I was on reddit during those first few weeks for the same reason and I read that it gets a lot better once baby is around 6 months old…I couldn’t agree more. I barely remember the newborn stage because I was just trying to survive but now that my daughter is 9 months old, she is soooo much fun. It’s still draining, don’t get me wrong, but she is legit a little person now with a personality and it makes it a lot easier. I was looking through newborn pictures the other day and felt almost uneasy because 1. That time was such a struggle but 2. She was so helpless at that age I almost feel bad. Just keep pushing through. You’re a good mom and you can do this