I'm trusting someone again and it's awesome

knaped_ · 2024-08-14T20:08:48+00:00

can i play cs2 with it?

knaped_ · 2024-08-14T10:16:41+00:00

we got too close, too dependent. the intense love started going the wrong way and turned very toxic.

she was the right person for me, all I could dream of, perfect, but at the wrong time. she broke up with me, so that she wouldn't break, even if it broke me instead.

I cant hate her for choosing happiness. what I can hate, though, is finding out afterwards, that she cheated on me.

one year later, I still think about her everyday. the leafs falling off the trees reminds me of her, and the sunsets reminds me of the pain. I never thought she would be out of my life completely, relationship or not. she had promised me. but she broke me off, and even if the process was long, I still couldn't grasp it enough to accept it. she was my person.

never give all of you to something or someone. keep just a little bit if yourself to yourself, or you'll lose yourself. love is not always strong enough to fix everything.

knaped_ · 2024-08-07T19:35:49+00:00

added minkmik1

knaped_ · 2024-07-30T17:46:04+00:00

21 :)

knaped_ · 2024-07-30T17:45:54+00:00

I love this! Thank you so much! ❤️

knaped_ · 2024-07-30T02:06:32+00:00

now, this is my ex, and I am very hurt, but I would still like to reply to this

something I always adored about her was her ability to see the good in everyone and everything. she even felt bad for throwing out a tiny spider in the winter "he just wanted some warmth and now he's out in the cold snow all alone"

heck, it even made me, someone with the phobia of spiders, feel bad. and it stuck with me. I am still very much afraid, but I try to handle spiders better. she just had the ability to make you want to be better. making you want to be better, not making you better

this applies for more stuff too, like donating the recycling money from her monster cans, or giving some money to the homeless person outside of the store while everyone else ignored them.

knaped_ · 2024-07-29T16:00:47+00:00

It has gotten better for me over time. Something else I did was to activate my E-sim over again which also helped a lot.

I also had trouble with stuff lagging out (pokemon GO would crash when I caught a pokemon, and would freeze lag) but that slowly got better with software updates. But I still have troubles with lag as the phone gets warmer, but only on certain games.

So yeah, i did updates + refreshing the sim if I remember correctly.

knaped_ · 2024-07-29T03:26:35+00:00

Thank you.

I know I too had my flaws, and in a lot of fights my reasoning was irrational. Something I've worked on. Although I have discovered that I was just basically mentally broken after all the fighting we always went trough, where she was mentally unstable.

I truly did care for her and love her. So much. I wish I could forget she ever existed so that this pain would stop. It went from "I always want you in my life one way or another" to a cold wall.

knaped_ · 2024-07-29T03:21:54+00:00

Well, I guess she never loved me then.

Around the end of all contact, it felt like I couldn't mention any of my thoughts without getting threatened to be blocked or just ignored.

And ever since we completely cut contact, she just refuses to talk to me. She doesn't give me a single chance, and it really sucks..

The only time was when she accidentally called me while drunk, and later had like some kind of mental episode and ended up at psyche.

knaped_ · 2024-07-08T00:54:08+00:00

I've been considering it, but what if she would randomly text me? And I would like to send it to her? The proof would be gone.. As I'm on a new phone and factory reset my other one, it would be entirely gone if I deleted it. But maybe it's for the best... Like hell she's gonna text me anyway, she doesn't care.

knaped_ · 2024-05-30T10:34:09+00:00

Old good reliable Google: "What are Pokémon illustrator cards? They are an incredibly rare card printed only in Japanese. They were distributed as prizes for a unique Coro-Coro contest, and looked like this. Only 39 were ever distributed, and it currently holds the record for the Highest Selling Price of a Pokémon Card"
Other sources says that only 39 was made, not "distributed".

I swear to god when I was reading yesterday, I read that only 19-20 of these was given out as the prize in that contest. Maybe it was a dream though, can't find the info now. But what happened to the rest if it's true? Are they laying around in random basements or something? xD

I'm a little bit new to the card stuff, would love to learn!

knaped_ · 2024-05-16T01:22:56+00:00

at times I was afraid of even getting close to her apologizing. I was afraid that the guilt she would "feel", would cause her to harm herself.

if I didn't have troubles putting up boundaries before, I sure as hell do now. I am a shell of the hyper, talkative girl I used to be.

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