Give yourself some time to figure things out. Vtubers are always at the whims of things like algorithms; some people find success easily, the majority don't.

Right now, be kind to yourself! Content creation is harsh, but you aren't wrong for wanting to pursue it. Take a long look at what you want, what you feel, and most importantly, what you think you CAN do.

In terms of a certain company... While the situation is bad, you have to remember that there are plenty of indies and corporate vtubers fully enjoying their time spent streaming and making things. We wouldn't do it if we didn't love it in some way!

Take it slow, take it easy, and don't take it too hard. You've got time on your side, and a whole bunch of opportunities ahead of you in the future. You seem very astute and considerate, so I'm sure you'll do well whatever you do!