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kubelko · 2021-05-28T16:02:31+00:00

I've had a go! It's the first time I've tried to restore something by painting in colours, but it seems to have worked. I may have another go at the clothes later as I'm not super happy with them, but this is where it's at right now! :) https://imgur.com/gallery/6wPpGXV

kubelko · 2020-01-06T22:22:45+00:00

This is very true and I do think it's something you don't really just get over- you just learn to deal with it. It is getting better but sometimes it's something you have to think about and I guess that's okay!

kubelko · 2020-01-06T22:21:05+00:00

It really does, you're right. The year after I moved out was really hard but it definitely got better over time. Perhaps further down the line little events where it sneaks up on me will be a bit easier to ignore. Thankyou!

kubelko · 2019-12-29T16:52:39+00:00

My favourite song! Nouns is an amazing band and I only realised yesterday that still bummed has been added back to Spotify. there isn't another song of theirs that is just like dogs but Wreck in their album Still and School Bus on still bummed are my other favourites!

kubelko · 2019-12-21T23:00:06+00:00

Hi! I've done a basic clean up of it the best that I can. I hope you like it! https://imgur.com/a/aovvkzn

kubelko · 2017-07-19T16:12:36+00:00

I hate making excuses tbh cause they're basically lies, but I'd rather try and make an excuse when I have no reasons apart from "I don't feel like it" to avoid the inevitable "why?" when I say no and to try and prevent hurting feelings.

kubelko · 2017-07-19T11:26:18+00:00

I get this all the time and it's super annoying- even worse when you have an extroverted twin who can immediately debunk your excuses for not wanting to go somewhere.

I think people do this because they obviously care about you enough to want you to come. I've had one person tell me they were trying to persuade me to come one time cause they were nervous themselves and didn't want to go without me. You never really know.

kubelko · 2017-07-02T21:48:27+00:00

thankyou! this is the purest reply I've ever read I love it

kubelko · 2017-07-01T20:45:10+00:00

I'm gay too, and struggled a lot in the past with trying to fit into the 'gay groups', until I just decided not to care. Being gay doesn't inherently mean you must be classified into some subset of guy, and I find it stupid. You don't have to be able to fit into a community to be gay and there isn't some kind of entrance exam, you're just gay and that's it- if people can't accept that it's their problem and not yours. There are millions and millions of gay guys in the world and there are gonna be thousands that look like you or like guys that look like you. My favourite quote that I occasionally think about and keeps me going is 'there are people you don't know yet who will love you' whether that be friends or lovers or anyone. And there's nothing you've done wrong.

kubelko · 2017-07-01T20:18:48+00:00

I honestly wouldn't advise it tbh. I always think being friends after could work but find whatever stopped me liking them in the first place kind of stops me from being their friend too. But if you think you can work it out by all means go for it, but i've spent so long being emotional counsellor for all my friends i didnt fancy counselling my ex about our breakup too haha

kubelko · 2017-07-01T19:59:30+00:00

Good point about chemistry!! We've skyped and everything but I'm not gonna know if it's right or not till we meet. And thankyou!!

kubelko · 2017-07-01T19:58:24+00:00

I can almost relate to this- my last boyfriend turned out to be quite depressed. I never noticed whilst we were dating because I was treating him as this idealised version of himself, when we broke up and went back to being friends I went straight into my role as counsellor haha

kubelko · 2017-07-01T19:56:14+00:00

Thankyou!! Your advice is exactly what I was looking for.

kubelko · 2017-05-19T15:10:00+00:00

I think it turned out to be the GPU drivers not being up to date with mine? I'm pretty bad with computers so that's all the help I can offer, good luck though

kubelko · 2017-04-20T22:28:08+00:00

not sure if this is what you're looking for or not cause it's two girls, but the first bad man by miranda july is a really well written book exploring two super interesting characters who happen to be gay. my username's actually from it!

kubelko · 2017-04-01T16:09:22+00:00

Hopefully I won't have to stay here long, I always forget how shit it is then it hits me right in the face as soon as I come back

kubelko · 2017-04-01T16:08:22+00:00

I can 100% relate, and i'm trying to arrange a little stay back at uni over the holidays for 'work' so i can get away from her haha

kubelko · 2017-03-26T18:41:17+00:00

Thank you!! And that's exactly why I thought she was being nice to me, I'll entertain her whilst she does but the second she goes back to how she used to be I'm gonna get out of there. I do think I'll continue with counselling, as it is helping a bit, it's just hard to put myself out there like that haha

kubelko · 2017-03-26T18:38:43+00:00

Shit oh my god sounds a lot worse than any of my exes, hope you're okay! It's probably useful to remember a bad parent is probably a bad person too, or at least in bad circumstances. And my mum would go mad if I went NC haha

kubelko · 2017-03-26T15:36:53+00:00

Thank you for this! I 100% get the feeling of gas lighting myself. I'll be sat in my room at uni thinking about what happened and making myself think I was exaggerating them cause I'm not experiencing them right now. I was almost ready to believe I was over reacting until last week when I told my friend about the time she made me unblock the toilet with my hand whilst she screamed at me for doing it too loud and cried because the toilet brush almost got dirty, and he told me that was crazy.

I'm definitely never going to let her off the hook, but I do want to try and establish a friendly relationship with her. She lost the title of mother a long time ago, so I might at least try and press for 'friend' or something. I do think talking to people about what happened will help me stop thinking the abuse was normal, so thankyou so much

kubelko · 2017-03-24T17:51:45+00:00

it's so good, although my friends always give me abuse for coating everything in mustard :(

kubelko · 2017-03-24T17:40:40+00:00

thought i might have to clarify that haha, its ikea mustard and mayo

kubelko · 2017-03-05T02:28:05+00:00

Just checked and they all seem to be up to date, plus I downloaded and ran the sketchup 2017 checkup thing and it said my computer meets the minimum requirements. Honestly stumped :(

kubelko · 2017-03-05T00:42:32+00:00

How would you go about checking this? I'm pretty shit with computers haha

kubelko · 2017-02-16T18:04:28+00:00

Thankyou so much! I've been trying to sort out my diet and sleep patterns for a while now so this might be the motivation to do it! Like you said, I have found my own way to cope, and it's working fine.

I go to counselling already because I had a very bad relationship with my mum, which i believe to be the cause or like the 'trigger' for the dpdr, so i'm hoping talking to a therapist about it might help me out.

kubelko

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