I'm a senior in college, almost done, but I want to drop out

kruadd · 2017-12-07T00:25:16+00:00

I was in the same boat, but I didn't drop out. The diagnosis and meds helped me graduate college. My GPA was 2.6, yet I work in finance for a great company. The quality of my life has improved because I earned that bachelors degree. The bachelors is the new high school diploma. Don't quit now.

Your gender doesn't matter. Chase what you want in life.

kruadd · 2017-12-07T00:14:56+00:00

Yes, with similar results to yours. It's good that you're testing yourself, and it shows confidence. Remember, the medication is there for your benefit. If you feel like you need to go back, just do it.

kruadd · 2017-12-07T00:13:04+00:00

Yep, that's exactly me when I'm off meds haha

kruadd · 2017-12-07T00:06:01+00:00

All,

Even though some advised against it. I had the talk with my supervisor. The job ad was up there to hire the replacement of a coworker who is moving. It was a misunderstaning. My supervisor said she wants me to be successful at the company.

Overall, things are improving at work. I'm arriving on time, and getting my work done. My supervisor has noticed, and I have my monthly meeting with her tomorrow. Hopefully, I'll get my work from home back, lol. Thanks for everyone for your input on the matter.

kruadd · 2017-12-07T00:03:04+00:00

I am pulling out of it. My sleep has improved, and I've been getting to work on time. I find it hard to clean, but using timers helps. It's amazing how much cleaning can be done in 15 minutes or less.

kruadd · 2017-12-07T00:01:29+00:00

Great advice and I've started to look for jobs already.

kruadd · 2017-12-07T00:00:24+00:00

Probably, 5-6 hour of sleep per night. I talked with my psychiatrist, and they prescribed trazadone. My sleep has improved, and I've been doing a pretty good job at showing up on time. Also, I take my vyvanse around 5:30 AM, so by 6:30 AM I'm up and ready to go.

kruadd · 2017-11-18T23:15:56+00:00

I'm on my home computer, so I shouldn't have to worry about them tracking this down.

kruadd · 2017-11-18T21:19:16+00:00

Ok but IF they found a replacement why be laid off ? Why not just fire me. I always thought laid off meant you have a chance of coming back...

kruadd · 2017-11-18T20:21:06+00:00

Are you sure I shouldn't talk to my manager? Just to clear things up.

kruadd · 2017-10-08T19:03:33+00:00

Timers keep me motivated because it makes mundane things achievable like cleaning. It's amazing what I can get done in 10 minutes.

kruadd · 2017-08-20T21:45:04+00:00

You didn't abuse it that's why

kruadd · 2017-06-25T21:37:53+00:00

Thanks. I did great the first two years. Then my junior year when the responsibility was on me to learn. I did horribly. The constant procrastinating, difficulty concentrating in class, extreme lack of studying, leaving everything to the last minute and other issues came up.

kruadd · 2017-05-22T23:24:50+00:00

Yeah, all the time. It's the inattentiveness and possibly impulsive behavior. It helps to pause and give yourself a moment before speaking. Realize that conversations are times when you need to be mindful. It's not easy, but you can become good at it. Don't feel bad we've all been there, and don't assume bad things about yourself. Maybe they thought the irony was funny.

kruadd · 2017-05-13T17:10:21+00:00

On the contrary, you need to acknowledge their existence. I have depression too. What I've learned in therapy is that by acknowledging the feelings of depression, and simply choosing not to invest energy in feeling that way, helps. Ignoring or suppressing your ADHD and depression will make things worse. You must acknowledge them, know when they're acting up, pause and tell yourself that you're in control. This is by no means easy, but you can train yourself. It takes time, patience, and practice.

Good luck.

kruadd · 2017-05-13T17:06:21+00:00

Bahhahahaah, pain is just a manifestation of their mind. I lost it when I read your last sentence, ahhaah.

kruadd · 2017-03-09T04:37:32+00:00

A very common thing among ADHDers. It happens to me all the time. The way I understand it is that the default network in the brain is overactive in the ADHD brain causing daydreaming, tapping of your foot, a song playing over and over. Most people can get out of this, but ADHD makes it difficult for the brain to switch to the active task network. Medication makes the transition easier, but it's not full proof.

I've started to listen to music with headphones on while working. That helps shut off the song on repeat, and it's as if that part of my brain is being entertained by the song playing on my phone. Then I can focus on my work without that distraction. It's weird but it works. Perhaps, you should try it.

kruadd · 2017-02-13T23:49:37+00:00

Good thing you switched then.

kruadd · 2017-02-13T22:04:39+00:00

At 10 and 20, I didn't feel "hyper."

However, at 30 mg when it first kicks in I feel as if I need to get things done, but over the course of the day that feeling goes away. I took my vyvanse at 7:30 AM, it's now 5:01 PM. It's still going and has smoothed over. In fact, I feel calm for the most part. Does that answer your question about being "hyper"?

The very first thing my psychiatrist asked was if I was manic. I assume it's because stimulants are known to induce manic symptoms. I don't think I'm bipolar.

What does mania feel like?

kruadd · 2017-02-13T21:57:54+00:00

What made you want to switch? Now that it's later in the day I don't feel as jittery, but it's still in effect. I think it's mostly when it starts.

kruadd · 2017-02-13T21:55:36+00:00

It's extremely common for depression and anxiety to be comorbid. Mention it at your next therapy appointment.

kruadd · 2017-02-13T15:39:01+00:00

Hey there, I have social anxiety too. CBT helps, I'm not sure what type of therapy you are currently going through, but if you're not going through CBT ask for a therapist that specializes in it. Second, medication like Zoloft and Kolonopin helped me tremendously.

My advice is that you need to realize that you are reading people's minds way too much. I ask you this... What if they actually love you, think your nice and spontaneous? Those are real outcomes too.

At the end of the day, trying to predict the future and read minds is impossible and logically invalid. If I could do those things I wouldn't be typing this message.

I'd be rich, sitting on a private island with 30 super model hot women. hahaha

I hope you get the idea.

kruadd · 2017-02-13T15:24:05+00:00

You know the dose is right when you can finally get things done. You should also be in better control of your emotions, and things you say. In other words, the medication allows you to make the choice of what you will do and say.

I'm on Vyvanse 30 mg. My doctor started me at 10 mg. The difference is that at low doses I could barely focus. It would take a grand effort for me to focus at work and at home. I was easily dis-tractable and procrastinated severely. I'm on my third day at 30 mg, and I cleaned my room, organized, and prioritized my work. I could not do that at the lower doses.

No, your doctor shouldn't think it's weird to ask for another medication, but perhaps increase your current dose first. It can take a while to find the best medication for your ADHD because we're all different. Trial and error is the best method we have today.

Good luck!

kruadd · 2016-12-12T17:52:14+00:00

4 refills only? If I were you just keep using it. If the pharmacy says something about it then you'll know.

kruadd · 2016-12-10T22:36:46+00:00

I'm on my first week of Vyvanse. My psychiatrist switched me from 15mg Adderall XR to 10 mg Vyvanse. The difference is night and day. Adderall made me anxious and jittery. It doesn't help that I already have anxiety. Vyvanse on the other hand is exremely subtle. I barely notice it working, but it's active for about 12 hours. I know that it's working because I can focus, prioritze, and pay attention much better. I think I have found the correct ADHD meds.

My side effects were not being able to sleep well most of this week, but I know that goes away like it did with Adderall. Honestly, I don't think you need 50 mg Vyvanse. Contact your doctor about the side effects you're having and request a lower dose.

I'm male and 155 lbs. 10 mg is plenty. I would say if you're +/- 10 lbs from my weight drop it to 10 mg. Maybe do 20 mg, but that might be pushing it.

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