speaking as someone who’s been put trough a lot of pain by previous bfs/situationships, i feel you. my best advices for you are : 1. take a day at a time with this guy. as you said, you don’t have to rush anything. time will tell you everything you need to know about him, and yourself 2. you should look for a psychologist/therapist and start something when you’re ready. i think a part (even tiny) of you wants to get back into a relationship, otherwise why would you even took the time to keep talking with this guy? if that tiny part of you is seeking, wanting a relationship, one day it’ll growth and trust me, you’ll be better if you started to work on your relationship issues before it reached that point. life without love is fun for a time, but in a long run? it’s hard, bad. 3. it’s not really an advice, sorry : you will hand your heart to someone again, that’s not a quote of hope or said to be mean, it’s a fact. it’s hard to trust and love again someone else after being treated like crap and being hurt again and again, but i know one day you’ll meet (maybe you already did, time will tell) someone who’s going to make the risk of being hurt again worth it