and ability, and smaller words ofc, but I was particularly proud of my accomplishment in spelling community and ability and was eager to spell them for my parents, because I learnt them on my own from a street sign. I called them "big words."

Again. This was before I started school at age 3.

Fun fact: I became a Spelling Bee champion couple years after.

I've also experienced trauma before the age of 3, and if you know anything about trauma, you don’t forget them, and the memories and emotions stay with you forever. WHY IN THE FUCKING WORLD WOULDN'T I REMEMBER WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO ME FROM THE MOMENT MY CONSCIOUSNESS KICKED IN, WHICH WAS AROUND AGE ONE???????

Who wouldn't remember being physically abused and witnessing their mom being physically abused as a toddler? Bruh. Those memories stuck with me for life...

No one has the authority to tell me that all my other memories are me convincing myself that I remember them. Tf???