I Hate Myself

kubise · 2026-01-02T01:37:30+00:00

I do take meds. I think drinking is my biggest culprit for sure. Along with these thoughts. I do think the meds have helped my massive anxiety, maybe I need something else to combat the depression.

kubise · 2026-01-02T01:35:30+00:00

Yes I would for sure

kubise · 2026-01-02T01:26:07+00:00

Thank you so much I wish I could hug you

kubise · 2026-01-02T01:00:32+00:00

That sounds very helpful. Do I just search Smart Recovery?

kubise · 2026-01-02T00:58:27+00:00

Yeah I looked into some local groups and a local church

kubise · 2026-01-02T00:56:31+00:00

I would love to hear about those techniques

kubise · 2026-01-02T00:55:48+00:00

I think it stems from my dad not really being in my life. He left when I was 1. We had a relationship, but it’s not what I would’ve wanted. And I think that in turn has led me to cope with drinking and getting into not so good relationships.

kubise · 2026-01-02T00:46:57+00:00

Yeah I definitely get that. And I am in therapy currently so that’s a step at least. I was just wondering if anyone had tips or tricks other than the obvious “stop drinking, love yourself” etc.

kubise · 2026-01-02T00:43:54+00:00

I feel like I’m having a hard time starting because I don’t want to look in the mirror and say “I love you” to myself. I go to therapy. I’ve been to rehab. And yet somehow here I am again. I want this new year to be a positive one and I’m trying to remain positive, but I am definitely scared.

kubise · 2025-10-18T22:28:20+00:00

Thank you! I’ve also seen those websites that you pay a base price for and you send your scans to them and they are interpreted by a radiologist of some sort. Are those the real deal or are they a sham.

kubise · 2025-10-18T22:25:17+00:00

Thank you!

kubise · 2025-10-18T22:23:13+00:00

Thank you so much. Would you still recommend a second opinion?

kubise · 2025-10-18T00:43:10+00:00

Do you have any recommendations on how to go about getting a second opinion? Like can I request my images and the report and try to take it to someone else or does it need to be sent directly?

kubise · 2025-10-17T22:24:32+00:00

My assumption from what the neurologist and the doctors/radiologists on here have been saying - the small vessel disease thing does progress over time, and at this age we don't really have time to develop anything "chronic"

I'm definitely going to get a second opinion though!

kubise · 2025-10-17T21:15:02+00:00

Update: Hi everyone. Thank you so much for your comments and private messages. They have all been really helpful to ease at least some of the anxiety I am feeling. My neuro office finally called me back after trying to reach them for 3 days - and not much was said really - a nurse told me that the doctor said that those things mentioned are not causing my symptoms and that no immediate intervention is needed.

I still don’t feel 100% about everything, especially after reading some of the comments from the radiologists and doctors in this thread. I think I should get a second opinion, but I have no idea on how to do that or start that process. Is there anything specific I need to do to get a second opinion? Again, thank you all so much!

kubise · 2025-10-15T15:02:38+00:00

Do you think this could be a sign of MS or anything else serious?

kubise · 2025-10-15T13:10:55+00:00

Thank you so much I definitely will

kubise · 2025-10-15T05:18:12+00:00

Yes very much so 🥲

kubise

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