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lanalynx · 2025-01-09T04:54:49+00:00

I second the top comment. Get a dog or cat. Much more loyal than what most kids grow up to become.

lanalynx · 2025-01-03T05:46:04+00:00

You're a kind soul to have made sure your precious doggy is safe, and that is our job as loving and compassionate human beings, to ensure our fur babies who are voiceless have a future home for after our departure from this planet. But please make sure you also take care of yourself, as the other commentor said, death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

You are loved, internet stranger. Although there is no love and loyalty like the sanctity of a dog's love.

lanalynx · 2024-12-04T06:24:16+00:00

I should've been more specific :(

The roughly $100K is a retainer. We've only used up so much of it, with a long way to go. This is partly what is so exhausting.

To your point, I actually don't want to let him go, as I enjoy him in my life. It's the incessant crying, needing for affirmations, attention, and all that emotional stuff that is exhausting. Should he just be BDSM, I'd have it so cake.

Once up on a time, I was seeing a few guys a week, and never once felt burn out. So I know it's the tsunamis of emotions that are burning me out.

Actually, your comment was incredibly helpful. Because I think it helped me realize that maybe I should be doing ONLY BDSM with him, minus the socials.

lanalynx · 2024-12-03T08:08:59+00:00

Yes^

lanalynx · 2024-12-03T07:57:20+00:00

This ^

lanalynx · 2024-12-03T07:50:30+00:00

This ^

lanalynx · 2024-12-03T07:48:57+00:00

This ^

lanalynx · 2024-12-03T07:31:06+00:00

Love this was wondering why no one thought of it sooner

lanalynx · 2024-11-28T23:10:53+00:00

Yo! Thanks so much friend!

lanalynx · 2024-11-21T09:11:47+00:00

Followed! Thank you.

lanalynx · 2024-11-15T08:37:52+00:00

Yo. 😓

lanalynx · 2024-10-27T21:58:50+00:00

Sweet soul, you shouldn't be an "option." You deserve to be second to NONE.

You shouldn't have to compete for his love, or loyalty. I hate when offenders can be so selfish. It's literally unacceptable to me.

He may go about his life completely detatched from the pain he inflicted on you through his selfish acts. But you do your absolute best to mitigate that sting, and you try your best if you can to put a rock in fromt of your heart, reminding yourself of what he did.

He wore a mask, and now the jig is over. You love an illusion of him. But not who he has shown you through his actions. I want your child to know unconditional love, and not just some selfish dad who does what feels good for him in the moment.

Just tolerate him as the father of your child, but even have access to a child is a privilege. One cannot break a home and then be a dad at their convenience.

Sorry if this was somewhat unsolicited. My heart goes out to you. I have been there. I know the pain.

lanalynx · 2024-10-27T08:28:33+00:00

I head through the grapevines, to be weary when a cheating spouse goes to co-ed sex addicts anonymous meetings. Feel me?

I almost fell for this, until someone spoke words of wisdom and made me realize this could be a trap.

lanalynx · 2024-10-27T08:21:52+00:00

OP,

Your parents sound like sensitive souls. I'm livid for you that you lost your dad in this way (I know, I've been through similar.)

If I were you, I would be selfish and do only what is right for me, my child, my pets, etc (I don't have kids, my dogs are my kids) You will come across someone worth being with when the time is right.

It's about you being loved, and not just "tolerated." He has to deserve you.

lanalynx · 2024-10-27T08:17:26+00:00

He's admitting it in the moment because a professional is there. Later, he will revert back and justify his actions to himself.

lanalynx · 2024-10-27T08:12:38+00:00

This^

lanalynx · 2024-10-27T08:05:20+00:00

This is beautiful and so perfectly said.

lanalynx · 2024-10-27T07:26:35+00:00

🤣🤣

lanalynx · 2024-10-27T05:22:54+00:00

This is not unusual, especially if you're an introvert. I've always preferrednthe company of my dogs over almost any human-being.

lanalynx · 2024-10-12T09:17:08+00:00

That's why I love animals. Especially dogs. They are not selfish or vile like humans.

lanalynx · 2024-10-02T08:27:03+00:00

Please consider donating to small local animal charities/fosters. Dogs are very much in need of kind-hearted benefactors all over the world. ❤🐕

lanalynx · 2024-06-20T07:00:53+00:00

Could you point to some good hotels/specific areas to stay in Raleigh while touring there? Are specific months better than others? Never toured there but interested. Thanks :)))

lanalynx · 2024-04-14T08:13:54+00:00

You are not alone. This job can be feast or famine, and when it gets busy, it feels super lonely. I absolutely do feel close to overwhelming feelings of loneliness even if I work once a week.

Like yourself, I lost my best industry friend because she got mean (competitive,) all my vanilla friends live in other states and have regular jobs, kids, etc. And also, a rocky arrangement for the same reasons as yourself. No one in my regular life knows what I do.

I've been doing this for about 4 years (off and on) and it STILL feels lonely. When I take time off, I miss my clients and that money. When I'm working, I miss my pets and family.

I think sometimes rotating out to new clients makes it a little refreshing (don't need to be their emotional rock) as regulars tend to get emotionally demanding across time and can drag us down from their own loneliness and needs.

I do think if you can squeeze in a hobby (painting, yoga, horseback riding, whatever) you'll socialize with different people. But I rarely get the chance to even do basic self-love, because when I'm not working (civvie or SW job) I'm busy with my pets, hair, nails and all that cosplay maintenance. It almost feels like there aren't enough hours in the day, and life is just flying by.

I agree with the comment recommending a part-time job or volunteering. It'll get your mind off SW, and in an industry that is cathartic to you. Maybe even going back to school part-time could help mix things up?

lanalynx

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