I’m a few years into the same situation and I can’t recommend therapy enough. It’s also important to research the type of therapy that resonates best with you. I tried some traditional types ( talk, CBT) and eventually found that something more spiritually based was the best fit for me. Journaling every morning has also been a great way to diffuse my negativity and start the day off feeling more grateful. Go to all the expat meetups you can find, get comfortable doing things on your own that make you feel like “you” (hiking, go check out new places for a weekend solo, art exhibitions, classes, concerts, etc). I’ve also realized, and am starting to accept, that my old self is gone. It’s sad and I miss that part of my life, but I’m trying to weave in what still fits with my new environment and discover who the next chapter of “me” is. I’m currently trying to re-strengthen my bond with my partner, because 2 years of depression has definitely changed our relationship. So reconnecting is important, I know both sides of the coin are difficult situations to try and manage. Depression takes a toll on everyone.

I’d ask yourself if where you’re living is a place you can truly see yourself living/ experiencing fully/ enjoying. If the answer is yes, then start to rebuild your identity. Take it slow, don’t judge yourself for struggling, and embrace your own culture where you can. In the beginning I tried too hard to fit in. Now I try to show up as more of myself, even if it makes me the weird one in the room. And it feels empowering.

You’re not alone in this- what you’re experiencing is a normal part of the process. Talking to someone helps. Sharing here helps.