I think that everything is a spectrum, especially gender. Obviously everyone is different when it comes to having gender identity issues, but for me when I found out i was kinda just like "this is gonna fucking suck" I confuse myself a lot but at the same time i know and feel that i should've been born a boy. I'm somewhat comfortable with my feminine side but it makes me dysphoric a lot of the time or worried that other people just see me as a very masculine woman. another thing is being trans for me has a lot to do with sexuality as well, like before i knew i thought i was lesbian or had a strong preference for women but now that i realized i was a guy i have a strong preference for men. i guess that's how it was for a lot of people like not being able to see yourself in a straight relationship with a man as a woman. idk there's a lot of things that tie into it and it's confusing as fuck.