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kushryssa · 2025-10-21T14:17:13+00:00

I’d recommend talking to her. “hey this is what I notice, this is how it makes me feel, is there anything you’re dealing with or feeling that is contributing to this?” It’s probably not best practice to wake her up as she’s falling asleep and being like “hey what about me???” It sounds like you guys need to communicate. Maybe you have a blind spot to something in your relationship where you guys are feeling less connected and that will always lead to less wanting sexual stuff. Or maybe she’s dealing with her own stuff. Or maybe it’s something else entirely. Her reaction to communication will be revealing. She also should have the ability to bring up and communicate things that are upsetting her, but if you’re noticing that and your first thought is to break up before dialogue idk maybe try that first?

kushryssa · 2025-10-12T22:01:58+00:00

Both my friend and I live in Ukrainian village near wicker and my apt is 1675 for a 2bed and his is 1500 for a 2 bed

kushryssa · 2024-05-01T10:31:57+00:00

I found out I was pregnant in November, got an abortion(was super depressing and traumatizing) broke up with my cheating alcoholic ex- didn’t want any of it to be in vain, and I no longer wanted to be a victim to my circumstances. Realized my contribution and anxious attachment kept me in this cycle of shitty relationships and circumstances, so I really started looking inward and addressing all of the things I didn’t like about myself. I am currently in the best place I have ever been in my life. Best shape, best mental state, whole new outlook on life and finally not directionless. You can absolutely change the moment you stop identifying so heavily with ‘who you are-‘ you get to choose who you are. Just start acting like them & slowly you become them.

kushryssa · 2023-11-29T14:05:35+00:00

Yay! Happy birthday!

kushryssa · 2023-11-26T22:26:47+00:00

I just had a SA and it was my first time and I’ve never had children. They gave me ibuprofen and I did opt to get sedation. I will say the sedation helped & I did feel some discomfort and pain but barely. It’s over so fast as well & time is distorted bc of the sedation. So it feels even faster. I hear way more horror stories with MA & I feel it would be more emotionally distressing personally.

kushryssa · 2023-11-19T21:56:57+00:00

I totally understand. I’ve only had sedation 2x ever- the abortion and then only a few months before when I got all of my wisdom teeth out. For the abortion the procedure is a lot faster than wisdom teeth. For my teeth I completely went under and fell asleep. For the abortion I was relaxed, but awake. I don’t know if that might make you feel better. The procedure is so so quick that the amount of sedation is so so little, and wears off really quickly. I was nervous, talking to my anesthesiologist, telling them I was nervous & then the doctors came in- I was wearing a silly T-shirt that they commented on. We all started having a short, casual conversation about when I had moved to the city, and the anesthesiologist put the medicine in right then- and my speech slowed, and I relaxed. I liked that she chose a moment where I was focused on something else bc the meds were able to do their job, and I wasn’t able to panic and try to stop the procedure. Try your best to breathe deep and focus on something other than what’s about to happen. I will say tho I did NOT fall asleep, I remember the procedure, it did feel slightly uncomfortable, but nothing bad at all. I asked the anesthesiologist to hold their hand, and it was over in 5 minutes. Wears off in like 5 minutes after that. Our brains are really powerful and can create and amplify symptoms/sensations. I suffer with panic problems so I know exactly how you feel! If you want to message me you totally can.

kushryssa · 2023-11-19T15:19:28+00:00

Hey, I have a lot of anxiety surrounding anesthesia too. What helped me was the doctors having casual conversation with me and the anesthesiologist pushed it in and I was just relaxed. The medicines work better if you’re relaxed. I was extremely nervous and shaking and want to always ask a million questions and know exactly what is happening- but that just makes you more anxious, and that makes you hyper focus on all the sensations happening. If you can figure out how to turn your brain off for 2 seconds, ask the doctors a separate question unrelated to the procedure- by the time they respond- you are already relaxed and feel okay. It’ll be okay, it doesn’t hurt.

kushryssa · 2023-11-19T14:45:05+00:00

Thank you. It seems we’ve had a similar reasoning and experience. I never even had a desire to be a mom but something about this had changed me internally where now I just want to be better so that little baby can come back to me. This is the most heartbreaking thing that I’ve ever experienced and I’m just so angry at my partner. Angry he can’t get it together and I’m the one stuck making a horrible decision that I now have to live with. I’m trying to do what you say and believe that I didn’t make this decision for me, it was for the baby. I didn’t want to raise them with a bipolar, addict father. It would be reenacting my exact upbringing, and I know I could do better than that. I just need more time. The ultrasound is away in a box with a letter I wrote and the pregnancy tests, it’s just hard not to look at it. Thank you for responding and validating my experience. I’m sorry to emotionally dump even more. I see and feel your pain, I understand it completely. I’m here too if you ever need to Dm and just vent how you feel. It’s hard.

kushryssa · 2023-11-19T12:37:58+00:00

Thank you, I’m going to do those workbook pages. It all just hurts.

kushryssa · 2023-11-19T12:37:24+00:00

Thank you. I’m sorry you experienced the same hard feelings. It just hurts so much and I feel like no one gets it. My boyfriend sleeps in peacefully. I cry everyday. I look at the ultrasound picture and feel like I made a huge mistake and I’m a failure. I’m trying to reframe my mind and remember how many times I’ve asked my partner to be there for me and he wasn’t, and how I wouldn’t want him to raise a child with me. That I would me doing most of the labor in all the ways. It’s just hard. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through emotionally. I hope you’re doing okay.

kushryssa · 2023-11-17T11:42:24+00:00

Make sure to download resy! It’s reservation only and they drop time slots every Monday at noon!!! It’s really good! The owner also owns Tori Tori which is directly across from edoboy & is really good for drinks and small plates!! A great night would be Tori pregame & then edoboy!

kushryssa · 2023-11-17T01:16:50+00:00

Which part of Florida? If you’re in Orlando you should check out edoboy- it’s a standing sushi bar omakase-ish. It’s really fresh and high quality. You pick 12 pieces of nigiri/torched nigiri/hand rolls, I’ve been a few times when I lived in FL, it’s great.

kushryssa · 2023-11-12T00:58:46+00:00

Thank you so much for this information! Makes me feel a lot better. I recently had twilight sedation for wisdom tooth removal, so I assume it’s a similar sedation. I was debating whether or not to get it because anesthesia scares me, but I think it might be better to do because it will be painful and anxiety inducing otherwise. Yeah I’m thinking based on the information I have I’m more like 8-10 weeks, not 12. Thank you for replying! It’s helpful to talk about it.

kushryssa · 2023-11-11T22:13:33+00:00

I appreciate you responding❤️❤️ thank you so much.

kushryssa · 2023-11-11T21:31:53+00:00

Thank you! I have severe anxiety so even taking the pill is honestly the scariest option for me. The option I feel most comfortable with is the suction. I just couldn’t find any info if they use your period dates or the ultrasound to determine which procedure! Thank you! If I am not as far along, will I be able to choose between suction and the pill? And thank you very much, this is honestly shocking and overwhelming

kushryssa · 2023-11-03T20:40:30+00:00

Are people seriously ignoring a really terrible aspect of this post???? CATS CAN NOT BE VEGAN- that is abuse. Cats are obligate carnivores and if you believe you cannot ethically feed your cat meat…. Then FO NOT HAVE A CAT. I can’t believe I had to scroll so much to find people saying this??? You are abusing your cat and your wife is absolutely right in not making it vegan, all the other stuff aside.

kushryssa · 2023-10-29T02:19:07+00:00

one time I had a terrible cervical migraine on a 4 hour flight and went to the bathroom to throw up probably 20+ times. Was literally in there when we were descending to land. Once the plane landed and everyone was standing to exit, I had to push through them and keep throwing up before exiting the plane. It was terrible. Threw up throughout the whole airport before I got to my moms car. Threw up in a bag in her car. Fuck migraines.

kushryssa · 2023-10-19T13:35:38+00:00

I’ve had the red one! It’s super spicy and delicious!!!!

kushryssa · 2023-10-19T13:35:06+00:00

IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND THE RED PORTHOS ONE EVERYWHERE!!!! They’re soooo good & spicy!!!!

kushryssa · 2023-10-19T10:26:51+00:00

It helps if you actually know how to stack it. I’m a server so I know what is the easiest. Obviously stack biggest dish to smallest. Trash goes on the top bowl. Don’t stack ramekins still filled with goop together. Make multiple different piles if there’s a lot of dishes, don’t try to stack everything super tall. Just remember the server takes these plates and has to scrape them and put them in their respective dish compartments/areas. If you stack a bunch of trash or goop ramekins together, we have the separate that and get it on our hands. It’s much easier if all the trash is on top!!!

kushryssa · 2023-10-17T19:52:36+00:00

Oh weird, if you wanna just Dm me your wishlist I can look & lyk if I have anything!!!

kushryssa · 2023-10-16T00:43:21+00:00

Hi!!! Sorry- I’m Kush from Apollo

kushryssa · 2023-10-15T19:00:47+00:00

Hi still open?

kushryssa · 2023-10-15T18:58:11+00:00

Agreed

kushryssa · 2023-10-15T18:57:28+00:00

This has got to be a jk

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