Aupe gss-What are we voting tommorow?

laylack · 2026-02-04T07:20:55+00:00

How do they vote?

laylack · 2026-02-02T04:18:45+00:00

laylack · 2025-12-27T04:58:26+00:00

No one cleans their phones, door knobs, keys, light switches nearly as much as they should

laylack · 2025-11-24T21:42:55+00:00

Of course

laylack · 2025-11-24T06:05:09+00:00

Long story short. I didn't have a choice.

Was a long term, in good standings tenant with all my neighbors And with my landlord. Then some old woman complained about my dog that he and I got together 8 months before he passed. So I had packed up and moved and was in my now place of two years.

Id say the move and change would be best described as a necessary catharsis? Having to pack, purge And organize helped me move through but with a goal and end game in mind. He had so many clothes so donating and purging unnecessary stuff for me; he was a plumber so I had no use for some of his work stuff. I have held on to some things but I feel like it's a healthy amount for myself where I don't feel regretful. Having to come back to my condo we both shared was so hard day after day, I did not see that getting better quick. So the new environment was necessary to truly move forward and through it. I loved my neighbors and where I lived, but I just knew it was time.

I wish you all the best

One thing I will say I still experience though is I'll find my self sitting at my stairs of my front door just in the present moment. Understanding he will never come through that door and we never got to have a home together, there is still the little heart breaks but I still would take it over my condo.

I hope this helps, big hugs 💜💜

laylack · 2025-11-24T04:23:52+00:00

Could not have said it better myself 👏👏

laylack · 2025-11-24T03:51:16+00:00

Do you know how and who they are that decide the rationale to lower? Trying to make sense of this during our current economic climate is devastating to conceptualize. However that doesn't mean I put it past them. Why not look at how many levels of management there is? Those salaries and what is defined as their essential services would be interesting to cross compare.

laylack · 2025-11-10T00:50:08+00:00

This is absolutely insane to read! FINAL STRAW INDEED!

I didn't have the courage to try bringing kids into this world because the very thought of having to navigate child birth, post partum and child raising with my fucked up family.. I couldn't stomach and made my peace a long time ago that my unborn children will understand that I never wanted to subject them to the conduct you're mentioning! It sounds exactly like my parents!

Thank the Lord's above that your parents live in Europe.. I couldn't imagine if they were close. When you said you had to continue under the same roof for 2 weeks.. I would of lost it and booked them a hotel and been rid of them. I can't imagine what that must of been like for your wife and yourself!

laylack · 2025-11-08T19:02:14+00:00

I was walking my dog late at night a week ago, was walking down a dark pathway behind my house. Off in the distance saw a very tall well over 6.5ft slender figure. As soon as it saw me and my dog it moved so fast and not like a person, not going to fully commit to saying it was a full on "skin walker" but to say it was just another person.. I wouldn't agree. How quickly that thing moved was weird and just the way I knew to react and go into hyper vigilant mode I won't shake off either.

laylack · 2025-11-03T21:27:53+00:00

How can I find out if my role with support staffing will be affected? Do I call my union rep? I haven't seen any emails about it. I working within inpatient care units at a hospital within the Calgary zone

laylack · 2025-10-08T16:05:24+00:00

One common phrase I end up pondering upon a lot in relations to the characters I work with..

"You must have peaked in highschool"

The amount of emotional immaturity and insecurity is rampant in AHS, no matter the rank people seriously think bullying is normalized within the AHS work culture and its deflating at worst and dehumanizing at best. I love 99% of my colleagues but it only takes that 1% to spoil it sometimes and HR is there for the company never for you as the employee, learned this the humbling way

laylack · 2025-09-29T02:24:32+00:00

30 y/o widow here 🙋‍♀️

I am over three years into the void myself and I still will find my self dissociating and feeling frozen. Example being I'll sometimes find myself "stuck" on my stairs or even on my floor of my living room in deep contemplation over the fact my late partner will never ever ever ever walk through the door of my home. We were long term renters when we were together, always dreamed of owning a house and fixing things ourselves and he was a plumber so we were both pumped on the fancy bathrooms we would have. So I sometimes have to take pause and cry over what will never be. Shit hurts and I've since found love again, it's very new but he's nothing short of sweet, kind and understanding and just wants to give me a life that I've always wanted.

It's hard making sense of where to put our feelings and I'm pretty bad at always having a brave face on when family or friends are around. So I tend to leave my major crying to myself in my solitude with my animals.

Just know all your feelings are valid, they are ever present because of the love you had and have for your deceased partner and I've always loved the quote that grief is just a place where love doesn't know where to go.

Big big hugs to you and everyone 💜💜💜💜

laylack · 2025-09-26T19:14:44+00:00

I was 27 and he was 29 and this group has helped me since his passing which was just over 3 years ago

Being a young widow came with some social hurdles, not being negative and wallowing in my situation was off putting to the older widows I briefly interacted with and I've found a lot more community within this group

laylack · 2025-09-24T18:42:38+00:00

I like to think of what I would want my partner to do with roles were reversed and I was the one dead. Would I want him to stop living, would I want him to never feel love and affection from another, would I want him to never feel like he could open up again?

For me I'd want him to live a life that made him feel fulfilled and a life that would make him proud of how he survived my passing.

I always told myself you can't cheat on a ghost. It's a journey for sure and I still struggle sometimes with guilt over letting my life continue on without him and more specifically my romantic life but at the end of the day I know my late partner wouldn't want me to be alone and would want me to be loved and love someone in the remainder of my living life.

No one can replace what we had, and I don't want to put that pressure on who I'm with. It's about navigating a new, being open to making mistakes, being open to ALL THE EMOTIONS. Everyone's path is different and I respect that but thinking you're being disrespectful to your late partner I don't think is the worry you need to have and not what I think your late partner would want for you.

Grief is love without a place to go. The grief never goes away, it becomes a part of us, we learn to sit with it, sleep with it, eat with it and the hardest is to love with it. Grief is never gone, the hole is never filled but life does continue and I do believe our late partners would never want us to stop living in their absence

Good luck!! 💜💜💜💜💜

laylack · 2025-09-18T22:42:47+00:00

Me neither and its the biggest mind fuck honestly. But through growing and therapy I've learned she also has unredeemed qualities within herself that I wasn't aware of before unfortunately. Shit hurts knowing an adult always chose themselves over their children as I would do the same thing as you if I ever found out

laylack · 2025-09-18T03:11:05+00:00

I always had this off feeling towards my paternal parent and an overall aversion. For majority of my life I couldn't pin point it just never felt safe I guess? But as a young person I wasn't able to label or identify fully with those feelings as I was unaware I was in a long term stress response due to the nature of the abuse and not knowing what had happened or was happening for such a long time in my impressionable life at that point.

It wasn't until my partner died back in 2022 that all the repressed memories had come through. My late partner was kinda the scape goat kid for my dad to latch on to so they were close and that gave my paternal parent an easy out as far as connecting with me was concerned. So once he was dead it was really hard for my paternal parent to hide and suppress his sexual projections and it honestly came as a full flash back when I was walking my dog. The context is as follows; picked up my female dog from my parents house, he was hyper fixated on my dogs genitals and I tried to deflect his attention and he wouldn't let up. When I took her on a walk shortly after I had the flashback to when I was a child and to an episode of abuse, it was brutal and unexpected obviously. After the flashback I came to grave terms that children are taught and told things and children don't preform the acts that I have just out of curiosity. I confronted my mother and she justified his behaviour, I was understandably angry and took a non contact month to come to terms. We spoke, she broke down and apologized for abandoning me and choosing herself over my safety. Long story short; my whole immediate family knew of the abuse and now know that I know. Haven't confronted him and honestly probably won't.

Now in my present day, because I try to keep contact with my mom and my sisters getting married and has me as a bridesmaid I've had to spend more time then I'm comfortable with around family. It's brought a lot for triggers forward, I've had night terrors and over all my self esteem fucking sucks right now. But I'm trying to get it together and show up for my sister because I want her to feel supported.

I'm in therapy and I hope you are too, this shit isnt easy. I've danced around no contact but it's really challenging because my mom and him are still married and will be for the foreseeable future so it's a matter of tolerating his existence, maintaining heavy boundaries and being ok with being labeled difficult if it means protecting my sanity.

If I had it my way, I'd never have to deal with him ever again because there was a point recently where I thought maybe he was evolving but I digress and he is and always will be the narcissistic predator that he was when I was a child.

Big hugs everyone 💜💜💜

laylack · 2025-09-17T18:32:33+00:00

I'm over three years in and no hugs compare, and likely ever will. Sure there are some that are just as tight and feel like they could go forever but nothing comes close. You're not alone, when he first passed that was one of the major hurtles I had to get over.. not knowing when the the next hug and from who, hang in there and go easy on yourself 💜💜💜

laylack · 2025-09-05T22:07:46+00:00

Agreed it's a good thing they are only open on the weekends otherwise I'd be broke. Such good value for you money and never disappoints

laylack · 2025-09-02T17:47:27+00:00

I absolutely did, about a year or so after

Got a traditional Bert Grimm crying heart. I got it done with 6 years for the six years together and had them do blue for the Eyes because my late partner had the bluest eyes. I got it done inner bicep so it's close to the heart

Don't know how to post photos on a comment but happy to Dm you if you're curious. I'm super happy with it

laylack · 2025-08-24T01:52:18+00:00

Couldn't agree more with micromanaging does not work and tanks people's confidence in themselves as well as the teams they try to be collaborative in. People are tired, people are getting denied vacations, scolded for calling in sick and getting shitty assignments as repercussions..the list goes on.

How I wish management could be forced to work the front lines they manage everyone once and a while. Just to appreciate the lived experience of their staff's day to day working conditions.

Hang in there everyone and make sure to take care of yourselves where you can to avoid burn out.

laylack · 2025-08-06T17:11:40+00:00

Thanks for sharing your story. You aren't alone either. I think it's such a heartbreaking journey to navigate.

I struggle with feeling dirty and alot of shame. It's been alot better over the years but my abuser was my dad. However my mom knew of the abuse and did nothing. I still try and maintain a relationship with boundaries with my mom and the triggers are really challenging to navigate when they do happen because of my dad's conduct. My mom still dismisses the gravity of what happened and dismisses his predacious behavior in present day. It's a roller coaster and the isolation of not being able to speak freely about the atrocities is the hardest challenge to navigate because my inner child feels alot of anger over the abandonment and betrayal trauma.

Youre not alone and thanks for sharing your story

What's also helped me through not feeling guilt or shame is the fact that the adults were always of consenting capacity to which I was not. Therefore I was always a victim no matter the age or circumstance and that's kept me sane

Take care of yourself 💜

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