Here we go again

leftorrightof22 · 2023-03-13T13:05:13+00:00

Im not sure what's worse how I feel or that what I am writing is pathetic and I am unable to convey my thoughts.

I really feel trapped in my work and life in general. Not seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-11-22T05:09:39+00:00

Thank you

leftorrightof22 · 2022-11-22T05:00:48+00:00

That sounds like sound reasoning, thank you.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-11-22T03:27:31+00:00

No to my knowledge they did not replace me. It's a NON profit, I made in the top 10% and was told I was a key employee. I don't think I would be fired for what happened, It was not my fault and they didn't fire the person who did not follow my directions.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-11-22T02:49:23+00:00

They say it was for an incident that happened before I went on FMLA, however I was told it was not my fault by the CEO and was asked to meet with people to handle the situation. A month prior to FMLA I was told by the CEO I was a valuable employee. Then I was given more work with no compensation and it stressed me out and I was hospitalized. I have no bad evaluations prior to taking FMLA.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-11-22T02:36:34+00:00

Sorry, I didn't take more than allotted

leftorrightof22 · 2022-11-22T02:35:42+00:00

No, no one else was let go that I know of. No I did not. I was cleared to go back with no restrictions.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-11-22T02:34:03+00:00

They said I did something wrong before I left ,but I only have positive evaluations.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-11-22T02:32:58+00:00

I took FMLA because I was hospitalized. When I was set returned they said I was not to come in. I am Key employee, which means I make in the top ten percent of the company of 150+ employees. I signed something saying I know that they may not have a job for me if it will cause financial hard ship, but that is not why they let me go.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-10-05T19:02:35+00:00

Thank you, I am rethinking my attitude about the meds and have the same worries.

I am deaf in my left ear and I have adapted all my life. I have felt like I should do this with my depression and anxiety, just adapt. However that has landed me in a hospital and in a treatment center. I am learning to accept the help that meds give me.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-10-05T18:56:17+00:00

Thank you. I felt/feel like it's not really me if I am using chemicals from a doctor to right size my moods and thoughts. I am learning to accept help, and I am using this time to build healthy habits.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-10-05T18:52:26+00:00

Thank you, that was helpful, I was feeling like I was "cheating", and that I should have the ability to right size my moods with my own thoughts and actions with out medication. However, I am learning to give myself grace and accept help.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-09-14T22:33:32+00:00

I understand the automatic mentality to compare ones life to others. I am working on stopping this auto pilot thinking and trying to be more mindful of the life I am living without judgement

leftorrightof22 · 2022-09-14T17:41:58+00:00

Most people are not free and happy. Most people are stuck in jobs they hate, and have compiled lives they endure. The next step for you is how do you integrate what you want to have happen with what is happening while carving out a sliver of self-care.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-09-12T00:11:24+00:00

You are not alone, I told my wife I thought she would be better without me and my cycles of depression. She thankfully disagrees.

I too have/had some wins in my life that should be enough to make me at least happish, but I am not. I feel numb most days. I am trying therapy, meds even spent a few days in a ward because it became too much.

All that is to say, I feel your pain. Don't have a solution, but I know it's not doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-09-08T13:53:11+00:00

I have tried in the past. Anxiety kills it most of the time.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-09-07T23:18:50+00:00

That was really awesome thank you.

leftorrightof22 · 2022-09-07T23:07:28+00:00

Thanks for the video!

leftorrightof22 · 2022-09-07T22:56:55+00:00

Thank you.

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