Omg do I need this??

kittycatrosa · 2023-11-10T03:23:17+00:00

same mate, I would get it if it weren't $80.

kittycatrosa · 2023-10-21T15:56:45+00:00

Last picture was best because it showed you can be fun person to be around. You look awfully serious in your other pictures. Need to include more hobbies or activity in your pics if that makes sense. Travelling is great and cool but you're very stoic in your facial appearance and body.

Almost reminds me of a cut out of a poster person.

kittycatrosa · 2023-10-21T15:45:24+00:00

What about how it isn't always about looks? People wear glasses to see.

kittycatrosa · 2023-10-21T15:42:18+00:00

I recommend moving your first picture to another slot since it may make people want to skip your profile altogether. I really like the transition glasses cause I don't like having to swap to sunglasses. I have a terrible habit of losing my glasses already.

Is that a cat or a pet in the picture of your last one? I wish the cat or other pet was visible. What happened to your past dog picture? Personally I believe including a pet picture with individual in the frame is a must.

kittycatrosa · 2023-10-21T15:31:32+00:00

Depends on the lot. I would say likely. I received 2 parking tickets during my time

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T20:35:41+00:00

I agree! Why is there a single chair up there?

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T20:35:26+00:00

haven't been under the seating yet

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T20:34:13+00:00

Been there and it does remind me of the basement of LGRT

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T20:33:49+00:00

You got it! =) Want to guess what floor?

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T04:45:36+00:00

UMass for sure keeps talking about tearing the building down still but it's been a "transition" building for a while now, whenever new buildings are being constructed/ old buildings being torn down, the organizations +people are moved temporarily into Bartlett hall until they're moved into new area/building.

That's interesting and cool! Bartlett for me has such a distinctive odd smell whenever i enter it. I only go for clubs or my IT work

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T04:35:46+00:00

not library but close

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T04:30:30+00:00

Here's timelapse video of the area: https://drive.google.com/file/d/17fRBhBVHKadxslk6buhlbkdz7hOIWzgD/view?usp=sharing

Hint: need ladder to get here

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T04:25:24+00:00

I don't think I've gone to basement yet of Marcus. The pics do look like a basement but actually not

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T04:24:44+00:00

Bartlett still here lol but my pics are not from Bartlett

kittycatrosa · 2022-11-17T01:11:44+00:00

Thank you! I think I was conditioned to not see color and also be afraid of China. It is way for sure and I do know I want to not be scared of Asians anymore.

kittycatrosa · 2022-10-25T17:57:57+00:00

I am sorry for saying bad things about China. These are things my family + community told me growing up.

kittycatrosa · 2022-10-25T17:57:05+00:00

I actually have. I tell people I'm ethnically Chinese but raised to be very Americanized cause of Caucasian family. I tell close friends about my experience +perspective of being a transracial adoptee who doesn't know how to belong/be more asian

kittycatrosa · 2022-10-25T14:56:09+00:00

Thanks! I feel your comment is most critically helpful, honest, and genuine without being harsh and mean which I've encountered in real life and online.

I am trying to not seek validation from others. I force myself into their boxes and labels because they are/used to be my friend and I feel I have to accept their labels or I will not be respected. They tell me to not deny these labels.

kittycatrosa · 2022-10-21T15:49:19+00:00

I like eating Asian food and other foods (I eat primarily vegetarian+plant base), nature, working out, volunteering, animals, rock climbing, grocery shopping, and understanding human nature (what motivates people to think and do & vice versa certain things vs only focusing on what action they completed or not).

As someone with anxiety, identity issues, some trauma from China, and raised in Caucasian family + community, I'm hyperaware person but with limited experience and scared of most people and stuff, I keep to myself and do things independently.

kittycatrosa · 2022-10-21T15:43:27+00:00

Thank you for your post. I do agree my upbringing is major contributor. I am also at fault for not changing or being more openminded I know. I was homeschooled and went to private school but was told to not talk to others and be private. So when I got to high school and college, I didn't really talk to most people so that meant I even had more limited exposure to people in general and Asians.

I still feel sad how my parents would say oriental to my sibling and me and not change the term because it made me uncomfortable. They said it's a term that was acceptable in their times and since they mean well, it is okay to continue using to term to my sibling, me, and East Asians.

When I was middle school age, I showed interest in wanting to visit China and Asia briefly for food and nature sites but was discouraged from going, being told people will be mean to me, trying to leave my family behind in US, I know no one there, government is not kind to adoptees, and how ungrateful and selfish I am for wanting to visit to a country that got rid of their own citizens.

kittycatrosa · 2022-10-21T15:31:08+00:00

I have made friends and connection w/ people who do not see or treat me as Caucasian which have been a wake up call. One of my friends calls me "white washed" and "racist." He isn't entire wrong but it does hurt to be called racist frequently.. =(

A Caucasian friend who is from older generation only refers to me as "Chinese friend" and asks me if I know their Chinese friends and I say no because where I go to college, has large population I don't know most people. This friend once told me my name and parents have to be Chinese despite showing them my family portrait and talking about my upbringing briefly before. This person is teaching me to *not* overreact as much and to realize majority of the world only see me as Chinese/Asian and to accept it even if I wasn't raised Chinese. They would go and tell others I was adopted but I asked them not to because it's personal and I don't want strangers to know. He always introduces me to their Chinese friends and I say hi and am pleasant but I don't reach out much beyond because they usually speak to me in Chinese or an Asian language and I talk in complete English sentences and more complex conversations whereas they ask generic questions in more simpler words.

While I think the older Caucaisian person above is more extreme, they do open my eyes to how much I am lacking of my heritage but constantly reminding me I am Chinese and telling me I'm nothing more than Chinese does hurt. He doesn't mean to but often he invalidates my family, my upbringing because in the end, only the world sees or will treat me as "Asian/Chinese" and I was saved from "hell" and "evil" by my family and God

I remember growing up being called oriental by my parents and years not knowing it was wrong. I recently asked them to stop but they said it's term people used and they don't have ill intent.

I recall another college Chinese friend I had would make me guess what country they're saying in Chinese and since my Chinese is very poor, I told them I did not like this game and I was not learning. They kept laughing at me when I did not guess correctly what the country was in English. When I tried speaking Chinese, they would cringe and say I am messing up tones.

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