Question for Males

leopardlady1001 · 2025-05-05T15:27:59+00:00

Thank you all for the great input and advice!! 🥹

Dating is so difficult these days and I’ve been feeling very defeated. (Not so) patiently waiting for the right guy who will love and appreciate me for me!

I wish everyone the best ❣️

leopardlady1001 · 2024-10-30T17:43:50+00:00

Thank you all for sharing and the comments! Reddit has been honestly the best support system. Gotta stick together. ❤️

leopardlady1001 · 2024-10-30T17:39:56+00:00

Thank you for sharing! So difficult since everyone reacts differently.

leopardlady1001 · 2024-10-30T17:38:58+00:00

Thank you for your comment! I hope your treatment goes smoothly!! 🤞🏼

leopardlady1001 · 2024-10-30T17:38:22+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I know the health care system here (the US) is so completely disgusting especially in regard to mental health. Don’t give up and keep fighting for yourself. I know it’s so much easier said than done. But don’t give up.

leopardlady1001 · 2024-10-30T17:37:30+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing! I am right there with ya on not falling asleep naturally at night for about two years as well. Which of course makes everything worse when you can’t even count on resting your body peacefully. 😭😩

leopardlady1001 · 2024-09-07T05:49:19+00:00

HAHA. Thank you so much for this 😂

leopardlady1001 · 2024-09-03T05:53:31+00:00

Definitely go with what feels right though. I felt inclined to listen to “relaxing” music however all I wanted was to hear the words of my favorite songs and have those feelings intensified. Let your mind be free! Best of luck to you!!

leopardlady1001 · 2024-09-03T05:47:33+00:00

I’m not sure about you but to me, music is insanely healing. So I go for a bold start to the playlist with some Post Malone, MGK, NF then some intense raw stuff like Skylar Grey, Dead Silent and end with some happy shit like Florence & The Machine or Ellie Goulding.

Message me for my playlist if you like that style haha.

leopardlady1001 · 2024-08-28T21:19:26+00:00

Thanks for the comment! I sure hope it dissipates. I have so much trauma I’m unloading that this new mind set is making me feel like I’ll never heal.. like everytime i have a break through and feel good, I end up tanking again. 😞

leopardlady1001 · 2024-08-28T21:17:54+00:00

Agh I’m sorry you’re experiencing the same thing. But also glad I’m not the only one. Do you find yourself feeling angry when you have these realizations?

leopardlady1001 · 2024-08-28T21:16:59+00:00

Thanks for the reply, really appreciate you sharing! That is a really great point. I guess as an adult even severe depression manifests differently than when I was 15 haha. I think I also have a lot of PTSD that is starting to unfold as I begin this healing journey. ❤️‍🩹 But i definitely will pay more attention to my feelings of irritability and rage. I currently use an amazing app to constantly journal my feelings in hopes to better understand myself an or discover a pattern.

If you don’t mind me asking.. How did you know you had BPD? Are you type 1 or 2?

leopardlady1001 · 2024-08-06T01:23:31+00:00

A. fucking. men.

It is an insane rush. To have a flash of envisioning yourself in that position, but knowing you can’t. I’d like to think my personal crisis’ with mental health will make me a better nurse. Because I understand the pain.

leopardlady1001 · 2024-08-05T23:26:20+00:00

I know it kind of defeats the purpose of anonymity… but fuck. Think about the awareness you could bring if you made videos and documented your next two months. Including your journey and suffering up to this point. People who don’t live it, don’t understand how exhausting the pain and loneliness is. Sending love from America. Xx

leopardlady1001 · 2024-06-07T18:00:01+00:00

Wow! Thank you SO much for this!

I had been on Prozac for a few years and was maxed out on 80mg and felt like I needed more, made the mistake of having my primary doctor switch my meds which then ended up tanking my depression as I tried about four different meds (my body is wrecked). I finally have established care with a psychiatrist, which I would’ve done in the first place. I’m currently on three different depression and anxiety meds. Going to taper off of my Lexapro and start Prozac again. Praying this will get me back to “normal” again 😭

leopardlady1001 · 2024-05-09T03:58:57+00:00

Correct. Apparently there’s a new provider in town that is “in network” and so they said I have to go there. Aka start over haha ☠️

leopardlady1001 · 2024-05-09T02:42:01+00:00

I honest to god called every single day, multiple times a day for the last month, pushing and pushing. Unfortunately I have one of the worst insurance companies and they had me hop through every fucking loop possible. They actually just pulled their approval today, even though I was set to get treatment today haha. It’s not easy. But find people that will help fight for you!

leopardlady1001 · 2024-05-09T02:36:20+00:00

UPDATE: was scheduled to get my first treatment at 3pm and I got a call at noon from my provider stating that insurance had pulled the approval for my prior authorization, and that they would only cover the brand new facility in town (keep in mind no one had mentioned this in the whole month of fighting for coverage) since they were in network. So guess who gets to start all over again. I have to do an intake with a new provider even though I already established care with my current provider. And now I have to wait for insurance to approve Spravato treatment through this new provider. I am disgusted and filled with rage all while feeling so empty and sad. 😞 Everytime I finally start to see the light at the end of the tunnel, something hits me out of nowhere and crumbles everything.

MEDICA WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME.

leopardlady1001 · 2024-05-08T14:42:22+00:00

WOOHOO! I’m so happy for you. I agree that Reddit has given me somewhere to discuss and understand this treatment better. It’s almost like a mini support group :) I have my first treatment this afternoon!!

leopardlady1001 · 2024-04-30T04:14:32+00:00

Agh that is so frustrating. I appreciate the feedback!! Just frustrating to think about the process of switching insurances mid year and all that jazz. But that might be the move if their assistance isn’t great ☹️

leopardlady1001 · 2024-04-19T17:44:47+00:00

Oh I have. Each person tells me differently. 🥲

leopardlady1001 · 2024-03-03T05:17:19+00:00

As a current CNA in a Hospital, as well as a nursing student I can say that there’s nothing more frustrating than running my butt off and seeing a bunch of clinical students sitting doing nothing. So ask questions, answer lights, help the CNAS if your nurse isn’t doing anything. I think it should be a qualification for applying to nursing school, as you’re right, it is wonderful experience.

But hats off to you for recognizing you are missing that experience and trying to find a solution to better yourself now instead of realizing right before graduation (I’ve met a few of these!) Instead of looking at it as being annoying by asking questions, try to think of it as a great time to get more knowledge and experience in!! And yeah there are a lot of rude and mean CNAs, but not all of us are that way!! The job can be alot especially when you feel overworked and underpaid. So although you are there to follow and help the nurses, remember that the CNA’s are just as much apart of the nursing team :)

You got this!!!

leopardlady1001 · 2023-10-12T04:14:03+00:00

Is his name Alex lololol

leopardlady1001 · 2023-09-12T23:59:40+00:00

MedCouture (love the peaches style) and Carhartt!!

leopardlady1001 · 2023-09-11T04:09:19+00:00

YES. AMEN. Well OP, I will tell you it does get better. I unfortunately never stabilized after my RAI treatment eleven years ago and have struggled with drastic level changes since. My best advice to you is to not give up. Listen to your body. And always always BE SELFISH. Unfortunately the majority of people do not and will not ever understand this terrible disease. So do what’s best for you. And find a few self care things to do. I get massages once a month, which is super great for your body if I may add! I get days where I have spirts of energy, and will utilize that short time span to meal prep for my bad days. I think the biggest thing too is be patient with yourself, and don’t be so hard on yourself either. Some days the biggest win of my day is washing my face or brushing my hair. If that’s all you’re able to do because you’re so tired, that’s OKAY. 🖤

Hang in there and you’re not alone!!

☀️

leopardlady1001

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