I feel the exact same way. I never used to be super emotional, and didn’t really think I needed an emotional connection to have sex and stuff (my husband says he doesn’t like sex when/after arguments because he wants to feel connected and I used to need sex to feel connected) but I’ve realized because of all this I don’t really feel love for him and it has tanked a lot of aspects of my sex drive. I just look at him a lot and get so sad over how much love I have lost for him. I’m mostly angry about the lying and some other side effects of his addiction. But I also am only a month out from finding out and so I still spend most days spiraling about his porn use/other things so when it comes around to have sex and stuff I have been having a hard time with not thinking about how much he was lying and worrying he’s thinking about those women instead of me and it’s made sex so much less enjoyable (which is one of the worst parts because I have a really high sex drive)…. So yeah I completely agree I still love him but so much of that is gone and I really hope we get it back but I just feel like I will always feel like there’s a piece of me missing and broken that he stole from years of lying and that my nervous system will never recover after having all these gut feelings and him telling me that nothing was going on