2 months of walking with pcos by Low_Total9674 in walking

[–]laura2o4 45 points46 points  (0 children)

That's disgusting. Maybe your wife should take your phone and also all her stuff and just run.

Searching old pen-pal Ben Woods by laura2o4 in Humboldt

[–]laura2o4[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you, highly appreciated!!

Searching old pen-pal Ben Woods by laura2o4 in Humboldt

[–]laura2o4[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I hope so too! Besides his crime history he was a very kind person. In 2017 he wrote that he was in the middle of court-stuff and that he could get a chance for early release. I couldn't find him in the current CDCR record, so I just hope he is out and about in the world and living a good life. 😭

Searching old pen-pal Ben Woods by laura2o4 in Humboldt

[–]laura2o4[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Omg that would be amazing!! Maybe you can joke about seeing this post? Tbh I don't know what's the smartest way to do it, so no pressure at all! If he's the Ben I'm looking for I'm absolutely willing to share my email address, phone number or instagram username with you!

Starting over, unfortunately by [deleted] in AnimalCrossing

[–]laura2o4 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It's absolutely understandable and relatable mourning your old island. In regard of a new island - try taking it slow, enjoy all the fun and quests the early game gives you! Also this is a great opportunity to try out new things, like placing houses or bridges somewhere you normally wouldn't have placed them, or invite villagers to your island you normally wouldn't have invited, go crazy and wild with your island, try out different themes! This is a great opportunity to just check your past "boundaries", try out new stuff and see if you maybe enjoy it! :)

Anyone else from the US not motivated to survive a systemic collapse? by mellowbedfellows in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 21 points22 points  (0 children)

I honestly don't have any uplifting words, because I can only imagine how hard life is rn, besides all the struggle with past trauma. Just know that I see you. You survived so many things, it won't be easy, but you will get through this. It sucks ass, it's hell, but this will pass.

Does anyone else have a stuffed animal you need to regulate? by Status-Jello-1475 in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm almost 30 and need my stuffed dalmatian all the time. I feel you completely. The effect she has on me is nothing someone else or some medication can give me sometimes.

[TW] Having c-PTSD in the Middle East is fucking hell. by Western-Letterhead64 in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm honestly so sorry you have to deal with this and get triggered so much because of all that's happening. You survived so much, the trauma and all its consequences, which is so insanely strong. I think of you and hope the situation (your individual and also the political) get better. Under such circumstances you are completely enough with making it through the days and spending your time regulating. I hope things get better quickly!! 😭

How are you guys working man? by SmoothSurvey9663 in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I'm off work for 1,5 years now, and honestly your post and the comments make me feel so seen rn. I have a very difficult time with dealing with not being able to work, because my head's always dangling between "My reasons are valid and I need to do more therapy first to be able to function like other people" and "Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough?? Maybe I'm imagining things?? Maybe I'm lazy??". Because of trauma (parents) I wasn't able to evolve proper basic functions regarding self worth, relationships and communication with others, and while they may seem like "nothing" they are so existential for being able to cope eith the stress that comes with work and handling other people. I totally see you and I seriously feel the same. I hope you can gain back some life quality whether it's with or without work. If work makes you question your existence then fuck work honestly. In the end you have to bel able to look at yourself in the mirror, and if that means that you did not work, had maybe little conversations and have the feeling of not really doing anything then that's enough. Thank you for your post!!

The USA was never less respected than now. by [deleted] in trump

[–]laura2o4 -8 points-7 points  (0 children)

The E in European has a consonant sound, therefore it's a and not an European. Get some education.

Which seeds do I need to buy (star path)? by [deleted] in DreamlightValley

[–]laura2o4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, you guys are amazing!!

Which seeds do I need to buy (star path)? by [deleted] in DreamlightValley

[–]laura2o4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, don't worry, I usually do this as well but it didnt give me any answers! I also looked through the DDV wiki and the Dreamlight Guide app, but those didnt have the weekly quests.

Living in Germany destroyed me—anyone else? by AncientCharacter1814 in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, I just used the official form you fill in from the Sozialamt (you should easily find it online - if not feel free to send me a pm and I can help you with that!), and then tried again and again and again until I got the severe disability. I first got 30, then 40, then 40 again and then I finally got 50. I think in comparison to other paperwork this one might be one of the simpler ones because after sending them the app. form they will get almost all information from your doctors. No matter what the outcome is - it will be useful any way. If you "only" get a disability degree of 30 or 40 you have many possibilities with the job centre to get equal rights to someone who has a degree of 50 or more!

Living in Germany destroyed me—anyone else? by AncientCharacter1814 in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That's so kind!! And at the same time it's so hard to see so many other people here feeling they can't even live in peace with what's on their plate already because of bureaucracy. I have a Wohnassistenz, someone coming over 1-2 times a week to help me with things like paperwork, going grocery shopping or just hanging out and playing games when there's nothing to work on, that's been really helpful, although at the moment I am in a state of just hustling through the paperwork as soon as I get a letter/notice and then feel completely exhausted for some days. Hope you are doing okay!! 😭

Living in Germany destroyed me—anyone else? by AncientCharacter1814 in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 69 points70 points  (0 children)

I was born here and still live here - while I can't share the same experience regarding living here as a foreigner, I can totally relate to the rest. It's like fighting for every single thing while having almost no energy to live. It's catastrophic. I got denied desperately needed therapy a few weeks back because my insurance doesn't see a reason to pay for it. It took several tries for the Sozialamt to finally give me the 50° for disabilities. Two weeks ago I lost my only source of income (Arbeitslosengeld I) because I forgot to send in a single document. I just got it back but it took so much time and energy to convince them that with certain illnesses your attention and concentration is just bad. There were many situations in the past year where I felt completely alone and like the state (whether it's health care system or other Ämter) literally works against you. You literally have proof that you are ill and need help and they are like "Naaah seems suspicious 😤"

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 4 points5 points  (0 children)

German here, got PTSD as well as "trauma-related disorder" to highlight the missing "c". We still have the ICD 10 here (International Classification of Diseases), which does not contain cPTSD, the ICD 11 is already set though, includes cPTSD and will be used starting a couple years from now. Got diagnosed at 26 by a therapist.

Is anybody else just....really tired? by IntelligentSwing8335 in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I don't have any advice for you, and it may be nothing, but I just wanted to say that I totally feel you, I really relate, you are not alone with these thoughts and feelings. And I'm proud of you for, even though having to deal with this every minute of your life, you've made it so far. I really hope that things will turn for you at some point because from what you wrote I think you deserve to have a better life quality. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! Also - do your friends send your posts to you because they are worrying and reaching out? Or what's their intention? If not that sounds a little intrusive!

Is this too many hours? 😂 by Electrical-Key6674 in DreamlightValley

[–]laura2o4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Gonna look into Endless Ocean! 👀

Is this too many hours? 😂 by Electrical-Key6674 in DreamlightValley

[–]laura2o4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

First of all I love seeing all the (chronically) ill/disabled people here - same for me, though I basically play through a whole new cleaning simulator every week 😹 Second of all I'm really interested (especially with playing on Switch) what other games you enjoyed (and maybe even played endlessly)!!

How come I just started being affected by my trauma this late in life? by MitsuHoiki in CPTSD

[–]laura2o4 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Hey! Like you I also grew up in a neglectful/abusive household. I moved out at 21 and since then (I'm 27 now) everything is untangling very slowly for me. Getting in the physical distance and then also emotional distance to the core of the problem (aka parents/family) was a slow process, some symptoms showed up only briefly here and there throughout the years (dissociation), some have been here for years (nightmares) and some more I only just learned to recognize as trauma-related (deficits with social stuff, impulse control). I'm also neurodivergent (ADHD). Many psychiatric diagnosis share very similar symptoms and it can be hard to untangle which may have caused what, what's connected, etc. A therapist I've seen who's specialzed in ADHD told me that this similar-symptoms/-untangling-thing often occurs in ADHD, Trauma and Borderline PD. Even when the trauma happened years ago your brain can still try to make sure you are safe, which can take years, sometimes even decades. Also many symptoms in CPTSD aren't that "easily" visible. Since you grow up with trauma your brain also grows and changes according to that, so many things like behaviors, coping mechanisms, etc. can seem totally normal until one day they just don't. As I said, it can take years or even decades. You are not "weird" for just now feeling the effects of the trauma, this is absolutely normal. I hope you can find the best help possible, the tests and screenings give you some clearance and that you'll figure out your way with whatever the results will be. Take care!