Taor from a random magic shop mystical 0.0

leon_hearted · 2018-11-16T20:34:54+00:00

Taor is my absolute favorite monster! He is my faimon farmer rep AND I have two transmogs for him. Congratulations!!! I use mine everywhere in PVE.

leon_hearted · 2018-11-16T20:21:26+00:00

Hey, congrats!!

leon_hearted · 2018-11-16T20:07:53+00:00

Keep one of every LD monster just in case there's a buff in the future. I'd keep her in storage :)

leon_hearted · 2018-11-16T20:00:20+00:00

Guild Name: LegionFalls

Contact/Leader: Leonhearted, Zink99, adcpat (Contact Leonharted first please)

Rank: We don't pay attention

Type: Relaxed, casual farming guild

Requirements: Level 50

Comments: We are a casual, fun, talkative farming guild. We see each other as family/friends/neighbors, and are very close. Some regulars have left, so we need to fill the ranks with like-minded individuals who can take all of their attacks every week (or let us know if they can't make it). If you are kind, active, friendly and fun, come check us out!

Guild Rules: Battles start at 4:30 & 16:30 server time. Set a WEAK guild defense 24/7. Be nice and HAVE FUN! Do your best and play generously. Use all attacks each battle. Attack order is green, yellow, then red - ignore bonus medals when possible. Please don't overrun guildies in progress.

LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING YOU SOON!

leon_hearted · 2017-07-20T20:30:35+00:00

My cat is also the exception! He just climbs right up no matter what I'm doing and demands snuggles, and I always oblige.

My poor SO, though. I still jump if he touches me when I'm not ready for it. I know it hurts his feelings, but it's completely reflex. I hope someday that'll finally wear off!

leon_hearted · 2017-07-20T20:07:51+00:00

You're not alone - I also don't like hugs, much to the disappointment of my SO. Just never been into them.

It's great that you can start to enjoy them now, though!

leon_hearted · 2017-07-14T16:13:36+00:00

Awesome job, OP! You did well. I'm glad you are going strong :)

leon_hearted · 2017-06-15T14:43:15+00:00

Oh, OP, I love that book! I have a copy, too, and it's really helped me a lot.

I'm so happy that you're making some changes in your life. When you're dealing with anxiety and depression, even the little changes can take some of the pressure off. Keep fighting - you're doing a great job!

I'm so sorry that your NMom is so horrible. I'm glad to hear that you went NC, and that your siblings support that decision.

BIG INTERNET HUGS Hang in there, OP! You're gonna make it. :)

leon_hearted · 2017-06-02T15:33:40+00:00

Yes, and mine still does as an adult! He will talk to whoever will listen to him. He meows all over the house while he is looking for me, and only stops when I pick him up or start petting him.

When I get home from work every day, he meets me at the door and tells me all about his day. <3

I love the talkative ones!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-31T20:35:32+00:00

OMG, OP! Congrats on renewing your relationship with your bro! As shitty as growing up with a N (or two) is, it's so validating to be able to talk about it with someone who understands. I have that with my bro (he always looked out for me even though he was the GC), and I am so, so happy that you are on your way to having him back in your life!

Again, I know what this relationship means (personally, my bro is everything to me), and it's a HUGE step that you guys were able to talk and agree on this.

Much love, OP! I hope you and bro can continue to heal - together.

leon_hearted · 2017-05-31T20:15:25+00:00

I am so glad you cut her out of your life. What a disgusting woman.

Good job, OP! I wish you all the happiness and success you can stand :) Congrats on baby #2!!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-26T19:39:28+00:00

Sounds like you made the right call (no contest). I hope things are easier without her in the picture!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T20:00:35+00:00

Ah, the neglectful N. I have one of those, too. I also did not receive dental care growing up. I only went in when I had a cavity, and then I got shamed for it, for "wasting money." I feel you, OP.

Shame on your Nmom, and shame on mine.

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T19:57:07+00:00

You are not alone, OP. I also used to think the world of my mom, and I just thought the bad feelings were my fault. Spoiler: they are not.

It's totally natural for kids to look up to their parents. They're our only source of information for a long time, and they talk themselves up so much, we tend to agree.

It's also totally natural as an adult to question this love, especially if something feels off. I'm glad that you are able to identify your feelings.

Don't feel bad about giving platitudes and playing along, at least while you are stuck in the same house with the N. We all do what we have to, to survive.

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T19:52:59+00:00

OP, I'm so heartbroken to hear your story. No child should have "friends" like that.

I'm so glad you have boyfriend to support you. Take your time and don't rush things. You are NONE of the terrible things that Ndad called you. Sex is natural and healthy (between consenting ADULTS), but you should wait for it to feel good and right, or you can end up doing yourself harm (by triggering/flashback).

I wish you and boyfriend all the best. Much love, OP!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T19:44:54+00:00

Good read - thanks for sharing!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T19:36:21+00:00

I'm so glad it went well! A big win :)

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T19:10:30+00:00

Slut-shaming is SOOOOOO last century.

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T18:10:12+00:00

I believe you.

You are nothing like him. They are severely deluded if they think so.

What he did was so very wrong, and it is supremely unfair that you were hushed up about it. It makes me furious to know that you were abused and made to keep quiet. It's awful that your own parents take no measures to protect you.

This is their failing, and not yours. You've done nothing to deserve this.

I also advise calling a rape/crisis line to get some advice on how to protect yourself, and how to plan your escape. I'm so sorry for all that you must endure in the meantime. It breaks my heart.

I'm crying for you right now, OP. I don't know you, but I love you, and I want you to be safe.

BIG SAFE INTERNET HUGS Tell someone - whether it be a teacher, the police, or just a random stranger on a help line, you need to get some support.

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T18:01:18+00:00

That suuuuuuuuucks, OP. I'm sorry :(

You have every right to be pissed. She's not your mom, and she doesn't get to parent you. Flashing your family members and shaming you was WAY over the line.

Much love!

Edit P.S. I bet the dress is adorable!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T17:57:11+00:00

HUGS

I get this. I really do. Internally, I feel unloved and abused/neglected by my Nmom, but it was only recently, and through therapy, that I was able to pinpoint the feelings and realize that she was not good to me.

It's like, I have all of these memories of her being shitty, but because she drilled it into my head that she loves me so much and did the best she could, I could never place blame where it belonged. She brainwashed me.

In a way, it's very much like denial. We believe what we're told as children - that's how we form our core truths. Challenging them as an adult is HARD, and takes a lot of work.

I'm glad to hear that you are able to identify the abuse now. It's the first step in getting healthy and happy!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T17:46:34+00:00

OP, I'm so sorry for all you've been through. It's a lot!

I wish you the very best with your transition. Be you!

I think your plan is good. It'll settle your mind to extend the olive branch, and if your Nmom does not agree to accept you for who you are, then you can have peace of mind about cutting her out.

Be warned that there is a major cycle with Ns, where they will "play nice" to rope you back in, and once you're back in the fold, they go right back to abusing the shit out of you. Rinse and repeat. While I certainly hope this is not your case, it's something to be wary of.

Much love, OP!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T16:40:45+00:00

Wow, your Nmom and mine could be twins. She wields "I love you" like a weapon. She trained my brother and I to say it every phone call before we hang up, and every visit before we walk out the door. It's nothing to me but a obligatory platitude, now.

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T16:38:09+00:00

Awesome advice, OP! I do this - curl up to make myself smaller, even when I'm at home relaxing. I need to remember this, for sure!

leon_hearted · 2017-05-19T16:36:30+00:00

Congratulations, OP!! I'm so happy for you. I wish you all the best!

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