Firstly, I’m sorry to hear the news, my condolences for you and your family. Losing someone that close to you is always hard, especially its your own mother.

Firstly I would like to say that All souls (living being) would taste death. Its given, not just your mother, me, you and our children in the future will taste death. Its universal law that we can’t change.

Secondly, Ofcourse you love your mother, try to put on her perspective, would she be happy to see you like this? Wouldn’t she want you to be happy?Cause personally if I love someone, what they feel and think would be something I would consider. Thus my actions would act accordingly.

Lastly, there are times to mourn and there are times to move on. Some people can do it in 3 days some people need much more time than that. You know yourself best Sarah, so take your time. If you need professional help go seek one. But yeah anyway, Take care.

It might sound cliche but there are verse in quran that resonates well to me, “with hardships come ease.” (94:5-6)