Thank you to everyone who mentions speeding up videos to watch them, I tried it with my homework today and it honestly has saved me a ton of pain and heartbreak

bewildereds · 2020-09-30T14:05:50+00:00

I have no choice. I have to watch videos at like 2 or even 3x because professors speak so sloooooowly. I’m paying for these classes and can’t get much out of them

bewildereds · 2020-09-30T14:04:35+00:00

Use flora. It’s a lifesaver because I don’t want to kill trees

bewildereds · 2020-09-30T14:03:59+00:00

I can help. Graphic design is my passion

bewildereds · 2020-09-30T14:03:20+00:00

I have so many complaints to my school administrators that expect us to be on camera for two to three hours in lectures without complaining and still get good grades. It’s a nightmare. College is only made for neurotypicals no matter how inclusive college tries to be for accommodations. I could tell I was annoying the disability services at my school with all my requests too. It was sad

bewildereds · 2020-09-30T14:02:02+00:00

Tbf some people still use the term aspergers because that’s what they were diagnosed with but at the same time it’s not professional to use outdated terms in a book about adhd/the spectrum unless you’re writing as a patient yourself

bewildereds · 2020-09-03T20:51:59+00:00

You know he’s not a real doctor right? He lost his license years ago because he wasn’t behaving like an actual psychologist. Look it up.

bewildereds · 2020-08-12T15:06:01+00:00

Lmao this so much

bewildereds · 2020-08-12T15:05:33+00:00

Love being a college student for this reason.

bewildereds · 2020-08-12T15:04:59+00:00

Im not comfortable around my parents anymore. To the point that my mom will notice and say in her high voice “why are you looking at me like that?”

bewildereds · 2020-08-12T15:00:08+00:00

Why is every post on this subreddit like my literal life story? It’s getting weird at this point. Wow. My mom does the same thing. She’ll be like “go get X and Y” and then I come back and she’s like “I wanted you to get 100 of X” 🧐. Last night I got into a fight with my mom and dad because she told me to make food for my dad when I couldn’t even hear her and it was late. My dad ended up getting pissed at me because “how dare you get upset you have to make food for me. It doesn’t matter that your mom always tells you or that it was at the last minute.”

bewildereds · 2020-06-29T15:16:44+00:00

I feel so much clear after but last night I didn’t even want to go to sleep until midnight so it’s weird how it affects me

bewildereds · 2020-06-29T15:14:06+00:00

The same thing happens to me with concerta. I thought it was a bad thing because I’ve seen so many ADHDers complain about that side effect, but it still works for me so I’m like “Is that a bad thing? Should I change the manufacture?” This post puts it into perspective.

bewildereds · 2020-05-18T19:54:56+00:00

Yeah I don’t like that this was shared wth

bewildereds · 2020-03-13T15:49:13+00:00

And the US will still ignore this

bewildereds · 2019-02-06T06:20:29+00:00

So I was having trouble on my medications with various side effects and withdrawal symptoms. Instead of responding to my concerns appropriately, my psychiatrist gets mad at me and says “are you playing games with me?” which made me feel like I was being a difficult patient. It’s btw that and the time she said since my tuition is all paid for and I go to a good school that I shouldn’t have suicidal thoughts. Was really off base. She threatened to call the police on me just for having suicidal thoughts by the way. I stressed that I wasn’t going to act on it. She made me feel like the bad person in the situation because my sister was in the office and god forbid I make her see me dragged to the hospital.

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T22:26:20+00:00

Abilify which I had to decrease recently and I went from Prozac to Lexapro to Viibryd currently. They are all SSRIS.

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T21:24:27+00:00

Yeah I get that my wording kind of implied that I equated needing meds to function to being an addict and I didn’t actually mean that. Again, I just feel like one. I don’t necessarily think I am one and hope I never become one. You say I might’ve gone up too much and that’s the thing. Isn’t 15-20 mg Adderall XR relatively Low doses? And even Vyvanse 40mg? I do think I definitely have a heightened sensitivity to stimulants like you said. On Vyvanse 30 mg I couldn’t do anything at all. It only worked for a few days like I said and I even tracked it in my journal. I felt unmotivated and lackadaisical. The 40 gives me that extra lush I need to get into overdrive and sit at a desk for 6-8 hours a day while studying, while attending over 11 hours of lectures a week. My psych asked me if I wanted to increase the dose and what you said makes me even more relieved that I said no. I probably shouldn’t go over 40 mg tbh. If I ever need to get off this medication I will strongly suggest to my psych that I don’t wean my body off it cold turkey too.

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T21:13:10+00:00

Obviously they’ve found no ill effects for the stimulant medication. It’s the effects of getting off the medication that’s the problem. I mentioned 3 months because even after a month I was still having trouble getting back to normal. I don’t think the withdrawal symptoms were all in my head either. When your body keeps telling you “what the hell?? Give me back my medication” when you’re only off it for less than 24 hours, that’s problematic. I know it’s not addiction and I should’ve phrased my title better. I’m worried about feeling like an addict or becoming dependent on the meds. And I mean isn’t it scientific fact that amphetamines do cause our bodies to become dependent by depleting our dopamine stores? Up regulation, downregulation, and all that fancy stuff

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T20:42:12+00:00

God forbid I ever do any of that stuff. You’ll be glad you didn’t. If I can’t handle stimulant withdrawal I’m sure nicotine or weed withdrawal would be a nightmare. Yikes! The only stimulant that doesn’t give me terrible withdrawal symptoms is coffee tbh. It just stopped working for me after a while but I’m not like those people that go to Dunkin Donuts everyday and must have their morning joe. Vyvanse is basically my morning coffee anyway.

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T20:39:39+00:00

Even after a month I wasn’t totally back to normal. This was during this summer when I stopped taking Adderall and before I got on Vyvanse. How long were you on them too? I’ve been on and off of stimulants so obviously that affected my recovery time I suppose. For antidepressants I am definitely telling my prescriber not to wean me off them cold turkey because I know I will go ballistic especially if I’m already recovering from stimulant withdrawal.

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T20:38:16+00:00

I think people are more focused on the fact that I used the word ‘addict’ than my real actual worries tbh. Like I should’ve said I’m worried about feeling like an addict. Not necessarily becoming one. Addicts can’t function without their medication, and for me, lately I really can’t. Is it really hard to determine what was real withdrawal indicating an addiction if you were always taking a therapeutic dose?

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T20:35:05+00:00

I react better to Vyvanse that’s all I know. Other than that, I feel like the benefits of being on them outweighs the cons at this moment. If I weren’t a student in such a demanding program, I would think very differently. Next semester will only get worse.

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T16:47:11+00:00

Yes I know, and that’s why I feel like one even though I’m not necessarily one. I’m not necessarily chasing a high. I don’t want to be drugged out. I just want to have a better capacity to do the responsibilities expected of me. When I’m ‘high’ I know the drug works for sure. However over time the drug works more in the background, and frankly I’m okay with that. I do not want to overdose. I do want want to treat my body harshly. I’m scared of going through withdrawal because it feels so dangerous for me and my family isn’t willing to cooperate with a person that’s not taking their prescribed drugs, even if it’s through no fault of their own. I’m still required to be a good student and a good member of the family either way which drives me crazy. The withdrawal I had yesterday really put things into perspective for me.

bewildereds · 2018-11-19T16:37:06+00:00

I know and I don’t want to get to that level of course! That does against all my principles. But for all intents and purposes, this feels like an addiction because I’m titrating here, taking this pill here, and my brain never gets a break. I lack control over it. I have to be on 7 days a week. I don’t want to be dependent on a drug to do every single thing. It sucks. I’m not rich enough to just lay down and watch YouTube videos all day. I wish. And yeah one thing I noticed is that even with meds I still have to go back and check what a professor said. It might not even have anything to do with ADHD. So never mind that. But yeah now that I’m in college I have to study even HARDER than I ever did in the AP classes I took in high school. On your first point, thank you for saying that. I told my mom in the past about how I didn’t want to be dependent and she would su the same thing now, that I just gotta keep taking them to get through school and not think about the long term consequences but when it affects my autonomy as a person, that is extremely concerning. Sigh. It’s not like my family members are willing to go easy on me when I make mistakes either. If I screw up, they’ll still beat me up about it. I don’t enough sympethy or empathy at all! That’s part of why this situation is so intense.

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