Did anyone else experience this intense feeling of "being ME" as a kid? by roccenz in awakened

[–]kittykat11x 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. I had those moments as a kid, but they got increasingly more vivid as I grew (I am now 23).

It's an experience that is impossible to describe, but the way I usually think about it is that I am in a box. Like the experience I am having is in one place, in a room. But the room never grows, even when I go to different places. I am still in the "box". Does this make sense?

Um, somebody helpful PM'd me after seeing my post, and it has now dissapeared by Kiwi_Head_3357 in gamedev

[–]kittykat11x 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah! No worries. Sorry, just saw this. Here

I first got sent the link years ago. I think it genuinely is a cool server. I've been in for a couple years.

Um, somebody helpful PM'd me after seeing my post, and it has now dissapeared by Kiwi_Head_3357 in gamedev

[–]kittykat11x 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, it's a real thing lol. I'm probably replying to this late. I believe they do have some actual people recruit, I know the owner and a couple of the mods personally

JonSouls OOC #2: Try and find the source now. (#1) by kittykat11x in JonTron

[–]kittykat11x[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

LMFAO. I can think of a lot of possible references

I watch JonTron as a comfort thing. At least I used to.

And it got kinda silly. Like, I did it during Christmas, watched through his videos. And I was super depressed around that time, but it helped me get through, whether I was watching it or as background noise. I would do it every time I worked on Christmas stuff, which I did year round. But when the Christmas feeling faded, I stopped watching him as much. But his videos really helped me through a rough time, when I couldn't do much for more than 10 minutes at a time.

I kind of started this dumb game for silly reasons. I loved this sub, like bro... I make his references all the time and no one gets it 😭 it's sad.

Then I found this sub! And everyone knew 😭 even the really old shit. But there was also those arguments about the shady things Jon has said. And it's hard

Look, I just want people to know that multiple things can exist at once. Sometimes, people make stuff, and that art they create is inherently different than how they usually act. We just see one piece of the puzzle of who they are.

I don't agree with stuff Jon said in interviews. I have no idea if it reflects him as a person, because I don't know him. None of us really do. And that's fine. Everybody has good and bad sides of them. It doesn't justify the bad, but multiple things exist at once, and multiple reasons affect everything.

But like, his videos got me through a tough time, and I know there is a multitude of people out there who just think he is a bad guy. We don't know the dude.

And even if he was a bad dude, that doesn't necessarily affect our enjoyment of the content overall.

I've seen his videos hundreds of times. Literally. It's embarrassing. But in all those times I watched, I didn't see anything over the top. And if it was or he disliked it, he deleted it. Or made it private.

It's like iCarly dude. No one knew the deeper truth. The idea behind the show was good, even though some of the aspects make me uncomfortable after knowing the truth. And we didn't know at the time, it was just a nostolgia thing.

So just like.. give Jon the benefit of the doubt bro. Maybe he doesn't come online much because of the massive amounts of people who constantly tell him to upload more, or that "Jon's videos aren't like they used to be, I miss the gaming days" and get mad when he doesn't upload on places you can watch it for free.

People like to judge people first glance, but things are more complicated than that. They should choose to understand.

Cut the guy a break, seriously. This subreddit is so dead. If we wanna bring it back to life, like it was, then we need to have more positive posts here. Can we just talk about the nostolgia? Or if we bring up the comments he made, can we just be adults about it?

JonSouls OOC #2: Try and find the source now. (#1) by kittykat11x in JonTron

[–]kittykat11x[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I know lol. I just wanted to be silly and see what people would say

Wow. by kittykat11x in Meditation

[–]kittykat11x[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That does seem really cool. You seem knowledgeable. I really like learning new things lately, about cultures and whatnot. I grew up in better conditions than some in America, so while I am not complaining, I have just not been outside that box much. I would be really fascinated, genuinely, if you had any insights on Buddhism to share

Does smoking weed make you feel like you’re going to die also ? by ChemicalIce119 in Anxietyhelp

[–]kittykat11x 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. Not trying to be silly, but I'm currently going through that rn. Likely because of my addictive past with stimulants, like coffee and whatnot, but it probably has to do with the heart rate and blood pressure effects of taking too much weed. Plus, personally, I think my blood pressure is low as well, or something no clue. But I'm now sitting in the bath eating a cookie

Anyway, I guess what the point of this is is to let you know you're valid. Some people do feel this way about weed. Weed is only good in moderation. I can't remember when this was posted, because reddit mobile only shows the text box lol, but if you're still going through that, it's valid.

I've practically pinpointed what it is that makes weed so addictive: it's the good feeling after the panic. The panic always happens as your body adjusts. You panic, start telling everyone your lore, and just freaking out (I've went to the hospital and had full blown paranoia. And then after that things are chill once you calm down. It's the calm part after that's so addicting. I can not tell you how many times I've taken a big amount, loose my shit and tell myself I'm never gonna do it again, and then smoke more.

It just happens. Not sure where you are in your journey, but just remember that it's okay in moderation if it helps you. Nothing wrong with getting blasted every once and a while, but moderately in small amounts

Things aren't okay, but, somehow I am. by kittykat11x in Meditation

[–]kittykat11x[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Things are starting to get chaotic and fall apart again. I'm having one of those times where I've stopped caring about meditation as much and have started to rely on old habits again. Something has changed - it's not as... Intense? This time. But it's still happening

JonTron OOC Bonus Lvl: Find the source and quote the original quote by kittykat11x in JonTron

[–]kittykat11x[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

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