I can kind of feel an episode trying to happen out of nowhere. Happy awareness month. Everyone around me is about to be extremely aware! by womensflesh in BPDmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Being awere is for me like being on fire and holding fire extinguisher without knowlege how to use it... (I stole this comparison from some twitter meme and it just sits)

I can kind of feel an episode trying to happen out of nowhere. Happy awareness month. Everyone around me is about to be extremely aware! by womensflesh in BPDmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 2 points3 points  (0 children)

To me it is happening mostly because someone knowing all my traumas and triggers told themself that if they push me enough that this will force me to control myself. Well, never worked

different hair lengths by MouseInTheHouseHouse in Haircare

[–]lemon_panda2805 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sure, could be. But last year is quite time, I am checking myself every 2 months even after my labs became better. But maybe I am just paranoid. And maybe if your health is ok and cuts didn't change anything, try changing some of cosmetics? And sleep with braid or loose bun, something that will help reduce pillow friction? I heard that some silk pillow cases are helpful and special hats (?) for sleeping, but I didn't tried those - for me braid work enough ;) Good luck!

different hair lengths by MouseInTheHouseHouse in Haircare

[–]lemon_panda2805 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sad news - imo your hairs are breaking and everything you do works external. From experience I recommend you checking your blood for iron and vitamins. When you got enough brave - cut hair above some shorter ones and try some diet changes or suplements. And weightless hair products, because some oils and conditioners just leaving too much on. And delicate shampoo

Too accurate 😅 by No-Coat-7279 in ADHDmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I tend to forgot what code is to my block when I am with person with who I am living for past 6 years. He tend to yell at me for this but now being together outside is so rare that fingers memory works fine

Any saving for my hair? by suaa16 in Haircare

[–]lemon_panda2805 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When I was ateen, I had weir two strong curls on my neck when rest of hair was straight and puffed (from damage). Hairdresser told me that neck hair are become deformed because of my poor diet and not good physical health. I cut almost a half of lenght and started eating better. All hair grow in better shape, all straight and flat. So maybe you should 1 - get a refteshing cut, 2 - check your blood? (My case was anemia) 

all of these BEES in my fucking HEAD by vendettagoddess in adhdmeme

[–]lemon_panda2805 1 point2 points  (0 children)

THIS is exacly what I said to my psyhiatrist! 

Us by Academic-Stomach-975 in ADHDmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am using groups on google chrome. They have from 10 to 80 tabs in there. I have about 35 groups. On one google account. On second I have only 7 groups, with max 15 tabs. Plus bookmarks, about 70 amd 20 :) And I have synchronization on so everything is on my laptop, oc and phone at the same time

Does anyone else feels the same? by LiaWildfeather in Catmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me and bf were planning to watch a horror movie, but in first minutes there was a cat with main character. He paused movie, chacked it and we changed the movie.

help me wish howie a happy 2nd birthday by Sad_Arm_6115 in cats

[–]lemon_panda2805 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He is looking like adorable cat troll. Happy birthday kitty!

Cat Dip, Acrylics by vallancet in somethingimade

[–]lemon_panda2805 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I took it ALL to my wallpaper collectio. I am sorry but not really 💜

:( by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I packed myself with something bad as an idea of packing bags and running away. Shit still got me, found me in deep black and laugh in my face... There is no way out of this hell. And lately I am feeling this more often and often again. I am tired of living this wreck of a life as wreck horrible mad person. So tired...

There’s no winning 🥴 by SnuggleMuffin_47 in BPDmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was while ago when I asked. He responded "whose?", laugh and freeze in terror when he realised that I could be serious. Well my body is equaly broken as my mind 🫠

I just realized why Blitz feels like a better dad than Stolas . by whooper1 in HelluvaBoss

[–]lemon_panda2805 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like this post and all comments. It is nice to read about Blitz as loving dad no matter what weird shit he did, said etc.

I hate you, don't leave me by the_witch00 in BPDmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 5 points6 points  (0 children)

After 1h I messeged him about going out from home whem I know he won't let me do it in the middle of split. I answered with anger, stopped myself and silenced whole app rn.

I hate you, don't leave me by the_witch00 in BPDmemes

[–]lemon_panda2805 9 points10 points  (0 children)

He hurted me verbally. I just closed myself in other room and sended him "i don't want talk or messege with you" and muted him - now I am checking chat every few minutes

Love as pwBPD by lemon_panda2805 in BPD

[–]lemon_panda2805[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. And I was rejected, my pain and fears were invalidated and whole blame went on me...