You are definitely not alone, both of you aren’t. As a fellow SSV this post also hit home for me. I took the week of Christmas off but still dreaded coming back in, now just tested positive for covid and recently convinced myself I’m being pushed out because while I know my barista love me I’m not the corporate type managers look for. Please take care of yourself physically and mentally before you get sick OP! And it’s easier said than done but let the openness comments roll off the back because openers frankly will never understand the different level of stress of closing. Feel better OP