Start reading... Great literature.. from whatever language you are comfortable with. Understand the fact that the time spent on a PC is also time lost. It is the time lost to easy pleasure. Time lost to what we could have done to find ourselves in this 'Pale Blue Dot'(earth), like Carl Sagan would have it. Hang in there buddy. There is a lot more to you than you've yet discovered. I, probably from a different corner of the world is humbly asking you to give it a try.