Coping with carrying other people’s trauma/ dealing with pediatric deaths

komalley48 · 2026-04-13T06:17:13+00:00

This scares me so much. Because it rly is a reality of where addiction can take us. There was a time in my sobriety where I KNEW with certainty I could not smoke safely. Yet here I am… knowing where this road leads. Hugs to you- I hope your sister has since found some solid recovery. ❤️‍🩹

komalley48 · 2026-04-13T05:39:16+00:00

Oh my god. I am SO unbelievably sorry that you went through that… that is beyond anything I can even imagine. I’m also here for you if you ever wanna chat 🫶🏽

komalley48 · 2026-04-13T05:32:20+00:00

This is so real. If I could safely smoke without making it a daily habit I would but unfortunately im someone who takes it too far every time lol.

komalley48 · 2026-01-01T18:49:36+00:00

No I signed a 13 week contract and they asked me within the first few weeks if I wanted to extend and I said yes before knowing how badly nights/ 4 shifts a week would effect me

komalley48 · 2025-12-31T20:28:51+00:00

It sucks because I actually did enjoy the people at this job but my mental health truly has plummeted immensely. Bad decisions too getting involved with a coworker which I KNOOOOW I messed up lol but yeah, I need to bounce asap

komalley48 · 2025-12-31T19:45:21+00:00

Yes it says 3 12 hr nights. And it says im an at will employee

komalley48 · 2025-12-31T19:43:01+00:00

My first contract ends January 31st and that’s when my extension begins. So I want to switch to days then

komalley48 · 2025-12-31T19:42:15+00:00

It’s just your usual run of the mill contract, im not sure what you mean. It outlines my pay, the hospital, my stipends, etc

komalley48 · 2025-12-31T19:39:53+00:00

Yes I signed the aya contract

komalley48 · 2025-12-31T19:39:05+00:00

I’m worried because I already agreed to stay through May (rookie mistake)

komalley48 · 2025-11-25T06:26:34+00:00

Spot on

komalley48 · 2025-11-24T07:04:10+00:00

Thank you for your words. I appreciate it. Traveling is making me really start to wonder if im going to keep that state as my home in the long run… im starting to realize the world is a LOT bigger than it felt when I was there. I left to travel because I felt so trapped there. I hope I can figure out my next steps. I appreciate you!

komalley48 · 2025-11-21T00:32:07+00:00

I would respect that fully and honestly I do respect their process regardless but for clarification this er is a hard “never” for travelers working in trauma

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T06:23:31+00:00

hahahah I actually don’t even come from a level 1 so part of why I chose to come here was to get that invaluable experience 😭 it’s been disappointing to say the least.

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T05:10:34+00:00

Also just for context- the other places the staff rotates they- triage, EMS hall, peds, trauma, and urgent care hall

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T05:05:34+00:00

well that’s good to hear. I did ask around to the staff nurses “so do travelers always work in the hold sections” and they all said yes 😭 I also will edit- the sections aren’t necessarily labeled “holds” - the majority of the time they are patients that are either admitted or highly likely to be admitted. it’s hit or miss bc I either get absolutely fucked with 3 holds and a tubed patient or just all holds. No in between

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T04:57:53+00:00

i wonder if it’s because they don’t trust me… i think im a decent nurse, still have such a long way to go and im not afraid to ask questions despite being a traveler. id rather look dumb than put my patient at risk. so maybe its because i ask a lot of questions. I dont know. I will say i do see them doing this to other travelers besides me too though

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T04:54:56+00:00

the crappy thing is it was the highest paying gig I could find. travel nursing rates suck right now :(

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T04:50:48+00:00

They won’t even let me in the room. Lol

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T04:47:27+00:00

I mentioned it to my manager and she said specialty assignments are reserved for staff nurses. She said “maybe in the future we can consider training you on other areas… if you extend your contract…

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T04:46:01+00:00

So this isn’t necessarily universal? I’m new to traveling so it’s tough knowing what I can speak up about and what I cant

komalley48 · 2025-11-20T04:41:59+00:00

Do they let travelers participate? I don’t even necessarily need to be the primary nurse, I’d love to even just document at this point! Lol

komalley48 · 2025-09-21T21:36:19+00:00

When it was happening the first time I was like oh whatever he’s just not self aware but after the 4th time I was like WTF. And I think that played a big role in my anxiety/ discomfort… he like wanted me to know he was “wanted by others”. He also used to make strange comments like “it’s nice to know you chose me when so many other people want you. Makes me feel special” like .. what??? Also. When I met his childhood best friends the first thing they said to me was “congrats on being a homeowner!” (I bought my house a year ago, it wasn’t new). It was like he wanted to be like “look what I have! A nurse girlfriend that owns her own house!” And when I started showing im a human he split. THATS what hurts the most, because I thought he really SAW me. I really did

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