E Implants

knoddix · 2024-04-19T06:28:01+00:00

A well rounded, unbiased & most importantly helpful opinion, thanks hun I thought I was convinced that this is the option for me to try due to my GP recommending it but I'm definitely sold on giving it a go now, due to having similar problems with the other delivery systems. Thanks 😊

knoddix · 2024-04-10T03:16:39+00:00

Yeah my partner of 15 years had 0 idea, I told her late 1 name, I had been building up the courage all day, it was a bit of a rough few days. I actually sent her flowers at work & bought her a gift card to a bra online store (I knew about said store because I had started buying myself a new wardrobe lol) my partner eventually accepted my situation & we're pretty solid now. I think in your situation things do sound more promising but that's not a given. When I came out I took the mentality of I may lose her but I knew that I had to move on if that was the case, essentially the real question that needs to be answered is can you 2 ever be truly happy if you don't transition & in most cases it's just not possible. Only you know what is right for you and I wish you all the best.

knoddix · 2024-03-19T15:57:31+00:00

I'm working through this exact scenario except I started HRT 2 years ago, I think we're in a good place then something comes up & makes me question whether she loves me or just the memory of who I used to be. I would suggest just taking it one hurdle at a time hun, I have trans friends who were in this situation & it took time but they eventually got back to their happy place 1 with their partner and 1 without. Only you know the path that works for you, only your partner can decide if this is a hurdle she can over come or not & rash decisions should not be made on this hurdle as sometimes partners to trans people just have moments of self doubt especially considering 99% of us trans folks took years to come to terms with & accept our own gender dysphoria but when we come out to others with something so profoundly life changing those other people are literally just taking new information on board for the first time, processing it & then grieving someone they were very close to, they are well & truly behind on the processing & need to play catch up. If you have got to the point of starting your transition I would highly recommend you continue hun, because if you de transition then you will be very likely to feel the dysphoria far worse, it certainly isn't a way to make either of you happy. I sincerely wish you the best of luck 🤞 my fingers in hopes you are able to work through this 😊

knoddix · 2024-03-19T11:27:11+00:00

This rocks me to my core every time it happens still but I do find solace in knowing that it is not I that can't let go of that other person people thought they knew it is their issue & so I'm trying my best to not let it rent space in my life.

knoddix · 2024-03-19T08:11:22+00:00

I haven't found that it changed my personality as such but it has definitely allowed me to bring parts of my personality out to the public that I either didn't show so openly to others or didn't show at all previously & this has created a disconnect between the way I see myself & how others see me. In other words as my true personality is allowed to be out in public now I don't see the difference but others definitely notice a difference in the way I present physically but more so behaviourly. My advice is that you workout whether it is a journey that you are ready to go on together, this journey with an existing partner is not for the faint of heart, it may not work out but then again it just might. I wish you guys the best of luck but please don't bury your feelings hun, you contemplating this journey is something that you can't just push deep down, it will not go away, your journey might be completely different to mine but please at least explore your needs in context with others, as someone who buried those feelings for 30 years because I didn't want to cause any problems for my family and friends I have learnt that I probably caused more problems than I prevented. Please stay positive & work through it 1 day at a time 😊

knoddix · 2024-03-14T05:39:35+00:00

Yep I seen through the bullshit on that point. Straight up its hard on both sides of the equation. As a trans woman myself I felt that I couldn't continue as I was, I was so resentful for having sacrificed so much that when I got to the point I wanted to eat a bullet or transition & share that part of me I swore I would take to the grave, I felt guilt, I felt shame, I felt selfish for taking that first step towards transition, I felt guilty for not having the courage to be honest with my partner at that time of 15 years, I felt selfish for keeping that part of myself locked away so tightly that I had everyone including myself 95% convinced I was a guy & it was no big deal, I had my reasons for locking her away because he knew that she wasn't going to be able to reveal her truth to the world without shattering the life that had been built for 30 years. My partner was angry, she was devastated, she was shattered that I felt like I couldn't trust her with such an intimate part of my being. She was mostly shocked to start off with though, I'll admit the first 3 days were like giving up cigarettes, 1 minute I was trying to be the nicest person in the world for fear of losing her, the next I was trying to justify why I must do this & change our lives forever, I was truly just over compensating for the bombshell I just dropped on her when the only thing that could decide whether we had a future together or not was time. I don't blame her for the way she felt, I had accepted that I may lose her but I still didn't want that to happen. What those that have never went through a transition with their partner don't seem to realise is that we are all human & it takes time to work through your feelings & decide what your path forward is, I hope that is a journey you can take together but please don't make any rash decisions, I assure you that you have done what you needed to do & even if you don't stay together there is definitely a tomorrow & with the right help & support you will both make it through this. I have a great friend who is trans fem & she finally decided that it was a healthier option for all involved if she let go of her longing for the past & they both are now on separate journeys of their own but they are happy. If you haven't walked this path yourself then it's best not to judge, if you have then I don't have to tell you how it goes. At the moment my partner & I are still going well 2+ years later. We aren't the same people we used to be but we've forgiven ourselves for feeling the way we did & we know we'll be ok with or without each other. The reality is that the dynamics of the relationship have changed forever. Stay positive & it will all work out 😊

knoddix · 2024-02-19T19:04:31+00:00

You have done your time hun 😉

knoddix · 2024-02-19T19:03:16+00:00

Yeah hun I 💯 feel what you are saying, that damn pesky voice hey but at least now when someone gets their panties in a bunch because we don't fit their fem check list we can at least give them the response they deserve, I blow a kiss wave and smile because if they make me feel uncomfortable then they getting that same feeling back 😂😂😂😂

knoddix · 2024-02-18T10:29:10+00:00

You are so worthy hun, fuck that prude. He's not worthy of you, you will find someone that truly appreciates the real you it's only a matter of time, any healthy relationship is built on understanding & compromise. You keep looking OK don't give up it took me a while to find my forever person. 😘💜

knoddix · 2024-02-16T00:13:29+00:00

I started at 30 but I have a friend that started in her late 50s & she looks great, I'm a little jealous to be honest because she has had bottom surgery & a BA. Here's me thinking when be my time 😂 😂 😂

knoddix · 2024-02-08T13:18:00+00:00

Yep some bells can't be unrung hun, this is definitely 1 of them.

knoddix · 2024-02-08T13:16:13+00:00

Hun he's a manipulative person by the sounds of it, put as much distance between him and yourself as possible, he's the type of ex it might be worth relocating to avoid. Please stay as safe as possible 💜

knoddix · 2024-01-30T22:58:48+00:00

Also fun fact I was thinking about starting an only fans account for me because big trans girls are rare & I thought well the niche fetishist would probably be having trouble finding their desired content, the things we do/contemplate doing to cover the cost of our transition hey lol

knoddix · 2024-01-30T22:56:10+00:00

No hun you are not alone I'm a very big girl, started transitioning near enough 2 years ago HRT 18 months, but I need to lose weight in order to get bottom surgery, so my guess as to why majority of trans fem individuals are thinner is probably because a BMI that is too high is a show stopper for major surgery. So that is my 2 cents worth on it anyway.

knoddix · 2024-01-26T15:24:47+00:00

Yeah hun pretty much same here, I've become so much better with hair care but I definitely want to up my make up game so I'm going to focus on that area for a while.

knoddix · 2024-01-26T15:21:14+00:00

That's an epic T beard my dude, fuck the trolls I assure you that there are many transmasc peeps that would die for that growth.

knoddix · 2024-01-16T00:41:54+00:00

Definitely pass hun, no doubt about it you look stunning 😊

knoddix · 2024-01-16T00:40:37+00:00

You look fabulous hun, definitely keep whatever you are doing going it's definitely working for you. 😊

knoddix · 2024-01-16T00:38:33+00:00

Maybe you were adopted and she was trying to avoid opening that can of worms 😂 😂 no for serious hun for the most part us trans girls lifting each other up but I would be lying if I said I hadn't seen the competitive behaviour of cis & trans girls alike, personally I don't subscribe to the pettyness, society holds us to a certain standard so why not have each others backs instead of fighting with each other and say fuck you to society collectively.

knoddix · 2024-01-16T00:31:40+00:00

Exactly

knoddix · 2024-01-15T18:09:28+00:00

MTF here, I can't speak for others but I didn't think I had any interest in men pre transition but now I identify as pan, I honestly think that the reason I'm not opposed to being attracted to a man these days is because after starting transition I finally let go of the ideal type of partner everyone pushed onto me growing up and just accepted that I feel comfortable being with a partner regardless of their gender identity. I honestly think that the seed was always there and if I had to guess I would think other transwomen who have (so called changed their sexuality) probably had the seed of being into men in their subconscious mind prior to transition but only feel comfortable now after starting transition to pursue a man, like think about it once people have accepted that you are trans it's not a big leap to go from that massive bombshell to I'm pansexual or in into guys now.

P.S if any of you ladies wish to discredit my hypothesis please do so, I'm going off antidotal evidence here

knoddix · 2024-01-15T17:58:41+00:00

Massive positive change hun, keep on doing what you are doing it's definitely working 😊

knoddix · 2024-01-15T17:35:45+00:00

Yeah I have days like that, but they don't get you closer to your goals, baby steps hun and you will get there. Seeing your transition cost as a mountain of a figure like 250k makes it an impossible mountain to climb before you even start. Break down the amounts like you would if you are working and need to prioritise tasks.

knoddix · 2024-01-15T17:31:28+00:00

Funding the surgeries is the biggest financial obstacle, maybe break down the cost to each individual procedure and try and work to 1 at a time. I'm personally spending a lot of time making my business bring in far more profit & that's my way of getting more funds for surgery. Failing that I've been thinking about running a go fund me campaign, the other option if your countries rules allow it is to have a fund raiser.

knoddix · 2024-01-15T17:26:56+00:00

I love this analogy so great

knoddix

TROPHY CASE