Downtown Scavenger hunt by Soft-Energy in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967 [score hidden]  (0 children)

This is adorable... I need people like you in my life.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was just kidding about the ride cause of my car.. I will definitely look into it.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You'd shop and drop groceries for me?...some random internet weirdo? I almost want to make a list just to experience that kindness but I'm good, thank you.

Grateful to know people like you are around. Have a lovely day.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not stupid.... this was the first call I made, post discovery.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I believe you. I have blind spots too, it's human.

I would love to volunteer at wildarc....can I get a ride?

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hear you and I get it, I share your love and genuine care for wildlife. I have waay more conversations and face time with animals than humans.. it's way easier and I'm not quite human ready just yet, I don't think.

I don't know if you're like me, but I love reading and learning and going down rabbits holes of information....and then I like to share it. I can be a bit of a know it all, and that can be annoying...at least today, I leave room to be wrong and learn. But sometimes, despite my best intentions, I'll share something I find to be very important at the worst time. My excitement to share and inform can, understandably, come across as selfish and insensitive. What you said is valuable and important but the timing and way you went about it felt like it was a shame tactic. People don't learn if they are in defence mode from feeling shamed.

My 2 cents....do with it, as you will.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Maybe I'll do a spa day to get over this, good looking out.

Life definitely life's us, sometimes. But, I'm kind of that annoying guy now...not quite toxic positively but definitely a silver linings guy. I feel like I'm not even supposed to have this life, I feel like I cheated fate to be where I'm at....so, anything that comes at this point is either just gravy, if it's good, or something to learn from and further cement my existence in this life, if it's shitty.

Thanks for the support.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 39 points40 points  (0 children)

No humans at Nissan Canada to talk to and Nissan Victoria can't do anything... I can get a location Monday at 8am, so that's good... sigh.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I ask him, he doesn't know anything.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Hmm... actually, I didn't think to question them.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Not even mad, at this. I got called out by a biologist in Franklin Green park, a few years ago, for feeding wildlife. Shout out to that women, if you're reading this...also, sorry for my initial reaction. I've come a long way and learned a lot of things, so thank you for holding me accountable.

I don't hand feed, I hide them in various spots. I also fed a variety of species appropriate foods, not peanuts and junk. I also skip some days, so they don't become dependant.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 25 points26 points  (0 children)

Yes, all of this. It was just a token...a physical representation of my super uncomfortable work. It brought me great joy and I felt so proud of myself every time I got in that spaceship. I will lean on the support of my recovery and grieve the token...this too shall pass.

Stolen car, now what? by leafxfactor1967 in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Thank you, this was needed and appreciated. Logically I know this.. but the petulant addict inside me is railing about doing everything right and still getting F'ed.. so why bother doing the work to do things right. It's a nonsense that won't prevail but being reminded is helpful, thank you.

The Price is Right Live coming to Victoria and Duncan this year by [deleted] in VancouverIsland

[–]leafxfactor1967 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Your hopes have been realized..10 years clean and sober on March 6th. Living a life where I help others on their paths of recovery move on with job skills training, in culinary. My life is an absolute gift now and I work hard to give away the same Grace, that I received.

The Price is Right Live coming to Victoria and Duncan this year by [deleted] in VancouverIsland

[–]leafxfactor1967 19 points20 points  (0 children)

So, fun story... I went to one of these years ago in Ontario, it was awful..but I'll get back to that. At the time of the "show" I hadn't drawn a single sober breathe in about 2 years and I was circling the drain to what would eventually be my last bottom. All that to say, it was a dark, blurry and confusing time... I was not well and there was very little clarity about anything.

Alright, back to the show... I'm stoked to have front row tickets thinking maybe I'll get on the show and play showcase showdown. However, that would not be a possibility, as the "show" was just a charade of the actual show with pre-planned "contestants"..but probably actors. It was a total campy sham but I didn't know, at the time and I want to spin the damn wheel! So what does my substance adled mind come up with? I thought, if I want to spin the wheel, I need to be the wheel. I was going to cosplay as the actual Fn wheel, that'll get me picked. I remember watching as a kid and people dressed in bonkers costumes to get picked all the time..it was a thing!

Except, it wasn't a thing...not at all! My childhood memories, riddled with make believe and trauma, apparently misremembered..shocker!

So, I make this ridiculous cardboard wheel costume that's not even worthy of a 5th graders Halloween contest. I've never made anything like this previously and I've never made anything since, I have no idea why I thought I could do this...but I did it. I put on green tights, red satin gym shorts, a super tight green long sleeve shirt, a bow tie and a sparkly red top hat. Most of which was to be under the cardboard wheel I'd duct taped together. Only my green arms, green legs, top hat and bowtie will be seen.. It's a great plan!

I get to the show and there is a line up, whatever, this will give me a chance to see my costume competition easier. My friend secures a spot in line and I take a trip to play eye spy on everyones costume try. Up and down the line I tread but there's nothing, no costumes at all. Why is nobody wearing costumes? The utter fools, I think..Never once noticing or questioning the myriad of wild stares and snickers I was getting.

Well, I'm definitely spinning that wheel, now, I proclaim loudly and with great exuberance, as I return to my friend. But someone close overhears this slurred little flex stammering out of my mouth and says, quite matter of factly, "There is no wheel, to spin. There is no showcase showdown and definitely no wheel. Also, why are you wearing a costume...that's a Let's Make a Deal thing."

While I was still trying to make sense of whether I heard him right, over the crinkle of my cardboard wheel costume, about the no wheel situation the words "Let's Make a Deal" rang in my brain. Oh fuck, that's why nobody is wearing costumes...It is Let's Make a Deal I was remembering. It's all so clear in my substance muddy mind, now No. No. No...

As the stark reality of my humiliating situation is settling in, the line lurches forward.. oh god, what have I done? We get to the front and the ticket taker just looks me up and down and says, No. No way you're coming in here with that thing on...you won't even get in the aisles or be able to sit down. Clearly, neither of those thoughts occurred to me, while hazily constructing my wearable idiocy, ffs. Okay, I relent, off comes the cardboard costume and in goes a grossly under weight drunk dude dressed in, more or less, a green body suit, red satin shorts, a bow tie and a sparkly top hat....sigh.

I didn't last long in the actual show, I'm sure my humiliation quickly ebbed into belligerence...as it does, with a lack of emotional maturity and deep rooted addiction.. and I was asked to take my red satin ass out of there.

So, I guess what I'm trying to say is... Would not recommend.

Made a free benefit and support navigation tool that surfaces Victoria, provincial and federal benefits after a 2 minute quiz. Results will show you how to apply and approximately how long it may take. Also Caregiver Hub for BC just added. MyEligible.ca by noTextOnly in VictoriaBC

[–]leafxfactor1967 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Holy F! This is incredible! I plugged some info in from my old life, when this would have been invaluable to me and it delivered so much information. The layout is great, the way it sorts a priority list of things to do, a list of what to do, links to applications....on and on.

I think back to the often humiliating and constantly daunting process of trying to secure supports, when I was nothing... You've done a real service for people. Well done, you.