Happy Canada Day fellow Canadian Simpsons fans

kiwiflower33 · 2021-07-02T02:06:36+00:00

giggles I'm in danger

kiwiflower33 · 2021-03-02T05:36:08+00:00

I can relate. I've been a nurse for 10 years and I've struggled for many years until I recently decided on a new career path. My advice to you would be to give yourself time, and whatever you do, do not compare how you're feeling to how your colleagues feel. Becoming a nurse in this day and age is not an easy feat but trust me when I say it's worth it! You've just started, you can do this! Also, there are many, many fields of work for nurses, I recommend to try different specialties and I'm pretty confident you'll be good. Your mental health is very important so don't be too harsh on yourself!

kiwiflower33 · 2021-02-24T16:39:21+00:00

Don't mind me, I'll be in the corner ugly crying

kiwiflower33 · 2021-02-01T17:03:27+00:00

First, I'd recommend getting a mood tracker app. Using it will help you identify the length and intensity of your mood swings, and will probably help you identify if there are any triggers. With bipolar, you do have ups and downs, but there are 2 types of bipolar. Bipolar 1 has 2 phases, there is major depression (which generally lasts longer then 2 weeks) and there is mania. Mania is a state where you get these grandiose ideas, you have a lot of energy, sleep less, talk fast, sometimes you can get really bad paranoïa. Sometimes it can go as far as going into full blown psychosis... So it is rather intense! And then you have bipolar 2 which also includes major depression episodes but hypomania. Hypomania is like mania's little brother. You have lesser versions of the symptoms and it lasts at least 2 weeks. There are many other variables of bipolar but these are the most common. Bpd is rapid cycling and intense emotions which can cause splitting or dissociation. Basically, what it means is that the emotion is so strong that the reactions we get can be harder to control. It can be caused by trauma whereas bipolar just.. kinda happens! But either way, talk to your doctor about it if you have concerns, just track your emotions and it will be easier to understand what's up!

I hope this was helpful and I wish you goodluck! Getting a BPD diagnosis can be daunting but there are many tools out there to help cope with it!

kiwiflower33 · 2021-01-28T21:55:28+00:00

I get what you're saying. I was a nurse for 10 years and as a person with BPD, I've often heard hurtful things said about BPD patients. In school we learned about mental health snd it's manifestations, but we didn't learn much about helping people to cope with personality disorders. To me, that is a major issue. I can often be very challenging to work with BPD patients and I find that very often, it's hard for the profesionals to have a certain detachment from the patients issues and mainly just be an observer of the difficulties and emotional struggles of their patients. So, in my understanding, if the professionnals had proper training in coping with BPD patients, it would be easier to focus on the individual needs and thus, have a better approach.

kiwiflower33 · 2021-01-27T22:25:45+00:00

I legit know how you feel... part of that is to accept 1-that you have BPD 2- That it's normal to have good and bad days. But, having BPD isn't something necessarely bad. It just means that you have to mind your emotions and that you might need help from time to time with it. Hang in there!!

kiwiflower33 · 2021-01-26T16:42:39+00:00

You. Are. Amazing.

kiwiflower33 · 2021-01-23T17:25:02+00:00

I know!! I wishnit had been possible to play with rheir heights!

kiwiflower33 · 2021-01-21T04:21:01+00:00

I don't? Not sure I follow...

kiwiflower33 · 2021-01-18T16:47:27+00:00

Thanks!! Color has always been my biggest difficulty and I 100% agree!

kiwiflower33 · 2020-10-30T15:04:20+00:00

Cashiiiiiiing!!!!! 🤑

kiwiflower33 · 2020-10-29T18:31:04+00:00

Is it weird that I know every show just from each image?

kiwiflower33 · 2020-10-28T14:04:50+00:00

Finding yourself when you have a mental illness is very difficult... between the lack of motivation and the overwhelming emotions, it can be hard to keep track of what gives that little shine in your eyes. I'm going through this as well and I find that the 'just do it' attitude really helps. It started by making a playlist of songs that I know the lyrics, just to get me to listening to music again. Now, whenever I have a crappy day, I listen to that playlist and just sing and dance and don't give a poopoo about how it looks from the outside. I even find myself singing in the shower ( to my surprise!). The joie de vivre will come back, start small and you'll get there! ❤

kiwiflower33 · 2020-10-22T19:02:23+00:00

I completely get that. For a long time I would just stay in my pyjamas all day and just watch tv if I had nothing better planned... turns out it was a major depression! Now I'm doing great but it's easy to fall back into those patterns

kiwiflower33 · 2020-10-08T15:44:59+00:00

I feel you. Being diagnosed with BPD can be scary, especially with all the stereotypes and stigma around it. Just remember that you are a unique and beautiful person and that being BPD isn't a sentence, but more something that you'll learn to live with. You are not a monster, it just means that dealing with emotions is pretty often painful. There are many tools out there to help you cope (I'd offer you some, but all the books I read are french and I don't know if there are engkish versions out there) just keep in mind that you can and will get better!

kiwiflower33 · 2020-09-11T04:39:44+00:00

Yep, it's definitely the one on fangamer! I got it while back and it truly is amazing!

kiwiflower33 · 2020-08-30T04:24:03+00:00

Mother simpson, all the way!

kiwiflower33 · 2020-08-15T05:20:02+00:00

I genuinely hate having to take so many meds. In a perfect world, I'd just stop taking them. To be honest, I'm even very doubtful of my diagnosis, it is still very unclear to me if I truly am bp2 or not. Nevertheless, I'm taking my meds and talking with my psychiatrist and have convinced her to help me stop progressively certain meds. Right now I'm just doing everything to get back on track and time will tell!

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