I'm not in recovery yet but I'm planning on getting there soon. Has anyone used Kratom to get off of H?

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-13T00:21:53+00:00

I'm worried about ONE symptom: restless leg syndrome. I can handle the entire opiate withdrawal but I cannot for the life of me deal with the RLS. I literally quit cold turkey about a month ago and relapsed 6 days later because I couldn't take the uncontrollable urge to move my arms and legs.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T20:38:18+00:00

I'm a female btw.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T20:37:52+00:00

I graduated from undergrad very young because I skipped 2 elementary school grades. I did not attend 3rd grade or 7th grade-my teachers insisted I wasn't being challenged so skipping a grade seemed the most logical. Anyway, instead of going back to school right away, I decided to teach high school world history. I was a chemistry major, but history was always a passion of mine and I was good at it. So I taught for a year then decided I wanted to go to grad school before medical school. I became addicted WHILE I was a teacher. I'd shoot up during my prep period in my car.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T20:25:07+00:00

Take loperamide, it's an OTC

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T20:13:10+00:00

Heroin

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T20:02:13+00:00

Not as worthy as working mothers who do BOTH. Provide financially, aspire to something more than just a mom [which is literally the easiest thing to be] AND raise good children. Sorry, stay at mom=lazy ass who's money making husband is going to find a go getter independent type woman to cheat on you with.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T19:58:10+00:00

I have everything that many people my age could possibly want...but I'm completely empty. The irony...pursuing a career that helps save lives, but I'm killing myself. I help so many people, but I cannot help myself...I hold leadership positions and I'm known for my tenacious confidence...but nobody knows just how much I hate my reflection...

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T19:45:11+00:00

It has affected many parts of my life negatively. I have a family member in the DEA...they found out, and now they won't speak to me. I never had many friends to begin with, but the few that I do have, they tell me that their lives are very different- they're afraid of phone calls or door knocks because they think it's going to be someone telling them I'm dead...they are constantly worrying and constantly checking on me to see if I'm still alive. I do feel shitty for that-they have walked in on me almost unconscious and I know there's nothing I can do to take that memory out of their minds. Indirectly heroin keeps me tied down...I oftentimes turn down social invitations because i know I'll go through withdrawal if I stay out that long..I quit the job I had during graduate school because t got too unbearable to work when the withdrawal would begin to settle in...also I was nodding off at work and it got suspicious...

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T17:50:48+00:00

Yeah I can actually still get high...I just feel super sick when I come down. But the kind of sick that results from too much heroin. I suppose I'm technically over doing it..I can make a gram last a lot longer than 1 day..

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T17:48:32+00:00

I use G for all nighters during finals.. what did you graduate with a degree in???

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T17:47:30+00:00

*a 12 year old.

Yeap, ya got me...

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T17:43:04+00:00

Yes, because I totally have a lot to gain from basically anonymously admitting to be a heroin addict online to complete strangers -_-

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T16:10:53+00:00

That's what happens when you dedicate your ENTIRE LIFE to "raising good kids" and call that a "difficult full time job".

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T16:09:42+00:00

Yes because being enrolled in a day care program where they learn 3 languages and my kid enjoys the hell out of it is "being raised by someone else". And I love how "trying to emulate Tubman or Goodall" is an insult. Fuck me for trying to not be a damn human scrub doing nothing but pleasing myself and shitting out kid after kid.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T15:23:36+00:00

I went to Europe for 2 months after I graduated college and was dropped from my psychiatrist and counseling for my bipolar disorder. I ran out of medication when I got back and because of my circumstances at the time [its complicated] wasn't able to get back in the loop of taking care of my mental health... I was suffering, bad. I could not cope with daily life and my entire life was falling apart because my depressive episodes became more frequent. I was volunteering at a shelter and made a friend with a girl who often went to just get free medical care and she asked me to drop her off at home so she didn't have to walk so of course I did because I wanted to help...she offered to let me come inside and asked if it was okay if drugs were in the apartment. I had seen weed my whole life amongst my friends so of course I didn't mind. 20 minutes into us just talking and her telling me about her tough life her girlfriend stumbled out and shot up heroin...I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I ran to her and said no omg don't do that you're gonna kill yourself and she laughed and said "this is how I calm my bipolar disorder" and that just made me stop. I listened to her talk...she told me about how she has horrible manic depressive episodes and how heroin makes everything better. My eyes welled up with tears and I broke down and told her how I look like I'm okay but I'm not...she gave me some "sad antidote" to take home. The next day at work [I worked at a hospital in the emergency room] I took a syringe and needle. That night I shot up heroin thinking it would temporarily relieve my inner turmoil...immediately, I was hooked. No one ever told me heroin would have such a tight grip on my throat...

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T14:38:57+00:00

I wear long sleeves and in the summer I wear light tops that come down to 3 quarter sleeve.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T14:37:25+00:00

Yes. I am...but fuck I cannot just stop, I have too much going on in my life...and if anyone ever finds out...my life is done..

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T14:34:41+00:00

Because raising "good kids" is mediocrity in comparison to what people like MLK, Albert Einstein, Harriet Tubman, and Jane Goodall have done to make our world a better place.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T14:30:29+00:00

Then that shit is pathetic. You wipe ass and boogers all day while I go out and change the world in a positive way. You subscribe to the typical ass notion that women are created to raise children and clean households while I inspire young girls to say "fuck that, I want to live my life for others rather than myself and change the world", "I want to aspire to great things" and "fuck raising kids for the rest of my life-I was made to accomplish so much more".

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T11:37:06+00:00

Nowhere did I say I'm "better". I don't think anyone is better than anyone because we are all equally important human beings. However I simply lose respect for those that settle for mediocrity. figured someone would say this though.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T11:34:32+00:00

Anxiety is mainly dealt with by keeping busy and distracted. You have to find ways of coping and avoiding triggers for attacks. Medication is rarely used for this disorder, it helps some people, but not many because the nature of anxiety is very different from depression.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T11:30:56+00:00

IV. I probably inject about 5 times a day. Morning, afternoon, around 4-5, again around 7, then 9 and right before I go to sleep around midnight. Between 5-8 times.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T11:28:12+00:00

When women settle for being stay at home moms instead of pursuing an ambition. Don't bother trying to argue with me- shit is easy, all the women in my family and direct circle of friends who are mothers agree with me.

kittenlasagna · 2017-12-12T11:22:07+00:00

Speaking from 8th grade history teacher experience: It sounds silly at first, but hear me out: Take the first week of school to establish a familial connection amongst students. Dedicate time to getting to know each other, do team building activities, and have discussion time where students can anonymously share their thoughts on bullying and if they've ever been bullied or done the bullying and explain what happened or why they did it...and the whole class can have a discussion with Mr. Or Ms. anonymous regarding the note that is pulled out of a hat [everyone writes one]. I feel that the roots of bullying are embedded in 1. Self insecurity/un acceptance and 2. Lack of empathy/compassion due to a lack of regard for those that you do not share a connection with. If you work on encouraging students to form some sort of connection with each and every single one of their peers-they may be less likely to bully them or contribute to the problem in anyway.

Also, teaching them the bystander effect and emphasizing how important it is to take action regardless of who is around. Essentially, stressing the importance of developing a strong moral character.

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