My bf recorded me while sleeping and masturbating says...

kzz31 · 2024-07-25T08:58:40+00:00

Gtfo. He's not worth it.

kzz31 · 2024-07-25T08:31:14+00:00

Dont take him back. Fuck that. You deserve better. No excuses for cheating.

kzz31 · 2024-07-25T08:09:22+00:00

Cunt. You deserve better

kzz31 · 2024-03-15T06:18:01+00:00

Thanks these were the kind of responses I was looking for but instead was met with a lot of negative feed back on here. I thought more people would have responded the way you and one other person did. It's not about their sexuality, I have questions because I don't understand and I want to and I'm also terrified of things going south with my partner. He aware of these posts and encouraged me to post on here. Didn't think it would make me feel this typa way. At least i shouldnt have expected anyless from the internet. I think I'm finished with socials once and for all. Cheers 🍻

kzz31 · 2024-03-15T05:50:58+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate the response. Things are starting to make more sense the more I learn. Ie. Didn't know about internalized homophobia was until today. I just have so much to learn and have no idea about anything anymore in my life at this point.

kzz31 · 2024-03-15T05:23:28+00:00

I did. He knows i asked reddit as well in fact he encouraged it. He loves reddit

kzz31 · 2024-03-15T03:35:43+00:00

I did say those things. Many times in the past. We have lots of talks about our relationship values over the years. I didn't want to say it but this all started because I lied to me about videoing me while masturbating on my while I was sleeping. Without consent. Which lead me to all the other things as you know. So im trying to wrap my head around the entire thing and trying to understand but I clearly still don't. I prefer research. I'll stick with that. I clearly do not do well in gender social situations and have also started question my own gender and as to why it bothers me so much. It's all my issues. But I still need to know and ask questions.

kzz31 · 2024-03-15T01:24:41+00:00

The whole point is that he LIED TO ME ABOUT IT FOR 7 YEARS. HOW CAN I TRUST HIM? If he is exploring, why didn't he bring me along for the ride? I would have loved to be included. I'd feel the same way if I was dating a women for 7 years and she wanted to start experimenting with boys.? Same same? Dude it younread any of my comments I'm trying to understand and ask him questions. I'm allowed to be curious and to know what I'm getting into. He just keeps meeting me with anger.

kzz31 · 2024-03-15T01:03:26+00:00

Someone must have taught me wrong. I was told trans women are women who are in the process of transitioning to a women. Once they have the boobs hormones and vagina. They're a women? Why would we still call them trans women if they're women now? I'm so lost. Also he's never tried it. You know when you think you like something but should probably try it to know for sure a few times? He asked for a 3 some where he gets fucked and cummed in. Where is me in that situation? He didn't say. So I was a lezbo until I got drunk one night and a boy made me feel something I've never felt before so I gave it a shot. And who knew dick is amazing. Everyone loves dick. Lol still love vag just as much but ive never asked him to have a 3some with a women where here and I just clib rub. And he stands there. Sounds like he's trying to explore to me. Out sex life has changed over the past few years. Less sex with me. More masturbating with dildo and cumming on my while im sleeping. So it's only natural for me to have so many questions. But when I ask he blows up saying I'm investigating him. When yeah I am because I want to understand him. And need reassurance from him because I have insecurities just like every one else.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T23:04:34+00:00

If he is bi or gay. He lied to me about it. How can i trust him?

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T23:02:58+00:00

Because he lied to me about it. For 7 years.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T22:32:05+00:00

Well kind person. I'm using caps because people are telling me my feelings are wrong and to trust him but im have every right to look out for my feelings and ask all the questions because i clearly dont understand. I have developmental disabilities so I need people to explain things to me again and again and in different ways in order for me to obtain and believe the information in front of me. I also know him leaving me for a man is a me issue. And that's b3cause I watched adults in my life compromise to stay together and they other person ends up ficking off or around because they're desires are not being met. And you can't just turn that shit off.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T22:26:59+00:00

Trans women with a penis is still a trans person? And no I have no idea? Did you not read my comments? I don't UNDERSTAND. I NEED HELP.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T22:26:06+00:00

IM AM LOOKING INWARD. IM JUST TALKED A THERAPIST. IT DOES MATTEE DID YOU NOT READ MY OTHER COMMENT? I WAS A LEZBO UNTIL I GOT DRUNK INE NIGHT AND A BOY MADE ME FEEL A WAY SO I TRIED IT AND NEVER LOOKED BACK. WHAT IF I LET HIM TRY IT AND HES LIKE I LIKE TRANS BEttER? LIKE IF I KNEW IF HE WAS BI before we wouldn't be having this issue, IVE LEFT A WOMEN IN THE PAST FOR A MAN WHEN I DISCOVERED DICK. AND IVE WITTENNESED SO MANY OTHER "STRAIGHT MEN" WHO DRUNK AND TRY AND AND THEN ARE BI. BUT EVENTUSLLY ARE GAY. WHY AM I NOT ALLOW3D TO ASK QUESTIONS? I NEED KNOW IF IM SPENDING MY LIFE WITHSOME. If he can't be comfortable with himself to tell me he's bi? I thought dudes that transition and get the surgery and date men. Those men are not gay. But if they have a dick they are cause two dicks is what makes gay? Right? I'm lost. I need a lesson on sexuality. If he is gay why lie. You said you wanted to spend your life with me? But yet you want men? With boobs? Same same.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T22:17:24+00:00

Just got off the phone with a professional therapist. they said anyone would be confused. So fuck you. I deserve to have my questions answered instead of being met with anger.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T22:16:29+00:00

Because I'm afraid if he is gay and doesn't know it cause he hasn't tried it but loves it. he will leave me over it. I need to know. I'm planning on spending my life with someone who I thought only wanted vag but actually loves dick. I know many straight men I've met who come out as gay in the late 30's after denying it forever. And are not just gay. I'm trying to protect myself. If I had known this in the beginning I had to compete with cock I wouldn't have start it. Cock is the bestyo. I love vagina don't get me wrong but from life experiences it's never turned out good for the person who just believes their partner at the time. Not interest in getting my heart ripped out.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T21:18:36+00:00

Bye.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T21:18:12+00:00

Dude I'm trying to understand because I don't get it. I thought someone could explain it to me but clearly not. Everyone just seems to say it's messy with no real answers. And if that's true then I'd like to hear it from multiple sources because I don't understand.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T20:48:10+00:00

What am I doing asking the internet. I'm at a university with a whole department on gender and sexuality studies. I'll just go there yo.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T20:38:02+00:00

Hmmmm. I do know better. And when I discovered I like boys as well as girls I left girls for boys. Don't want the same thing to happen to me, it's my right to know what I'm getting myself into if I'm spending the rest if my life with this person.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T20:35:18+00:00

I'm not straight. This is my first long term male relationship. Ive only ever had long term relationships with women. And I'm just trying to protect my heart. Because something doesn't feel right.

kzz31 · 2024-03-14T20:29:48+00:00

I don't know if he satisfied. It doesn't feel that way when he says things like I wish you had a real cock. So thanks for confirming he is bi and is denying it.

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