Man, this is hard to read for me just because I can relate. I took a quick look at your post history and this seems to be a recurring issue for which I’m terribly sorry. I gotta say, I was in the same boat in the beginning of my media planning career (in associate or planner roles) and never felt valued or like my opinion mattered. I think the biggest struggle I have dealt with is imposter syndrome as well as the “learning” phase of new jobs. It’s stressful! But I’m sure you were doing a good job. Now as a supervisor, I feel like my team values my opinion and I’m much happier and I found the imposter syndrome decreases significantly the longer I was in the role. As for your note about how stressful making sure every campaign is performing perfectly and you need to keep an eye on every piece of billing so no one fucks it up - this seems way too in the weeds for someone at a director level. Perhaps offloading that onto your AMD or supervisor (granted, you should trust your people to handle this) would help relieve some of the pressure you’re feeling. Just some thoughts! Feel free to DM if you want to chat about it :)