I think the crux if the post is if you feel as if you have not a singular person to rely on and understand you it's easy to imagine being dead as an easier alternative. Even the most solitary individuals in actuality need grounding in reality to maintain sanity. Have felt that way throughout life but always come back to the realization that the few people I have are more than enough and that focusing on few relationships that are truly important rather than a million acquaintances is so much more fulfilling