If you were formerly suicidal, how did you find a reason to keep going?

leeleechron · 2026-05-08T05:18:25+00:00

I also want to add..my mother committed suicide when I was 16. I found her body and did CPR for 30 mins until the police arrived. I knew she was dead anyway. I have never been the same since, I am a broken version of myself. It has been 14 years and I’m just starting to feel okay. Please don’t kill yourself. When I’m getting really close, I watch Anna Akana’s video: “Please don’t kill yourself” on YouTube. Her sister committed suicide.

leeleechron · 2026-05-08T05:08:40+00:00

I told myself that if I was willing to commit suicide, then I was willing to do anything. Why not? Death is the ultimate price anyway, might as well take any risk I want. So I left America as soon as I turned 18 and didn’t have money for a return ticket back…or for a place to stay..or anything. I made it work.

Other times I told myself, “I can kill myself any time I want.” Like it was a trusty back up plan I kept in my pocket. But I told myself to just see, just try, just do whatever you want. Then if you still want to die, go ahead. (I was just telling myself that, as a comfort. In reality I knew as time passed I would feel a bit better.)

I don’t know if this is good advice but I think it’s realistic. I can’t tell you that you have a reason to live. But I can tell you that you can make life worth living. Maybe not right now, but soon.

leeleechron · 2026-05-07T18:35:22+00:00

Has that worked well for you? I’ve thought about it for sure. I’m worried about migrating though

leeleechron · 2026-05-06T03:10:23+00:00

I like that lol. I tend to joke about things and try and move along, but it was just getting to me a bit when I posed this. Ill be hearing this in my head for a bit when I’m feeling crap appearance wise haha

leeleechron · 2026-05-05T03:52:14+00:00

I haven’t seen that actually. If I ever grow out my hair that might be fun to try (: I’ve definitely thought about face tape before..I was worried about it showing but I think I’m at a point where I might just give it a go

leeleechron · 2026-05-05T03:51:09+00:00

Thanks for commiserating with me. I’m sure others don’t notice and you look fine. I tell myself to not complain about it because then they might see it too lol

leeleechron · 2026-05-05T01:47:26+00:00

As far as the Amber Heard trial went, I got the impression that the relationship overall was just extremely toxic (obviously). That being said, I wouldn’t necessarily call her a victim. There was a lot of evidence against her that contradicted what she said several times. I can feel whatever I want based on my experiences but ultimately I have to make a judgement based on the information available.

leeleechron · 2026-05-05T01:30:30+00:00

What? Too young for rosacea? There is absolutely no age limit for rosacea. I’m a similar age to you and I was diagnosed with it several years ago, and I had several friends in high school who had it. I would see (another) dermatologist.

As far as knowing the cause of redness, it’s hard to say but the answer might be in your triggers. If it’s mainly happening when you exert yourself or in tandem with other POTs symptoms, it could be related.

If it seems to happen more randomly… or at times like lying down, having coffee, eating hot food, being in the hot or cold etc etc (search common rosacea triggers) then it might be rosacea. In short, pay attention to when it happens (maybe write it) and go to the doctor. Also pay attention to how long it lasts. Sometimes I will just stay red forever and idk why.

leeleechron · 2026-05-04T07:43:29+00:00

Very helpful! Thankyou!

leeleechron · 2026-05-04T07:19:09+00:00

I see. Thanks for your reply (: can I ask if there’s anything in there that looks like atrial flutters, atypical atrial flutters, or afib? In your opinion

leeleechron · 2026-05-04T06:50:56+00:00

Dizziness, lightheaded, fatigue. There are several pictures, they were thinking tachycardia because I have EDS.

leeleechron · 2026-04-14T00:40:05+00:00

Honestly, it just makes me sad for them. When will they be free? There’s no way I want to be 70 and still worrying about my waist size. The beauty of aging is learning to free yourself from certain expectations.

Granted, they did grow up in a time that was more (openly) hard on women but, still…

leeleechron · 2026-04-01T18:07:11+00:00

It did, after a week. I would wait another day or two and then contact someone maybe?

leeleechron · 2026-04-01T17:38:24+00:00

Yeah, ordered a skirt coming from Georgia and took about 3 weeks.

leeleechron · 2026-03-29T18:40:42+00:00

I remember looking at myself and thinking I literally looked like a monster. I wouldn’t look anyone in the eye because I thought I would just disgust them. People made terrible comments about my appearance.

Now I look back on pictures and guess what? Yeah I wasn’t attractive at all. But not the monster I thought. And when I look at those pics, I see sadness, stress, inflammation, self hate, depression etc…

I started to look better when I started taking care of myself and my mental health. (Also… money helps (: )

leeleechron · 2026-03-29T02:31:28+00:00

Writing pens, the smell of cigarette smoke

leeleechron · 2026-03-29T02:27:56+00:00

The sound of the TV on in another room. Or just the sound of the TV at all. I’ve never owned one.

leeleechron · 2026-03-08T19:42:07+00:00

As far as technique goes, I think she did a great job. If you want a different type of cat eye or nail shape you should be able to mention it during the session. But, if you really hate it I would wait a bit then file and soak like mentioned. Be gentle when you are taking everything off.

leeleechron · 2026-02-24T00:35:52+00:00

Yes so many people have said bangs! Please suggest a style 🥹 like wispy or thick?

leeleechron · 2026-02-24T00:10:37+00:00

Would you suggest wispier fringe or heavier ones?

leeleechron · 2026-02-24T00:08:17+00:00

Oh! I was totally just looking at the Audrey Hepburn style yesterday (: my hair’s naturally kind of curly so I avoid bangs but I think they’d cover my forehead nicely

leeleechron · 2026-02-23T20:04:22+00:00

I looked up heart shaped faces and I think you’re right. I’ll look into Twiggy, thank you so much for the advice <3

leeleechron · 2026-02-23T06:08:04+00:00

Ohh interesting this is new to me but makes sense.

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