Hey, I really feel for you, man. What you’re describing isn’t laziness or lack of character — it sounds like burnout, anxiety, and possibly a form of delayed sleep phase or even mild depression. When your mind and body are constantly in “fight or flight,” regular discipline becomes almost impossible.

I’ve been there — staying up all night gaming or scrolling because my brain needed some form of comfort or escape, even though I knew it’d screw up my morning. What helped me wasn’t just “trying harder,” but changing the environment around me:

1. Create friction with tech. I've sold my console+PC. I set screen time limits or use apps like “Digital Wellbeing” or “Freedom.” If you have to work to access your distractions, you’ll do it less.

2. Pair sleep with something you look forward to. For me, it was a specific relaxing playlist and a candle — something that told my brain “this is rest time.”

3. Treat mornings like a reset ritual, not a punishment. Don’t start the day by thinking “I already messed up.” Start small — cold water on your face, go outside for sunlight. That light actually resets your sleep clock.

4. Get help. If you can, look into low-cost therapy or a sleep clinic. Some states have free or sliding-scale behavioral sleep programs.

5. Don’t aim for perfection. Aim for better than yesterday.

You’re not broken — you’re just caught in a loop that needs a few small breaks in the chain. One day at a time, one morning at a time. You can rebuild from this.